Split Mind

Gruesome view

So many thoughts and regrets just rampaging through my brain, if only id been more careful and what was up with the running i barely ever run. Man i hope they are in one piece. Finally see the gate of the preschool and increase my speed and when i got in the school looked fine but i could hear crying children and i just assumed because they were scared. When i opened the doors was greeted by a gruesome view its true don't judge a book by its cover. Some of the ceiling beams and walls had fallen down and on to some teachers and children. I really don't know what level of cringe this was but it was mighty high. Found the head mistress just standing there with her hands covering her. "Teacher Jackie..." i said softly trying to spook her "what are you doing..?." i asked holding back soft sobs. "Maggie's mother.. i ...i called the ambulance and they said they'd be here." she said shakingly "Why aren'tyou helping..?" i asked unable to look away from the blood and unbelievable site

" i cant Maggie's mother... i just cant im too afraid.., its getting better though some of the children have cried themselves to sleep..." she looked at me with hope id understand "WHAT!! are you crazy they probably bled to death noone would just fall asleep especially children in a state like this " i looked at her and there was no response she looked away finally the guilt dawning on her "snap out of you you've shown enough irrelevant emotion today, now get the curtains and blankets lay them outside in the drive in ..." she stood there unable to move probably processing "f*****g move it Thandi!" shout almost at the top of my lungs

" Maggie! ...Sasha! ...Maggie! Sasha!" i kept screaming as i carried the children to the drive in and we lay them on the blankets outside and im only realizing this now but i do not like the smell blood or the look of it but i soldiered on. As i help im praying my kids aren't one these unrecognizable bodies as i search i reach a door to a room that looked untampered by the earthquake when i open the door i was just out of words.