Split Mind

her face was sad

Race to put on running shoes and i was out the door. Middle of trying to lock the gate and my head goes whats the point just go say good bye to your kids. i start sprinting, i never really understood adrenalin junkies but at this point i felt so powerful and strong i was just soaring like i was flying. i kinda felt wierd because i was heading in the opposite direction of everyone else everybody was headed out of the suburb. i was on cloud nine i was sure i looked like wonder woman and all of the sudden i realize people are kind of eye balling me i mean they are running and its like a seconds glance but i notice it and i look down to see im not wearing a shirt just a bra and pants thank god for that. The thought of my children trapped and crying their lungs out made me being barely dressed futile. I was just so in my head that i wasnt looking where i was going anymore and all that soaring just stopped and darkness. it was as if i was open my eyes for the first time and it was a tunnel of light and the image was suddenly disrupted by my first time meeting maggie what a beautiful time i just starting hear shouting and a lot of comotion. Ringing in my head and so much pain on the right side of my face and realizing i must have fallen or something. I stand up to keep going no more soaring just normal noticing every step walking as i couldn't get focus. i notice familiar face it was one of Sashas teachers and display of emotions on her face broke my heart into so many pieces. It looked sad not guilty because she just left children alone in a emergency situation but sad that there was nothing more she could do and looking and some of the houses around me, some had fallen in, some had just some cracks and some had slid off their foundation. i began to increase speed and hoped i was not too late.