Be your own mirror

Crazy love

Let be realistic after you fall deeply in love and the person who used to be yourself space hurts you so badly. you will no longer give love the way you use too.

what I have noticed within myself is that I love accordingly and leave in a space for disappointment. Always giving myself extraordinary love, no longer ask for too much always read between the lines. if a person doesn't seem to give much of the time for me. I give myself attention and most of all always find a way to upgrade my life .

The more you grow up you will never be desperate for love, affection and attention when you love yourself first. as women we turn to forget to love ourselves when we stay long in a relationship. We end up always putting the partner and kids first. That is totally wrong because we end up in depression, bipolar and other deadly illnesses.

sharing my experience of loving too much I end up in hospital having the nose bleed for 8 hours non stop, high blood pressure kicking up to 195,198 stock vibe and the person I was stressing about didn't even come to check how I'm holding up that moment by myself in hospital why I'm holding on this relationship because the is no one in it I'm just myself holding to a memory what it used to be.

I gained more confidence to walk away from the drama and toxicity because it almost changed me to be someone I'm not. I stop thinking about the kids and about him if he misses me or not, instead I become so selfish and put myself left as tomorrow I'm gonna turn back and say I'm joking.

You will never believe this instead of being stressed and crying I just found peace and hope that each and everyday I will get better . start dreaming of changing location and having a stable place for me and the kids . this saying say when it time god will close the old door and open the new one I leave by it seen it in my life. because as I was having the thought of finding my own place something pushing me, check check on internet for house and I don't know how I would pay for that house at that time. I took chances to apply for a house boom I was approved by the bank and the joy was above the limitation.

I started climbing up and up being carried by the grace of god . people become jealous how come I'm succeeding instead of suffering since I separated with the father of my kids. what they forgot is that God had a plan with my life before I was even conceived so what ever the trail of life I been through it was a preparation for today to always swim in Harvey water along his side and guidance.

If I share a peace of my life or word it not for judgement or make myself look good but is to inspire the next person to not loose hope and don't be afraid to start again because everything happens for a reason and every situation has a solution even though at that moment you won't see it but as time passess you will see the light and you become more and more strong in every challenge.

Bear in mind as you prosper in life your fake friends will turn back on you start ruining your name because of jealousy. some of the family members will distance themselves from you and know the is nothing wrong with you God is aligning your path removing all the rotten fruit that is blocking your way to success place you were you meet to be.

It hurt to see people you thought were good to you start to show you who there are it not nice but it good to be on the clear than hiding in the dark and end up eating poison not knowing who was sniffing behind your back