I'm Inlove With A Gay

Chapter 8

Dad is standing. I looked behind and found none and I think he was waiting for someone. Mimi smile to dad. Mimi's favorite man is my dad because the way he proves his love to my mother that makes him earn his respect to her. Mimi loves her siblings and all of them, they loved my mother even more because she's the eldest. But overall their favorite sibling is Tito Elias since he is the only man in the family.

Dad wraps her arms to me and I lean my body while walking.

"How's the feeling?" He asked while tapping my waist. I glanced to my cousins and mom talking to Tito Elias, and Baba talking to my cousin and Gramps talking to his children.

"Happily intoxicated." I whispered with a smile.

"Mom talk about something... about your worries."

Dad whispered that made me stop.

"It just strike at that minute, Dad. I'm fine and okay, now. It already gone. Those thoughts are already gone." I whispered to him. To guarantee that I'm okay fine, now. Maybe it's normal that out of nowhere you were having doubts to yourself and to people around you, to have insecurities and feel so odd... and maybe it's also normal to feel not okay and to have worries and negative thoughts in your mind.

"It gone because you're happy. And when you're alone or having a rough day... or feeling hypophrenia I want you to remember that I will never replace you, your mother and our family to anyone. I won't love this hard except to your mother."

I nodded and I know.

"We've been for too long. I've been here. I've been living to my dream. And my one and only dream is to live and get married to your mom. And I have it now... I won't let the world take it back what is mine now." He whispered. He took my hands and intertwined it. We saw mom, outside the door waiting for us.

"And I don't mind having no little kid or kids. And when you came... it feels like my world has began. And you were the lamp to my darkest night. I wasn't afraid to the dark because the dark is your mother, her worries, and you is the light that shine and it was perfect. It's like there's no darkness at all. " Dad said and a tear fell down in my eyes. His hand reaches my cheeks and he smile.

It was the perfect and purest smile at all. As if it says that he will never leave us, he will always be with us. That his smile as if it says that if my thoughts is, him going away then he would prove that it just a thought, it shouldn't never existed because in the first it didn't existed.

"This life is only for living... living for the both of you." Dad whispered and wipe the tears on my cheek.

He smiled and kissed my forehead. His hands went to my hands to intertwined it and we were walking happily with a smile while mom is looming at us lovingly and perfectly.

My mom met dad when in her early twenty. They've been together but there are two things that mom can't give to dad and that is a child and a marriage. They were in a relationship for almost ten years and during that years dad keeps on proposing to mom and mom keeps on declining.

Mom dream is to get married to someone he loved and that is dad but mom knew that she can't give a child then mom can't give and accept the marriage.

She wanted to get married but she keeps on declining to dad because she think that there are woman that are better than her that can give Daddy a child. Daddy wants a child but that's not he badly needs. He never needed Mom mother anyone. He rather live his life without a child than live without Mom beside him.

That's why during those years Mom silently pushing dad away but Dad keep on coming back, comforting and kissing those securities away...until it gone and it really disappeared. After ten years of trying, Mom finally had a baby and it was me!

My grandparents are so very happy, and mom's sibling and dad siblings were so happy that they even went to Philippines to celebrate. And all my cousins except Dorethea, are so excited.

And hit me... why woud I worry when dad did everything, proves everything to mom and to us.

"Faster...everyone is waiting." Mom said so happily. Dad chuckles and hug mom on his left side while I was on the right side.

"I love you both..." Dad whispered.

"I love you, Honey." Mom whispered.

I smile hearing it. It was the most fulfilling words to hear saying verbally and keeping on reminding them how much you love. I know that action speaks louder than word but actions would he confusing without a words. For me, if I can have the two then why not right? I want my future husband to say and declare his love to me during my darkest night, saddest moment, and happiest moment in life. Because words are powerful, because when you were in the field of frustration, sadness, brokenness, lost, the words would speak up and that would be your strength. That would be your eyes when your heart is filled with darkness.

Everyone is already in the dining table. They were so happy and loudly talking. I glance to Baba whose happily watching his family talking and my heart melted to see Gramps looking to Baba.

"Where are the husband of Mommies and the wife of Tito Elias." I softly asked to Mom. She only smile while her arms were on my waist.

"They are busy and their doing they doing the work while your Aunt and your cousins are here." She explained and I nodded.

My attention went to Gretchen whose talking to Clover, her eldest sister. I went to her and she smiles at me.

"I didn't know that you were coming. I didn't bring gift but I will bake a delicious cookies for you." I whispered.

"Really??" She exclaimed and giggled.

"Mom, Ate Gabi will bake cookies for me!" Gretchen brag around and everyone is looking at us but sulking.

"What about me?" Anjo and Sanjo said together. I chuckles because they said it together. What6a twins.

"What about me? The eldest cousin?" Sebastian said and pouted like a baby.

"What about me, too? Me? Mee?" Jacob butt in while ready fighting a battle.

Everyone laugh while being so eager and competitive.

"No. How about me, too?" Paul says. .

"It would be unfair if you won't bake cookies for me." Dorethea whispered, too.

"I'm sure that I will turn upside down this table if you, Gabriela Concepcion Dela Guerra won't bake cookies for me. No... I should be the first one to taste it!" Mackemzie exclaimed in final tone and everyone is looking at her keenly.

"Hep... hep... hep..." I said to call their attention. I put my hand in the air like surrendering.

