“What the hell just happened?” she asked, voice thin and angry. “What did I do?”
“Nothing, nothing. I’m sorry. I just…” Julian ran a hand through his hair. “I shouldn’t have done that. I—”
“Yes you should! You were so into it, Julia. You were so there, and we were having fun. Don’t feel guilty! It was so good, and now I’m worked up.”
“I’m sorry. I just…”
“Is it because we’re gay? You’re gay? Honey, it’s fine. Half the girls at school are gay if they just really admit it and think about it. I won’t tell anyone. I don’t kiss and tell.”
“Ugh,” Julian said. It’s not because we’re gay. It’s because this is straight and you don’t even know. “No, I can’t. I don’t want to.”
“Is it because it’s your first?”
Julian paused; he wanted to say yes, but that was only a half-truth. His silence for
