THE DRAMATIC LOVE AND HATRED

Chapter - 25 - Feeling of True Love

Steev's POV :

We were having some beautiful conversation and travelling by the auto.

Time passed and finally we reached back to our room after 20 minutes journey. We paid the auto charges and walked towards the room. John opened the lock and then we entered inside. I don't know why but I was continuously smiling like a kid. John said, “Steev, stop dreaming and go fresh up.” I said, “okay John I will fresh up but before that let me enjoy today's day.” John asked me, “How are you going to enjoy today's day?”. “I am going to enjoy the day by imagining all that happened today with a recap.” I replied. “Okay! sure you can continue your recap until then I will take a shower and get back to you.”, said John. “Yes John, definitely you can take a shower and come back. After you come back I will go to take a shower, but till then let me sit and dream.”, I replied. And then John went to take a shower and I sat down there and continued my recap imagination of the day with the great smile on my face.

I knew that the thing that I was doing was really a silly thing but still I was getting pleasure in those small things. I think most of them act the same way I did. But it’s just some most of them do not share it. I believe that we should always do things that give us pleasure to our souls from within. After 15 minutes, John was back taking a shower. John said, “Steev enough stop acting too silly and just a shower and get back.” 

“Okay sir, I am going to take a shower and please don't scold me now, I am going.” I replied and just ran to the washroom. I don't mind if John scolds me because he is just like my elder brother who is trying to guide his younger brother and I just love him.

I came back taking a shower in 10 minutes. By the time I was back, John had arranged the bed for us to sleep. He always proves that he is a responsible elder brother. 

John also had a sibling. He was younger to him. He was his younger brother. But he passed away when John was 8 years old. At that time his younger brother was just 3 years old. John’s younger brother expired due to a car accident. John, his brother, mother and father were travelling in a car and all of a sudden the car met with an accident. The car hit another huge vehicle which resulted a huge accident. John, his father, and his mother survived the accident but his brother couldn't survive. It was the greatest incident that took place in John's life, which he would never forget in his life. Later he stayed away from his parents in another city where I stayed because of the job purpose. He was never ready to leave his parents alone in the village and move to another city but he was the only bread winner at this house as his father was retired and they had no source of income. Due to that situation he had to move out from his village to another city for work. After John and I started staying together he always treated me like his younger brother. John was 5 years older than me and he used to always say that, “if my brother was alive he would be of your age.”

 At that moment I was proud and happy that I have my brother and mother with me. Blood relations are not necessary for having a strong bond. It means nothing. At the end of the day what matters is a strong bond.

I came to know that after I met John, Shika and her mother. At that point of time John,  Shika and mom were the three main important people in my life life. It was a miracle that even though they were not my blood relatives, but they were more closer than any other relatives I had. That's what I wanted in my life. I always thanked my God for that. And even I had a job in my hand at that moment so I was happy and relaxed.

Everything was going well and more over my feelings for Shika was also growing day by day. I want to know what feelings she had for me. I was wondering that if I approached her for married what might be her reply.

 Will the reply will be negative? My heart would break into thousand pieces. And I was afraid that our friendship also would break. I was not willing to loose Shika at any cost. I was slowly getting assurance that my feelings for Shika was nothing but love. That was the reason why I wanted to marry her.

Being unsure whether I was in love or not would be my foolishness. There was nothing to think twice whether I loved her or not. The answer was clear, yes I loved her with my whole heart.

All those thoughts were popping into my mind when I and John were lying down. The lights were off and when I looked at John he was already asleep.

I was not willing to disturb him. I thought maybe he was too tired that day.

I thought let me stop imagining things and I must go to sleep. And then I closed my eyes and went to sleep. I was sure that the sleep would be a peaceful one. And I would wake up every midnight due to uncomfortable sleep. I would wake up in between my sleep or in the Midnight all of a sudden. But that night I did not wake up in middle of the night, I directly woke up in the morning itself. There was no disturbance in my mind or heart. This made me wake up with peace. It was a beautiful morning. My heart and mind my soul were all in peace, which resulted in a peaceful sleep and that kind of sleep was much awaited one for me. Overall I was happy.

The next day was a very good morning for me. I got up before John that day.

I woke up early in the morning and brushed my teeth and took a shower.

I always loved early morning shower. And then I thought of preparing breakfast for John and me that morning. So I went to the kitchen and I was thinking what to be prepared. I got an idea of preparing dosa and chutney but I was not aware of the exact consistency and the exact portion to be added for preparing dosa batter so I took my mobile and started browsing for the same. Then finally I found lot of information and I got the exact method of preparing dosa and chutney. So quickly I started preparing for the same. I wanted to keep it ready before John wakes up, I knew it was not possible but yet I wanted to try it. Therefore I quickly added all the required ingredients. After adding the ingredients I suddenly read and found out that for preparing dosa we need to keep the batter ready one day before itself. But that was okay because quickly I browsed some important videos and I found a quick dosa recipe. Before I started to prepare the dosa I thought of keeping the batter for 10 minutes at least. So I quickly prepared the batter and kept it aside for 10 minutes and began to prepare the chutney. As I was grinding the chutney John woke up and he came to the kitchen and was surprised seeing me cooking. “Wow today morning I am going to get a very yummy dish. What are you preparing Steev?”, John asked with very much excitement. “I am preparing dosa with chutney today.”, I replied. “Wow that's amazing, I am excited to have it.”, John said. “Yes John definitely it might be very tasty according to me.”, I replied. “Now you get ready for your work until then the breakfast will be ready.” , I said. “Thanks a lot Steev, I will get ready for my work first of all let me take a shower then I'll see you.”, John said.

“Yes John, don't worry about me I am good here.”, I said. And then John went to the washroom to fresh up and then I started preparing the dosa for the breakfast. All of a sudden I started getting interested in cooking. I was imagining that if Shika and I get married I would never let her cook. I would be the one who will cook at home. I wanted her to sit and take rest like my queen and I would do all the work. Imagining me with Shika was a different kind of happiness. I was dying to be with her forever. But was very scared as well. But I was not ready to hide my feelings and sit silently just because I was scared. I was just waiting for the right time and the right situation. Having faith in lord and myself was the only thing I could do that day.

'True love never fails.', I had heard that sentence n number of times and I truly believed in it. And I had full faith in my love as well.

No more confusion only true love, I thought.