Chapter 4 - Their First Kiss
1201 Words
After the concert, I tried to find Xayne and Alodia everywhere around the Campus for almost two hours but I failed. Maybe they have already gone home or gone somewhere else.
We have been together since we were still in the second year. Alodia became my friend during the last semester of my first year of college. I met her friend, Ctrl V when we entered our sophomore year. Since the day I met Xayne, there was not a single day that I did not say I liked him. For three years, he was the only one I wanted. No one else.
When Alodia found out that I liked Xayne she gave her full support. It was only then that I learned from her that he likes Miguel, however, I also heard from her that he rejected her because he likes someone else.
I felt sad for Alodia.
Now, I think that is what Xayne will tell me. He does not like me but I am not a person who gives up easily. Whether he likes it or not, I will keep on pursuing him.
I decided to go home since I felt my whole body aching, tired of so much happening since this morning. I said goodbye to Miguel and Carl. They offered a ride, but I declined because I knew that they were also exhausted from their performance.
"Are you sure that you will be fine by yourself?" Miguel asked in a worried tone. I nodded.
"Do not worry, nothing bad will happen to me. I will take care of myself" I gave them my best smile and turned around and took my leave.
I called a cab outside the school. The rain slowly poured down as I got inside the Cab. The cab started to move and passed the intersection. The vehicle is moving slowly due to traffic. The glass window gradually fades because of the raindrops. It felt like the rain seemed to accompany the weight I felt inside my chest.
I looked outside the window. Watching the other cars passing by, the noise created by the busy night, and the sideways full of people rushing to avoid getting wet from the rain. However, there is only one person that catches my attention.
"XAYNE!" I shouted his name while I was still inside the car. I saw the driver jolted, surprised by my sudden scream. "Sir, please park the car and wait for me," the driver nodded.
I went outside the car and ran towards Xayne, shoulders slumped while bowing his head and soaking wet in the rain. He is walking slowly, unbothered by his surroundings.
"Xayne!" I called his name but he did not hear me. He did not turn his head. He was just staring at the ground until he stopped walking and knelt on the ground.
I rushed towards him. I covered her against the rain using my umbrella. Once again, I called his name. He slowly lifts his head to look at me. I saw the sadness in his eyes.
"Xayne, get up. Let us go home" I helped him to stand up. He did not talk or push me away. He just followed what I said. I smelled the scent of alcohol from him. He is drunk.
We entered the cab and I asked Xayne for his address. He gave it without complaint. We head to Xayne's condominium near our school. I helped him walk inside the building up to his room. He opened the door using a passcode. I felt sad when I saw the number he entered. It is Alodia's birthdate.
When we got inside, I was surprised to see the interior designs of his room. It is minimalistic and everything is cream and black. I have never been here before. This is the first time I got inside Xayne's condo. His room clearly describes his personality. Introvert and a serious man.
I helped him to reach the sofa and head to the kitchen to get some water. When I came back, he was already asleep. I put the glass of water at the small table in front of him and then turned my head to watch him sleeping peacefully. I sat down on the floor to watch him closer. He has long eyelashes. He is really handsome--
"Xayne?!" I suddenly jolted when his eyes suddenly opened. I felt my cheeks reddening. He caught me staring at him. It is so embarrassing. "I-I was just..." He suddenly touched my cheeks using his left hand.
He was looking at me in a way that I had never seen what he has done before. His eyes were full of longing and sadness. I can feel his emotion through his eyes. His eyes were telling me about him.
I was just looking into his eyes when he slowly moved his head closer to me. I cannot move or say a word. I was totally lost in his eyes. When our noses touched each other he spoke.
"Why don't you love me? Why are you pushing me away? Why not me? What does he have that I do not? What am I supposed to do? Tell me" He said frustrated to me. He is now crying begging me to love him.
My heart sank. I know that it is not me. It is Alodia. He is in love with Alodia and not me.
If I get that chance, I would like to ask him the same question, maybe we will both be enlightened by his answer. I pity both of us.
"Xayne, you need to rest. You're drunk" I said, trying to make him calm, but he refused.
"No. Stay with me. Do not go. Please... I love you" He said, holding my hands tightly. He does not have any intention to let go.
If he is not drunk, I know that he will never do this. He cannot tell that I am not Alodia.
"Xay--" I did not finish my words when he interrupted me.
"Alodia" He uttered her name and sealed my lips with his.
My eyes widened when his lips touched mine. My breathing stops as my heart beats fast. My body weakens when I try to struggle but he stops me. I know that I should not take advantage of him because I am not that type of person but if he keeps doing something like this, I might forget who I am.
I was completely carried away by his kisses. This is my first time kissing someone. I cannot believe that it is my first time. I do not know if I should be happy because this is one of my dreams. To be kissed by Xayne however, he is not with himself.
Our lips parted when he finally fell asleep. I blink my eyes several times, confirming that I am not dreaming.
I looked down to see our hands, intertwined. He is still holding me tight. His hands were big and warm. I do not want to let go either but, I have to. This is wrong. I tried to pull back my hands, but his hand refused to let go.
I sighed and decided to give up.
- Writer