"All of you. I will bake for all of you... for everyone!" I said and everyone claps. "But there's a cake and cookies that Mommy baked-

"We will eat that after this food and you will still bake for us!" Sebastian declared.

Baba and Gramps laugh and the original Concepcion siblings laughed. It's the best medicine to see your family seeing happy and having fun.

"Tere..." Mom called the helper.

"Please get the cake and-

"Hon... I'll get it. " Dad butt in. He smile to assure that it was okay. Dad stood up and minute pass, Dad came back with the bake cake and cookies and put it in the middle of the table. And we started praying together... and the dining area was filled with defeaning laughter.

"Baba..." Sebastian whispered and Baba directly looking at him.

"What is it, honey?" Baba whispered. And Clover was visibly cheering for him. Clover is the daughter of Mommy Lotlot. Mommy lotlot is the third child. And Clover has also a one year old daughter at the age of twenty.

We were smiling while looking to Baba. And she should knew. And Mommy Josephine, Mommy Lotlot were smiling, too and Mimi and Tito Elias chuckles.

"What?" Baba asked again and Gramps laugh.

"We will having a party...pretty please..." He said and blink his eyes as if it making him more handsome. "Promise... I will dance you!" He said and Baba chuckles and nodded.

"Yes!" We cheered.

"What about you Mimi?" Fergus asked. We were looking to Mimi carefully. She loves party. Mackemzie smirk.

"I'm going out right now. I have plans but if your party would still extend in midnight, I'm pretty sure ofcourse I would join." She said.

"Where aee you going, again Iris?" Tito Elias asked strictly. And Mimi laughed.

"Don't me, Elias. I'm already old." Mimi said defensively and rolled her eyes.

"I don't care id you're old. I'm asking where are you going. Tsk, you're so defensive." Tito Elias said and smirked. Mimi is now looking pale, looking around and maybe, calling for help.

"Daddy! Look! Elias is trying to- to..." Mimi said and couldn't even finish her words which make everyone laughed.

"Eat more vegetables." My eyes went to Sanjo. He added more vegetables and I stopped him.

"What am I? A land?" I chuckled when he's putting more and more vegetable. "That's enough vege, Sanj... I can't ate them all." I whispered and he nodded while taking some vege back to his plate.

"How's you're highschool life Paul and Gabi?" Baba asked. "You two are the only left in highschool while your other cousins are now in college and senior high school."

Paul is the son of Mommy Josephine and he is the youngest brother of the twins Anjo and Sanjo. Mommy Josephine doesn't have a daughter, he gave birth to three prince.

"I have fun in my last year of highschool life, Baba. And I'm gonna be graduate next year and everyone is invited. And Baba and Gramps should be there." Paul said and Baba nodded. Everyone is now looking to Paul and Baba. While Mommy Josephine is looking proudly to her youngest.

"I wouldn't miss a special occasion to my grandchildren. You should focus and do good in your education. It's your last year then you will open another door."

"Yes, baba."

"What's strand do you want to go in senior high?" Baba asked carefully.

"STEM, baba.."

"Do you want to manage this haciendera? I know that your brother Sanjo is always visiting here everytime he had a chance... but he decline."

Everyone is now looking to Paul. While the others continue eating but I know they are listening too. We love our hacienda but I think my cousins are want more to explore in the city than in this hills. For me, I can live in the hills and I can live also in the City. If baba would ask and I think I wouldn't be able to decline it.

"I... I want to be a Pilot, baba... I love going here and living here but I think my passion doesn't into managing the haciendera...baba." Baba smiled and nodded.

"I'm sorry, baba..." Paul said in low tone an dhe look down maybe his too disappointed on himself that he decline to baba. Baba only smile and chukles. "No need to sorry. Baba is only asking and I even more proud that you already know what you what your plans for your future. If you want to be a Pilot, then follow that route, no need to think the other road when you already have the door to walk to." Baba said. Paul raise his head and look to baba.

"Thank you Baba." Paul uttered with a smile.

"Baba is only asking...no need to feel off when you decline. I'm even glad you decline because I will be having a heartbreak if you force yourself just to make me happy." Baba softly whispered. She went her glance at me.

"What about you ija? How's your highschool life? You're still in ninth grade?" Baba asked and I nodded. Everyone is looking at me patiently. I saw my mom and dad smile while looking at me.

"It's fun Baba since I'm with my bestfriends. And one more year to graduate."

"Hmm... No boyfriend?" She asked and Gramps, Dad and Tito Elias chukles. They are now looking at me interestingly. I shook my head.

"If you have, you should tell me right away!" Baba said eagerly.

"Baba... I'm still young..."

"That's also your Mommy and Aunties said when they were young and look at them now."

"Mommy..." They said together and only Tito Elias laugh.

"Hmmm... I'm still single." Mimi Iris uttered and Gramps looking at her seriously.

"You should settle down than playing to the hearts of the boys." Gramps warned in serious tone. Mimi Iris jokingly touch her heart as if it hurting her.

"Daddy, they love to play..." Mimi whispered.

"Abraham, that's enough" Baba warned Gamps. And Gramps look at Baba and smile.

"Thanks, My." Mimi whispered happily.

Everyone exchange glances and then smile. My heart feel at ease at that moment. I never expect that we would be here completely just because I wanted to be here. Even those busy schedule they still set aside just to be here. They exchange their buys hectic schedule for this talks. A talks to family is also an energizer to a confusing world. Receiving support from the family, talking each other, helping each other, asking how we've been doing is a feeling that after those years even they don't really in our side but they always make sure that they care.