Across A Bottomless Abyss

Chapter 13

The next morning, he greeted me with his bright smile. His eyes showed me the real meaning of passion and serenity. I smiled and he did the same. I never felt this kind of joy before. I realized that my feelings for Matthew for the past years was just an excuse for me to avoid my deep admiration for Xipher.

I was blinded by the fact that I'm madly smitten to my long-time crush and I never tried to accept any feelings from other people.

Maybe real feelings can be left unseen especially when there's no attention given. As I felt the warmth of his hands, I smiled wider.

"I'm happy," he suddenly said.

"You're too obvious that you like me, Captain," I joked.

He chuckled and squirmed a bit. He focused his eyes on me and by that spectacular second, all I could hear was the raging beats of my heart.

"I've loved you for a long time, Lieutenant and I still do," he suddenly said.

I blinked twice when I heard that. I'm still not used to him being like this to me. He's been too cold for the past years and I thought he hates me. I never really imagined that at some point, we will be like this.

"That was awkward," I quickly replied.

I heard her weak laugh so I struggled. of course, he's Archemial Xipher Astronoum, the great Captain of the City's team, the great philosopher, heartthrob and yeah, he's annoyingly dashing.

"Do you like me?" he asked again while trying to give me a hint that he's actually teasing me.

"No," I fired back.

I stood up and pulled my hand away from him. I rolled my eyes once again and left him there, still laughing because he successfully annoyed me.

"Good morning, my Lieutenant," he said smoothly.

"Whatever," I answered without even looking back.

I slammed the door of my room very harshly for him to feel my annoyance. I hurriedly walked over to my bed and lay down. I sighed heavily when I realized what happened.

Now, I'm starting to feel at ease despite this chaos. I never anticipated something like this. Love along with war?

I chuckled because of that thought. Why am I even thinking about my freaking love life along with this city's downfall?

I covered myself with my furry blanket and closed my eyes. It's early in the morning but I wanted to sleep again. What happened last night was very alarming. How I hope that those people will realize their mistakes.

As I continue to think about deep things, I no longer realize that I have fallen asleep. I was just busy thinking about how I can help the city.

I woke up around 11 AM because of the illuminating light from my window. I reluctantly got up and walked out of the room. I was literally walking while my eyes were closed and I almost forgot that Xipher is here!

"Good morning again, beautiful," he said and grinned.

I almost fell because of the shock. I wouldn't have let him tease me but I remembered how I look now. What the hell! I definitely look like a fool and a witch now.

I ran back out of the room and went straight to the C.R. I pulled my hair weakly out of the sheer embarrassment and annoyance. I was about to bang my head on the wall but I realized something.

"You're a real fool Amalia. Why can't you be calm? This is your house!" I said to myself.

I'm now starting to doubt if I'm still normal. I talk to myself all the time. Maybe I'll go crazy later. What a waste of my dreams.

"Oh Gosh, I'm really crazy," I hissed.

I washed and mumbled more before I came out of the C.R. I'm too lazy to comb my hair so I decided to just tie it into a bun. Why am I becoming conscious of how I look?

If he likes me, he will accept what I am. If ever he cheats on me, I will shoot him.

"Why do you look so grumpy?" he welcomed me again outside with his teasing smirk.

He's comfortably sitting on my sofa. Wow,he’s definitely Alayah's brother. They have their own houses but still sleep with others.

I ignored him and went straight to the kitchen. I don’t know if I’m going to cook or not. I only know how to fry. s**t, if I didn't have a guest, I wouldn't have a problem!

"I cooked your breakfast, Lia.Just look at the dining table," Xipher suddenly shouted.

I turned to the table and saw some food. Bacon and fried rice huh. I unconsciously smiled. I never thought that he could do such things. Can I just hire him in an instant and let him be my cook.

"Why are you smiling?" Xipher said beside me. I almost jumped because of his sudden presence!

"Don't startle me!" I hissed.

He chuckled and pushed me lightly. He pulled out one of the chairs and made me sit down. He smiled and moved the plates in front of me. The food he prepared is now in front of me. Why do I find him handsome today?

