The true mate

Chapter 9 (+18)

Note from the author.

*probably at least one more chapter will be +18, so if you're not comfortable with it sorry. for those who don't mind, let me know what do you think and if I should keep writing +18

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Chapter 9

Liz's POV

I need to get away from him. My whole body is telling the opposite, but he just yelled at me, he's never done that. And the look and voice, it was different from my Matthew. It hurts, I feel terrible, I don't like seeing him like this, I want him to hug me, but I'm scared of him.

I go to our shared bedroom on the second floor and sit on the bed. I can't be around him right now. He lied to me, he knew the whole time, he was there that day and didn't say a word. I mean, he kind of has a point. How do you want to tell someone that you are his soulmate the moment you met them, but still! He should have said something the minute I told him about the attack, or when we talked about my dream. Or when I told him I saw the wolf in my vision. He had so many chances and said nothing!

I know I should be mature about this, but I'm mad and angry, and craving his touch and presence at the same time. I need to calm down. I stand from the bed and go to the window. I didn't hear Matthew leave or come upstairs. I look outside of the window to the garden and look at the full moon. The moonlight always makes me feel better, safe. I can't face Matthew, not yet, but if he comes here I'll have to, I doubt he will let me go this time. I just take my phone and get the hell out of the room. But where should I go?

I go down the stairs and look carefully in the living room. Through the french door I can see Matthew sitting on the terrace drinking, his head in his hands. I take two steps to the french door, but stop. I shouldn't, I don't even know if he wants to see me after all that happened. I look at the kitchen and then around the hallway that is going all the way back in the house. I remember that Matthew said that that's his brother's office. He said he's a big reader. I go to the office door and try to open it. It's not locked. I walk inside and look around. It's a nice room, with a big table and office chair and bookshelves on both sides. I can see some shelves that have cases with papers, probably documents, but then on the left side of the room there are books, tons of books. Shakespeare, Goldoni, Stephen King and even Tolkien. I have to smile at that one, I love Lord of the Rings and Silmarillion, even if it's difficult reading, I enjoyed it. I look at the other books and one particular catches my attention. Lycan origin. Lycan? Werewolves?

The realization hits me like a truck. Of course, it makes sense! No giant wolf, werewolf. Matthew is a werewolf. If his brother has this book here, does it mean that he knows, or is he a werewolf too? I look around the room again, trying to find... I don't know what, but my eyes keep darting around.

I look at the table and see three pictures. One is of Matthew and probably Brendan and two older people, I look at them and see Matthew in both of them. A woman and man in their 50's, both smiling at the camera. They must be his parents. So the other man is Brendan. On the other pictures is Matthew with Brendan hugging each other around their shoulders at what looks like a wedding and on the last picture is Brendan with a beautiful woman in white wedding dress kissing her on her lips, they both smiling in the kiss. I feel bad for sneaking, so I just take the book and leave the room.

I don't want Matthew to find me yet, so I just go straight to the basement and sit on the couch in the theatre room. I open the book and look at the first chapter.

„Lycan or werewolves, from an old English word wer – man, and wolf, is a person with ability to shapeshift into a wolf. This ability gets passed from generation to generation and can be passed to a human or other creature with magical stream. This ability can be passed by a bite from a werewolf on the full moon and going through a shifting ritual or by blessing from the Moon Goddess. This blessing will give that person a nature's animal spirit in the form of a wolf.

As a born with or given, this spirit will become a partner, their companion. This spirit will however possess all their negative traits, such as anger, aggression, temper, possessiveness, but also a fear. They become part of their personality, with their own will. If a spirit and human part can communicate, they can find a balance and become one. They can use each other's powers, their body, mind and teach each other to balance their positive and negative traits to become the best versions of themselves."

So, that's what Matthew is. His body, mind but also personality is shared with a spirit of nature herself. It says here that they can share their powers. Does it mean that all the old stories about werewolves shifting only on the full moon are a bunch of bullshit? This is even bigger and deeper than I could have ever imagined.

