Chapter Four: Behind the Charm

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Callum's POV Callum had spent most of his adult life being liked by people who didn't actually know him, which he'd decided long ago was easier than the alternative. Charm was armor you could put on in the morning like a suit, cut well, worn confidently, and nobody looked past it to ask what was underneath. It had gotten him through boardrooms, galas, three ex-relationships that had ended amicably because neither party had ever really been let in far enough to be hurt by the leaving. Dane Copper was the first person in years who seemed almost annoyed by the charm, which was, infuriatingly, the thing that had first caught Callum's attention. Dane didn't soften around it. He looked at Callum's easy smiles the way a structural engineer looked at a load-bearing wall, checking it, testing it, waiting for the crack that would tell him what it was actually holding up. Monday's avoidance of Dane's eyes had nothing to do with Dane and everything to do with the reminder Callum had deleted off his own laptop before Dane could ask about it. *Report to R.A.* His father didn't call these meetings check-ins. He called them reports, like Callum was a field agent instead of a son, which was, Callum supposed, closer to the truth than either of them wanted to say out loud. Thursday's report had gone the way Thursday's reports usually went: numbers, expectations, thinly veiled instructions dressed as advice. His father had asked, twice, whether Callum had learned anything useful about Voss & Marsh's finances. Callum had said no both times, which was true, and had not mentioned that he'd stopped looking the moment the assignment started feeling like a betrayal instead of due diligence. By Tuesday, working across the narrowing table from Dane, Callum found himself wanting, with an intensity that surprised him, to tell Dane everything, the reports, the pressure, the particular exhausting weight of being the only son of a man who measured love in contract wins. He got as far as opening his mouth once, over lunch, both of them picking at sandwiches from the deli on the corner. "You go quiet sometimes," Dane said, not looking up from his sketch. "Mid-sentence. Like you catch yourself before you say something." Callum's pulse did something unhelpful. "Do I." "You did it just now." Dane finally looked up, and there wasn't accusation in it, just a careful, searching kind of attention Callum wasn't used to receiving from anyone who wasn't billing him for it. "You don't have to tell me. I just noticed." That was the thing about Dane that undid Callum's usual defenses faster than anything else could have, he didn't push. He noticed, and named it, and then let Callum decide what to do with the noticing, which was somehow more disarming than if he'd demanded an answer. "My father has opinions about this partnership," Callum said finally, which was true and also the smallest possible fraction of the truth, offered like a coin dropped into a much deeper well. "About you, specifically. About whether this is good for the firm's image." "What kind of opinions?" "The kind that don't matter," Callum said, and hated himself a little for how easily the deflection came, how practiced. "I'm not him. Whatever he thinks about this, about you, isn't the same as what I think." Dane studied him for a long moment, long enough that Callum felt genuinely, uncomfortably seen, and then nodded slowly, like he was choosing to let it go without believing it was the whole story. "Okay," he said. "I believe you're not him." It should have been a relief. Instead it sat in Callum's chest like a debt coming due, because *I'm not him* was a promise, and Callum wasn't yet sure it was one he could actually keep, not with his father's voice still echoing in his head about weaknesses and leverage and what this family does not do. He almost told Dane the rest of it that afternoon, watching him lean over the drafting table with a pencil behind one ear and an expression of total, unguarded focus that made something in Callum's chest ache in a way he didn't have a tidy word for. The confession got as far as the back of his throat, *my father wants me to find something to use against you* and then Dane looked up, smiling at something Callum had said twenty minutes earlier that had apparently just landed, and the words dissolved before Callum could get them out. Later, that felt like the moment everything after would trace back to. Not a lie, exactly. Just a door he'd left closed when he could have opened it, telling himself there would be a better time, tomorrow, next week, once things were more solid between them and less likely to break under the weight of the truth. He didn't yet understand how expensive that kind of waiting could get.
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