THE DRAMATIC LOVE AND HATRED

Chapter - 133 - Realisation

Steev's POV :

I asked John why was he asking me a out of the box question. "What why? I just wanted to know that's why I asked you.", he said. "Oh is it.. okay cool. But don't you remember right in front of you she informed what time she would be coming to pick me up?", I said. "I think my mind was somewhere else that's why I couldn't hear. Tell me now.", he replied. "She told at 11:00 a. m. or by 12:00 p. m. she would be reaching.", I said. "Oh is it that's great.", he replied. "Yes I know. But you said your mind was somewhere else. Was it with Sophia?", I asked. "Steev, please stop taking her name every now and then. I said you right that there is nothing between us then why are you doing this?", he said. "No I did not mean that, I just asked if you where thinking of her. In a casual way.", I said. "You asked what you wanted and now you are trying to be innocent. That doesn't work Steev. You better not drag me with Sophia. Do not try to built fake relationships between two people. It is not right. I hope you have understood and I hope you will keep this in mind.", John spoke really rude to me and went from there. It was really hurtful the way he spoke. I felt may be I had dragged the matter way too much, probably I made him too uncomfortable about the matter and that's why he behaved that way with me. I had no anger on him. But I was feeling sorry for whatever I did. I felt bad for not respecting his personal space. If he had to share anything with definitely he would have shared it. He was not saying anything then may be it was not meant to be shared that's why, I thought. I too silently went inside the room and sat down. By the time I got a message from Shika that she had reached home safely few minutes ago she was unable to call as was with her mother. I was glad that she informed me that she had reached home safely. "Hey Steev, Sophia had messaged me that she had reached already long back. I had dropped her near the lane right, that's why. Then I forgot to tell you.", said John. I stared at him just like that. He suddenly realised what he had done. "Sorry, I forgot about whatever I had said.", he said. "No problem.", I said and went to the washroom. I came out of the washroom after 20 minutes. And then I did not talk anything to John as I felt like leaving him by himself because he was a bit out of world kinda. I went and layed down on my bed. John came to me and said, "Steev are you too sleepy? if not, then I had to talk to you.", I got up from my bed and sat down. "Yes John, please tell me. I am not that sleepy.", I replied. "Okay, actually what I had to see is that I am really sorry for whatever I said to you I really did not mean whatever I said it was just the situation made me to speak like that when I imagine about whatever I spoke I feel it was really really and meaningless that's why I want to sit and clear whatever I have done. and I know that you are really angry with me because the way I behaved with you was not right and I really agree with whatever reaction you give", said John. "You know what, at the first place I was never angry with you. As soon as you spoke to me and left from there I thought that you were really uncomfortable the way I questioned you. You had already warned me more than once that not to talk about that matter anymore because you did not like that, but unfortunately I did not follow that and I went on dragging the same matter because of which you wear annoyed and uncomfortable. Due to that you reacted that way and it was completely normal and completely okay. So you need not ask or you need not be sorry for that.", I said. "You felt bad or not will be secondary the main thing is that I have realised that what I did was wrong and that's why it is my duty to come and apologize with you about it and let you know that I have realised my mistake. You might say that you did not feel bad or you are not angry with me but I have to follow my duty and principals.", said John. "Okay then. You came and apologized with me and you think that I have forgiven you. Actually I do not have to forgive you because you did not do any mistake but still for your satisfaction I am saying that I have forgiven you. Is that fine?", I asked. " Yes Steev it's perfect. Thank you for saying that.", John replied. "No need to thank me John. It was my duty as well. Now do not worry too much about anything just be calm. And mainly you have seen me as an example for an over thinker. So you need to learn from that. Do not think too much or you will fall sick just like me. Ha! ha!", I said. "Yeah you are right. I will take care about that. By the way how are you now? What about your fever?", said John. "Yes now I'm alright. My fever just ran away. Once the matter got solved I was fine. Actually when I was talking to Shika, I was sweating a lot and after that my fever had gone. So I am fine now.", I replied. "Wow that's great. thank God everything went well and you are also fine now. But still lemme check once.", said John and came to me and checked my temperature. When he checked it was normal. "Yes I checked your temperature and it is completely fine. Good to see this improvement. "Yes John, I over thought about the situation and later I fell Sick.”, I said. "Yes exactly. You always over think a lot but this time it was too much as a result you fell sick.", John replied. "Yes you are right. I really have to do something about my overthinking and stressing thing.", I said. "Yes that's what I was thinking about.", he replied. "Okay, now let's