„Werewolves, like other creatures, have a magical stream giving them their life power. Every creature has a different stream that is specific for that character. Just like other creatures werewolves can't control or manifest their stream or perform magic. This ability is specific only for witches, who can however provide some abilities to other magical creatures for a short period of time. Werewolves share this stream with their mate, which makes their bond stronger than another's.“

Mate?...

I go through other chapters about the pack system, Alphas, Lunas, rogues, visual differences between werewolves and how wolves takes over human form. „So that's why his eyes changed and even his voice was deeper. It happened when Matthew yielded today, well, his wolf spirit. I had to really piss him off, if he was able to take over without Matthew being able to stop him.“

After some more reading I find a chapter with title

„Mate

After their 18th birthday werewolves are able to sense their mate. The age of 18 is an indicator of their maturity. The wolf spirit and their powers should be on their peak and in balance with human form.

First clue to finding a mate is their scent. Scent of every mate is different depending on what each mate likes. That scent makes them irresistible and is addicting to them. Once mates find each other, their bond is sealed by marking ritual and mating. After the bond is sealed in addition they are able to feel their mates' emotions, pain and can communicate through their minds. That can be avoided by building a barrier. This technique takes a lot of practice and potential.

If werewolf finds out his mate is a human (non-magical creature) the bond can be felt as weak on human side. It takes time and care for them to create a strong bond. Although this situation is difficult for werewolves, because of their deep desire, emotional connection and affection for their mate, they have to build trust. Werewolves are emotionally and physically depending on their mate. They register a strong desire to be close to their mate, to touch them and protect them. If a mate shows anger towards werewolf or rejects their touch or affection, werewolves feel this as a failure, sometimes even experience physical pain and deep emotional drop.

Werewolves have the belief of a soul mate, a perfect other half or counterpart to their soul. They take this very seriously. Mates are for werewolves the most important person in the world.

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Mate's can feel touch and scent as very soothing, calming and energetic. When they touch, their magical streams unite. This can be felt as sparks. Depending on how strong the stream and magic in it is, the sparks are either stronger or weaker. If a mate is a non-magical creature, the werewolf's mate can't smell the scent of their mate or feel their magical stream.

Rejection

Unlike losing a mate, rejection is fully suggestible, but the effect is the same. If one of the mates wants to destroy the mate bond, they have to reject their mate. The words of rejection are a ritual. After the words are said the mates feel intense pain of their bond breaking. The ritual itself is not complete until the rejected mate accepts the rejection. Until then the rejection can be taken back.

Words of rejection

I name and title declare that you mate's name and title are my mate no more. With those words I reject you and our mate bond. At this time and this place.“

The effects of rejecting or losing a mate are lethargy, depression, over time madness and emotional disability.“

I didn't even notice that I'm crying. Everything I thought was wrong, I was wrong to shout at Matthew, if I only let him talk or at least asked him to tell me. If this is all true I must have hurt him. Really hurt him and his wolf spirit too. I take my head in my hand and sob uncontrollably.

It makes sense why I felt sad when I thought he was looking at another girl, even though I didn't know him yet, how quickly I fell in love with him and that my whole being is pulling me closer to him. I hope that he will forgive me. But what if he lost all love for me and gave up? That thought makes me cry even more. I messed it up. My head hurts from all the crying and adrenaline from earlier. I want to read some more, but my eyes protest and start closing. Ok, I'll relax for a bit. I close my eyes and sleep comes in seconds.

Matthew's POV

It's already 9 am, I haven't slept the whole night. I couldn't. She's going to reject us. After all this time, after trying to find her and finally holding her in my arms, the Moon Goddess will take her from me. What have I done to deserve this? I look at the direction of the staircase, when I hear my mate coming upstairs and to the living room. She stops when she notices I'm here. I must look like s**t, I cried most of the night, my whole body hurts, most of all my chest. I prayed to the Moon Goddess to help me. But now when I see the hard look in Liz's eyes I think that she didn't hear me out.

