THE DRAMATIC LOVE AND HATRED

Chapter 10

Steev's POV :   

John said, “Steev.. You look very happy and I am happy too”.

“Yeah of course I am overjoyed. There are numerous reasons for today’s joy. One of the reasons is that we went to Shika’s house and had good conversation with her. We are getting closer. I mean a close friendship”, I said to John.

“Oh I see.. I agree with all the reasons you gave right now, but aren’t you forgetting something? Don’t you think you missed a reason or a point or you just do not want to mention about it here and wanna be happy alone? Answer me” John teased me.

“John.. I did not forget any point. I remember each and everything”, I said.

“Then tell me. I wanna hear it”, said John.

I said, “Okay boy I will. And continued, “ I am overjoyed because Shika is unmarried”, I said loudly with lot of joy.

“Yes my boy.. this is what I was expecting to hear. I am happy for you”, John said.

 I was happy to see the joy in John’s face as well. I just thanked God for blessing me with such a truthful friend and also for sending Shika in my life. I was still not sure that why was I so much excited about Shika’s marital status. I was worried when I had a doubt if she was married or not and then later when I came to know she wasn’t married, I was the happiest person ever.

“Let’s sleep buddy, good night”, John said and went to sleep. “Okay sure, good night”, I replied.

As every night the time had come where I over think everything. And the overthinking will lead to negative thoughts only. I try to avoid thinking anything at night but my mind just doesn’t listen.

I got a thought about my job that night. When I was finally thinking that the doubt about Shika’s marital status was cleared now the new nightmare had arrived. I started getting worried and scared about the interview I gave. I started thinking will I get the job or not?, was I successful in impressing them?, did I successfully show them how hungry I was to join their company?, did they understand my eagerness and excitement to get hired? And so on.

It was not the right time to disturb John and ask him my questions therefore I just kept quite. Though I was confident about my performance, still the anxiety remained.

I was waiting for the night to end quickly and the day to begin. After all the scary thoughts finally I dozed.