In love with my brother's bestfriend

Sunny aka Sunshine It's my birthday sweet 16 its bitter sweet. I don't feel like celebrating really. I will Danny and Ash are coming over to take me to the mall, we are going to watch a movie. Danny aka Daniel is my BFF a lot of people assume I'm in love with him. They also assume he is my friend out of pitty, but its not true. We have been friends since Kindergarten. Ash aka Ashton is two years older than us. Way tall, huge really big muscles, and a secret scary smart. A hidden nerd. You would think block head or jock by looking at him, but nope really smart. Anyway we have gotten closer over the last year and Danny hates it. He's only dealing because well me I made him haha. Danny and Ash pick me up. Ash makes Danny sit in the back he grumbles. Ash just laughs at him. After the movie we walked around a bit. Danny says he has to go do something. While Ash and I go to the food court to get something to snack on. Ash: how are doing? Well, today is hard but better because of the guys. Also, I know that my mom planned a surprise party and I will act surprised.I really just want to go to bed and pretend today is gone. He gets up walks over to me and hugs me, I'm a big girl but he makes me feel small. Ash kisses my temple. I have some news but I don't know how you will take it. Just say it you know I don't like sugar coating things. Well babygirl, I finish college in a few months. I will be going into the Navy with testing and such. I will be placed in navy intelligence. Thats where they say I will do the most good. I have thought about it a lot, and I want to do this before I get married. Before I have a family. Your dad inspired me. There are other reasons too. I hope to make you proud of me. I will miss you terribly. I don't know what to think. I think I'm in some sort of shock. He's leaving me. Why? I don't want anything to happen to him. He's, I don't know, more to me. I feel on the verge of a panic attack. That doesn't happen to me I'm strong. Why am I being so weak? I still haven't said anything. I can feel wetness on my face.