I stand up, put my hands in my pockets and face her. I look at her and she looks at the floor. Of course she wouldn't look at me, not after yesterday. „If you wanna do it, do it now.“

She looks up with a puzzled look and frowns her eyebrows. „What do you mean?“

„The rejection... You need our full titles. Mine is Matthew Blackwood, the Alpha of the Blood Moon pack. Yours is the future Luna of the Blood Moon pack.“ I look at her with a pointed look and wait for her to do it.

She's thinking about it for a few seconds and decides to come closer. She holds my face in her hands and for the first time she looks me in the eyes with honesty. I think that she might have changed her mind, but then she starts to say those terrible words.

„I, Elizabeth Eszterhazy the future Luna of the Blood Moon pack, declare that you, Matthew Blackwood the Alpha of the Blood Moon pack, are my mate... forever. At this time and this place.“

It takes a moment for those words to reach my ears. I expect pain of our bond breaking, but nothing happens. The only thing I feel is my mate's hands on my face and the warm feeling she's radiating. I look at her and see that she's crying. She's retreating her hands from my face, but I catch them and kiss them. She chuckles and hugs me.

I've never felt happier, even with my mate crying. I hug her tight and kiss her head.

„I'm so sorry.“ she muffles in my chest. I don't understand what she is apologizing for. I look at her and lift her head with my finger under her chin.

„I shouldn't scream at you, I know that I hurt you, I'm so sorry, Matthew, I'm really sorry.“

I can't stand seeing her sad. I put my hand on the back of her neck and kiss her. When I pull away she's still apologizing, but at least her crying stopped.

„It's ok, honey. I should apologize to you. You were right, I should have told you. You are strong, I know you would handle it... I guess I was just scared. I promise I will tell you everything you want to know. Everytime.“

She smiles at me and kisses me deeply. „Me too. We can talk later, I have a lot of questions. But now I need to take a shower. I slept on the couch downstairs and haven't even changed since last night.“ she turns around and goes to the direction of the stairs. Just before she leaves the living room she turns to me with a smut smile on her face. „And you're joining me.“

We're under the hot water kissing, touching each other's bodies. After the worst night of my life this feels like heaven. Liz's hands touch me on my chest, I take her right leg and put it around my hip. My hands are on her ass, pushing her core closer to my body. But my right hand slowly moves from her ass down to touch her folds.

„Please, Matt.“

I stop my assault and look at her. She is looking at me with anticipation, needing more, more than this. I slowly push my middle finger inside her, and she takes a sharp breath in. I look her in the eyes and wait. She pushes me closer with her leg around my hip, and kisses me. I start to move my finger and she moans in my mouth.

„Matt, please, I need more. I want more.“

„Tell me what you want.“

She kisses me again and her answer is more than I hoped for. „Mark me.“

I don't wait a second and pick her other leg around my hip and leave the shower not bothering drying our bodies and go straight to bed. I lay us down and kiss her deeply.

„Do it now.“

„We'll do it together.“

I give my wolf some control, and after a few seconds our minds are in perfect sync. Our mind and body is one, for now we are one person. I can feel a slight pressure in my left eye, which means my wolf is visually noticeable and my left eye took his eye colour. I look at Liz and she's taken aback a bit, but then she caresses my left cheek and look in my left eye. She smiles and whispers „Hi“. I can feel my wolf's desire as my own. Everything I do now is his doing as well.

I groan and start to give her neck little kisses and bites. She sighs and I push my thigh in between hers. I can feel her on my thigh, she's nicely wet. She starts to grind her p***y on my thigh to give herself some stimulation. I smirk on her neck and pull away. She whines from the loss of touch and hooks her left leg around my hip to pull me closer. „Someone is impatient, eh?“ I kiss her in between her breasts and keep kissing my way down to her core. The first swipe of my tongue through her folds makes her moan silently and she gripes my hair and pushes my head closer to her c**t. I immediately push my middle and ring finger in her p***y and start to lick her c**t. She's whining and her whole body shivers under my touch. I know she's getting closer and closer, she's grinding her p***y on my face and I feel her getting tight around my fingers. The orgasm ripped out of her in seconds, she is shivering and in ecstasy. While she is in her high I get back up to her neck and lick the place where the mark is gonna be in seconds. She tugs her fingers in my hair and pushes my head closer to her neck.