come to the main point that I actually wanted to talk to you about.", John added. "Yes John tell me what is it.", I said. "actually the thing that I wanted to tell you is regarding Sophia.", he said. "Oh is it, okay tell me.", I replied. "actually sometime back Shika and you were trying to hint me about Sophia and my connection. Later on you too asked me several times regarding that thing and I just behaved really rude to you and did not even answer anything to you. Other than giving you a reply I just tried to shut your mouth and I used a very wrong way for that and that was being rude and angry.", he said. "Yes John I know that. Now no problem we have already done discussing about that right.", I replied. " Yes I know that we have already completed discussing regarding this matter but I started this topic once again because I wanted to tell you something else too that's why.", he said. "Oh okay then fine. Please continue.", I replied. "Okay, so listen actually I was not completely unaware whatever you and Shika were trying to tell me I was just acting in front of you people that I was really innocent and I was not able to understand whatever you guys wet trying to tell me. And not only that I was acting that I had zero feelings regarding Sophia.", he said. "What? I'm really confused what are you talking about. I really don't understand. Please elaborate it to me.", I said. I was really unaware of what John actually wanted to tell me he was really talking in such a way that a person like me would really never understand that. I felt he himself was not aware of what he actually wanted to tell me I felt. "I'm sorry, till yesterday you were having mixed feelings and confusions but today I think I am taking into that trap. I really don't understand.", he said. He was looking really worried and confused at the same time. "What happened John? Why are you behaving like this and what is Wrong with you, please tell me in simple words because I'm really getting scared by looking at you. I never saw you behaving like this.", I said. "Yes Steev, I will tell you straight away now.", he said. "Yes John, please do that.", I said. "Actually the thing is, I am confused about Sophia, I have some kind of feeling towards her but I am unable to figure out what is it exactly. And I am really getting scared by thinking what if I am in love with her? I am very scared of being in relationship with a girl like that. But if I am really in love then I can't do anything I have to approach her because if not then I would go crazy. Actually currently my situation is in a confused stage where I am unable to figure out if I like her as a good friend or if there is something more than friendship.", he said. "Oh okay so this is the matter. You know what if you ask me then I would say that you should not worry about falling in love because it is a beautiful thing and everyone has rights for that. But as you said you are scared about falling in love then probably you are not ready to have a relationship currently that is the reason why you are getting weird feelings and so on. So do not stress much just let it be and let it happen whatever it wants to happen. Everything will happen when it should happen so do not worry.", I said. "But the thing is... ", John said and paused. "Yes John please tell me. Do not worry I won't judge you at all. And you are aware of it I think.", I said. "Yes I know that, actually to be honest I really enjoyed her company she is really a intersting person and she really is a type of girl whom I wanted. And when I met her and came to know about her and her personality I was really impressed and liked a lot.", he said. By looking at the way John was talking to me I was really feeling so weird and sad because I never liked John being sad or being in problem. Actually if he liked Sophia there was nothing to be worried about or nothing to get scared as well. Liking someone would be such a beautiful thing and they could be good friends and later on they could think about their future.

"John listen to me, I understood that you like Sophia and you started liking her company. You even liked her personality and she is a type of girl whom you really wanted in your life. Now keep this matter as it is, nothing to get scared about and continue being her good friend as usual. Shikha and me both are good friends I started liking her first. Even though I was a bit worried or scared I was not that much worried or scared of liking her I was really happy about that. I never thought of what would happen or what not I just continued being her good friend. And we were good friends for a long time and currently I think even she started building feelings for me. I am not that sure if she feels that I too have feelings for her but according to me, We both currently know that we both have feelings for each other and it is pretty cool. You do not worry about what would happen between you and Sophia even she is really a understanding girl. Right now, you both continue being good friends, future will come automatically you do not need to worry about that at all, if you are truthful and if your heart is pure with love then definitely you will get success I feel.", I said. " I think you are right Steev, I am really over reacting for such a small matter. It was just one day where I spent time with her and I really got attracted towards her and honestly yes it's a normal thing. I was really worried kind of because it was a first girl on whom I had got such a feeling, that's why I was a bit nervous and that's the reason I was scared.", he said.