Split Mind

My little sister

"Well i was young and believed in quite a lot of nonsense back then." i said laughing.

"My mentally sort of changed after Maggie" i said and turning to look at her and with big smile on my face.

"Really it took a second child to change you?" he said with a confused look on his face.

"Well Sasha isn't exactly mine. She is mine but not mine mine." Explaining about Sasha always made me emotional i hated explaining the difference between her and Maggie especially when she was around. We were bonded by the same blood made in the same womb produced from the same sack. She isn't my daughter but she was mine.

A look of horror was on Corys face.

"Nooo! i didn't steal her!" i said laughing nervously. I can't believe he would think that but we barely know each other i guess you can never be sure. He began relaxing.

"She is my little sister. I don't really like to talk about it." i said not really wanting to explain so i focused back on the road.

The car was silent again.

After two hours of driving. Cory fell asleep making me a bit sleepy. It seems he doesn't know the unwritten rule that passengers are supposed to entertain the driver.

i stopped at some gas station so everyone can stretch their legs and releave their bladders. I was just walking around the car while it filled up when i hear a howl. The howl was of an animal in pain and i was curious.

"What is that?" I asked Cory who was leaning on the side of the car. He lifts his head up as if it were an antenna and he was looking for a signal, he drops his shoulders and shrugs. The howl repeats and i point in the direction where its coming from. Corys eyes prick open to say he hears it too.

" Sounds like a dog" he says and goes back the relaxed position he was in before. Seeming unbothered.

" We should probably go check it out it might be chained to something and the owners fled or are dead." Asking him was just a formality i was going to check on the dog whether he liked it or not.

"Thats not a good idea."

" And why not?"

" We can't be sure just what kind of animal made that howl could be a wolf.

and... and we don't know just how far away the animal is."

"That was definitely a dog look at where we are." i say spreading my arms wide to show our surroundings.

"Come on man have a heart!" he looks a bit shocked at the last part but he quickly composes himself again to his relaxed state.

"I still don't think its a good idea"

Well i don't either but my heart won't allow me to move on without knowing whether or not that dog is okay. So im going!" I say and grab Maggie and Sashas hand i began moving.

"Hold on im coming.." he says reluctantly.

Seeing the way he was walking up to us wanted me to tell him to stay but i had already made such a big fuss so i didn't waiver instead i looked for a solution. Then i saw it, a big stick. I ran to it and offered it to him he looked at me like i was crazy.

"You can use it as a cane dummy" i said handing it to him. He took and i bend down to grab my kids hands again who had followed all of my movements.

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As we were walking the sound of soft whimpering became clearer and clearer it sounded like it had given up and now it was just crying because there was nothing more it can do and it made my head clench it sounded so sad,this poor dog has the ability to sense danger but tied somewhere forced to disobey its own instincts. Sounds like a nightmare.

As the sound got louder a little cabin can into view. The cabin is surrounded by a beautiful lawn and little garden of flowers on the far left side of it but the cabin is skew probably because it had fallen on one side during on of the tremors. I couldn't see the dog. I assume it trapped inside and i make for the door of the cabin. After two steps i feel an arm pull me back gently.

I look at him half confused and half annoyed. He looks at my face but doesn't let go instead he gives me one of his own. I furrow my eyebrows confused. We are here to help this dog and thats what im trying to do. Has he changed his mind.

"Don't go in the house looks like it could collapse at any second now" he says pulling me towards him. I yank his hand away.

"So you want me to what?" ..."Wait for it to come to me and tell me whats wrong? " i say putting one hand on my waist and gesturing sarcastically with the other.

"No. Lets just call it, whistle or something so we know where exactly it is rather than running in blind." he says calmly as if to try and calm me down.

Some how his statement offends me because it is what ive been doing since yesterday and its obviously been working out. Im not dead because of no planning, yes ive come close because of no planning but im not.

I turn away from him and slouch a bit. I start hitting my thighs and yell "Come here doggy! doggy!" The whimpering becomes louder mixed in with short howls the sound coming from behind the house. I run over there with Cory following slowly with the kids.

I stop stunned by what im seeing.

The dogs back legs have been crushed by the cabin and it was facing the other side so it didn't see me. Too much emotions were going through me.

My heart felt like it was going to burst.

I hear Maggie and Sasha approaching and everything was put on pause. I go pull them so they don't see. Cory continues past us and i pull the kids a little further because they were a little too close for comfort. I pulled them all the way to the front of the cabin wanting to go help Cory help the dog. I knelt infront of them wanting ro be at eye level with them.

"Guys please wait here-"

"no" they answer in unison. The dog starts letting out an excited whimper probably because it saw Cory.

i look backat my kids who both look so cute trying to be serious but i don't really have time for this. I look at them Frustrated.

" Pretty please with a cherry on top." i say pouting. Sasha begins to softens but Maggie holds firm. I knew i could ask Sasha to hold her but it'd be so much simpler if she willingly stayed.

"Pleaaaassse..." i say adding puppy eyes to the pout. To which Sasha surrenders but still looms sad "okay" she says looking ready to hold back Maggie. Maggie looks at Sasha and she softens up abit but when she turns and looks at me she becomes serious again. i look at her slowly running out of patience.

I was racking my head for ideas on how to convince her. I couldn't try and bribe her because she hardly ever forgets anything when i heard a thud and the sounds of the dog stopped. My heartbeat was unrecognizable.

"NOOOOO!!.." i screamed at the top of my lungs alarming my children. I stood to my feet and raced to the back of the house.

"What did you do!" i asked shocked my brain not wanting to accept what was happening wanting him to say what we are thinking is wrong and he didn't just do that. I looked at him eyes wide open ready for him to say to me it aint so.

"All dogs go to heaven." he says and shrugs. He walks around the dog looking at it like something he just threw up. I was horrified by his lack of care and i was left speechless by his choice of words. I hate Animal cruelty. It breaks my heart those are gods creatures. So innocent they dont deserve die but this man. he just hit it in the head and he has no remorse.

I turned and left feeling if i stayed longer i wont be able to contain myself.

i went to the front and found my kids, took Maggie in my arms and took Sashas hand. I didn't wait for him. I was so mad and sad i couldn't hear anything.

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I put my kids in the car and made sure they were secure

i got in the front and turned on the ignition. I wanted to leave him. He deserved to be left here so he can think about his actions properly walking to wherever he is going. I found myself unable to leave unable to drive.I was still speechless and felt driving away was a form of speech. In all my life I've never been able to turn away from an animal in need. I believe they are one of the purest and most innocent things on the planet next to children, having mostly the say disabilities and only acting on instinct and reacting according to their bodys mind. Nothing they do is their fault they are programmed to do it. They don't deserve the cruelty they don't deserve the bad treatment but when they get it they adapt to live with it.

How can he simply just end its life.