I have kept this box for the past 14 years; I was supposed to hand it over when Amour turned 25, I think I have avoided doing this subconsciously because it means she can now decide to cut me off totally for been an asshole and at the same time I fear what it would do to her already distorted emotions. She turns 28 tomorrow and all I can feel is despair about everything, I promised Annie to be a good father to her but I could not bring myself to do that in fact I know I have been a terrible father to Amour from day one. She was a constant reminder of something I would never be to Annie, I have not seen her physically in 10 years but she makes time for Ade every now and then, at least they get to see via video calls and physically on Annie’s remembrance and his birthday. She has been a grea
