Bad timing

Chris and I met on a chatting app.. not a dating one, don't get me wrong. I was still in college, just broken up with my very abusive boyfriend and I wasn't looking for a new relationship. We started chatting and it's like we immediately clicked. He was a US soldier, currently stationed in Germany and I was (still am) living in Greece. We texted almost 24/7 and at first it was just a friendly, often steamy flirt and before I realized where this was actually heading I was head over heels in love with someone I've never even touched. I thought it was just one-sided - I knew he thought I was hot and we did exchange a lot of pictures, had video calls and occasionally sexted, but he never striked me as a long-distance relationship type of guy. That was until one day he was out with his friends, got really drunk and he called me on the phone and told me he thinks he loves me. To this day I can say that this was perhaps the happiest day of my life. Two weeks later he had to go back to the US, I had no money to go visit and neither did he. He always told me he regrets not telling me earlier about his feelings, because as long as we were both still in Europe, we could've spent at least a couple of weeks together back then.  Anyway a couple of things were clear - we were both in love with each other and we weren't able to see each other, at least not any time soon. We were both very s****l and we didn't really commit in a relationship - he could go and bang whoever he wants and so did I. He thought I was the coolest person on Earth and as much as I wish I was, this situation was eating me alive. We sometimes shared our experiences we had with random people and I was really trying to make him jealous so he could say that we should try and keep it exclusive, but he never did. Still, I didn't want another relationship, because he was making me so happy. We texted and called every day, spent hours on the phone, we became not only sexting buddies but also best friends. We could share everything with each other. He was a bit emotionally unavailable, which was only making me want him more as I was very ambitious and stubborn. My heart would ache every time, he told me he was going out with his buddies, because this would eventually lead on him having s*x with someone. I knew that, because he was extremely handsome. He was tall, blonde with piercing blue eyes, really hot and muscular body... and.. uhm... a very pretty d**k. I know those things are usually not pretty, but his was just the perfect size... ok I'm drifting away from the story now, let's get back to it.. So this whole thing went on for about 2 years until I met my current boyfriend of 4 years - Peter. This relationship wasn't anything like the one I had with Chris in terms of feelings, it wasn't steamy or that passionate, but it was something that made me feel safe, we moved in together right after I finished college and got a great job at Tera Corp. Chris and I decided to stop talking because it wasn't healthy for either of us, he was hurt I was now really dating someone and he was regretting he never said anything about how he wanted to actually be just with me.. I did regret that as well of course... I only needed him to say so and I would've dropped my whole life here just to be with him. From then on, we always said we just had the worst timing...