"I'll go now, finish your breakfast and come to me," he said.

"What? Why would I?" I fired back.

He raised a brow and stood up straight. His aura is giving me chills. I can sense annoyance in his face. Shoot, I forgot that I can already read how he feels.

"Fine," I said again.

He smiled and leaned closer. I even averted my face because he was so close. What the hell again. How many times have I cursed now?

"You're making my heart flutter, Lia," he whispered.

I could feel the heat of his breath in my ear. I do not know what to do. All I can hear and feel is the beating of my heart. I thought he would get back to standing immediately but he suddenly kissed me on my forehead.

"See you later," he said before he bid his good bye.

I remained in my awkward position for a few more minutes before I realized what had happened. My cheeks started to heat up. s**t, am I nervous?

I quickly shook my head and looked straight at the food served for me. So this is the feeling of having someone who truly cares for you. It's very heartwarming and satisfying.

I realized that I can't read Xipher's emotions for the past years not because he's concealing it but because I'm afraid to read it. I'm the one who's trying to get away from him.

No matter how many times you suppress your true feelings, there will still come a time and time when you can release it. Love is not about hiding. It's all about how people show it with a warm embrace.

After I had breakfast I brushed my teeth right away. I also washed the used dishes before I went back to the bedroom.

I went straight to C.R. again to take a bath. After 30 minutes, I also went out and went into my walk-in-closet.

I decided to wear a pair of black shorts and black silky long sleeves. I also wore my black belt with the City warriors logo. I searched for my black boots with a katana holder. When I found it, I smiled. I really love this one.

I put that on and took my cloak out of a cabinet. I just put it on the bed before I sat in front of the vanity mirror. I combed my hair and blow dried it. I tied it into a ponytail. I put a black lipstick on my lips before I stood up. What a fierce look.

I grabbed the cloak from the bed and quickly put it on before I exited the unit. I was already in the elevator when I remembered that Xipher hadn't asked me earlier to open the door to let him out of my unit. What the hell! Did he really add his fingerprint on my door ?

I hurried out of the elevator when it landed on the ground floor. Some even greeted me in the lobby but I ignored them. I was literally annoyed with Xipher's move and I will never let him slide!

I seriously entered the headquarters. Other juniors from different classes are trying to greet me but I did not mind them. I saw Alayah at the corner, playing with her gun. I approached her and when she saw me, she smiled widely.

"Hello my dearest sister-in-law. How's your sleep?" she asked me with a teasing voice.

"Where's your brother?" I asked her.

"It's serious. You were together last night, but you're already looking for him. Miss him?" She teased me.

"I'm mad, Alayah," I said seriously.

"I don't think so," she answered and examined my whole damn face.

I rolled my eyes and walked away. I heard her annoying laugh before I could get away. I looked throughout the lobby for our good Captain but I could not find him.

I went straight to the elevator and hit the highest floor where his office was. I don’t know if I’m really annoyed or I just want to see him.

"No way," I whispered to myself.

It wasn't long before I reached his floor. I went out immediately and violently opened his door without even thinking if he's with someone or what.

"Xipher! I'm going to kill you!" I shouted.

I almost flinched when I realized that he's with someone. No, not just alone. I can see a lot of officers. based on their cloak, they definitely come from somewhere else. They are looking at me now as if I broke up their important meeting. s**t, I just want to let the earth swallow me now.

"Who's this rude lady?" one of them asked.

I blinked twice when I realized that I did something stupid. Daddy, please save me. Xipher stood up and smiled awkwardly to his visitors.

"I'm so sorry for this, Head Ambassador. My friend is stressed right now. I will handle this first, excuse me," he said.

I almost felt a heart pound not because I'm happy. Did he just deny the fact that I'm his fiancee? Then what, friend?

I laughed sarcastically and walked away. Before I could get right out of his office he held my hand. I don’t know why I’m more annoyed now. So this is how it feels to be denied by someone you like? Well then it's painful and disappointing.