At that moment I bite her on the right side where her neck and shoulder connect. I can feel her hold on my hair getting stronger. I can taste her blood in my mouth. When I feel it's getting too painful for her, I pull away and lick her mark. She calms down and her breathing is steadier. I give her small kisses on the mark and shoulder. When I feel she's back from her high I look at her. She's looking at me with her now purple eyes full of lust and possessiveness. Her look is almost unbearable, I can feel myself getting aroused and look at her naked body with an almost predatory look.

„Please baby, please f**k me.“

Obliging, I push the tip of my member on her c**t and through her folds. I can finally feel her wetness on my d**k. Pressing myself in her hole, we both groan as I push myself all the way agonizingly slowly. I want her to feel every inch of me. My lips meet hers in a heated kiss as I begin to move, not wanting to waste any time. I can feel her nails digging in my back. I'm sure I'm gonna have some marks later, but I don't care. I lift myself and sit up, still thrusting myself inside her. „Fuck, you look so sexy. You're taking me so good, babygirl.“

She moans to my words and touches her breasts. I look at her playing with her breast and start to play with her c**t, rubbing slow circles. She looks at me with dull eyes and sits up quickly on my thighs hugging my hip with her legs. She takes my hands that's playing with her c**t and puts the fingers in her mouth. She's not wasting any second and starts to ride me. I cup her ass for support and help her slide on my d**k faster. She throws her head back and moans my name. f**k, that's a music to my ears.

„I'm gonna make you scream my name everyday.“ I throw her back on the bed and turn her so she's laying on her belly. I pick up her ass and touch her p***y with the tip of my d**k. She looks at me with a smirk and wiggles her ass at the contact. f**k, the things this girl does to me. I push myself inside of her and start to thrust at a quick pace. I can see her legs start to shiver already, and her arms are weakening, so she lays her head on the pillow and diggs her hands in it. She whines loudly and moans my name.

„Getting tired already? You asked for it, so take it like a good girl.“ I thrust in her with even bigger force and grab her hair.

„Matty, fuck... you fill me so good, baby.“

Those words are enough for me to get closer to my own orgasm, but I want to give her more. I grab her by her shoulder and pull her up. She's now on her knees, leaning on my back. The new ankle makes it hard for me to last longer, so I start to rub her c**t and put my right hand around her throat and lightly squeeze. She throws her head back and whines.

I kiss her ear and whisper to her, „Come one baby, come for me. I want to feel you in my dick.“

She tugs her right hand in my hair and with a few faster circles on her clip she comes undone. I keep supporting her while chasing my own high. When I feel my whole body shudder with orgasm I bite her in her mark once again and lay us down on the bed. I am shielding her whole body, my weight on her, my hand still on her c**t and my member inside of her. I can feel that her breathing is as heavy as mine. I stay like that for a moment before sliding my d**k out of her. She whines silently for the lost and I flop myself on my back.

I can feel my wolf retreating back and I look at my beautiful mate. I turn to her and proper her as close to me as possible.

„I assume you read the book. So you know what I am.“

She nods her head and looks at me.

„So you also know what this all means. Us officially becoming mates.“

She nods again. I can see the fatigue in her eyes. I caress her cheek and comb her hair with my fingers.

„After the mating is done, female mates feel a growth of affection towards their mates and are clingy and aroused for the first 24 hours of the bond being sealed. That's for werewolf mates. But you are not human either, so I don't know what to expect... for now, let's take some rest. We have stuff to talk about later.“

I try to get out of the bed to get my phone and inform my brother about another rogue attack, but my mate has a different idea. She holds my hand and pulls me back in the bed. She sits on me and lowers her head close to my face. She has a smutty smirk on her face.

„Where do you think you're going? We're not done.'' With that said she kisses me and bites on my lower lip. She pushes herself up, takes my member in her hands and starts to rub him. I guess we're having round 2.