Chapter Seven
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It's been four days since we arrived from Mexico. My trip has been fun. Paige hated coming back. She has forgotten all about William Levy.
Since I arrived, I have been thinking about Alex...always. I can feel him around in both my arms and heart. His smile has registered his face on mine and he's the first person i see and imagine. His accent has left a nice rhythm in my ears. He's all I think of when I close my eyes. I know nobody going to take his place and i don't wish to replace him anyone. He'll forever be my first; in everything and person I touch.
Our goodbye wasn't an easy one. He looked didn't even look at me let alone look into my eyes. The last time we talked, his face was red and his eyes turned darker. He almost hurt me with his harsh touch. He was almost cruel with his words. I don't blame him because i would've done worse if he were to tell me our relationship was nothing to me. I looked him in the eye and lied to him, I didn't feel anything. I lied I didn't want him. Meanwhile all I wanted to do every day and night is, wrap my arms around him. I have been distant lately. I don't even feel happy about my wedding anymore. If not that I really need this, I would've shunned the wedding.
Maybe if Alex had told me he'll marry me, I would've chosen him. But marriage will be too early and serious to discuss with him. He'd freak out if I had told him to marry me within a week. He could replace my husband to be and could've compensated him. But I had to say no to myself. I know he'll hate me if I had said yes to him and later he finds out the truth. He was so furious. He refused to see me before I left. Zach only came because of Paige.
The two of them still talk to each other. They are quite an item. I always feel the urge to ask for Alex's
number but hell no!!!
I hardly feel happy nowadays. I don't even eat well and it gets my mum worried. My fiancé; Acel sounds caring. He calls to ask if I'm OK. He calls before I go to sleep. I feel happy when I see him calling. Even though of late he sounds tired and all but he sounds like a good man. He sighs a lot when we talk. He tells me about how hectic his day had been. I just hope he helps me to forget about Alex because as hard as it seems, Acel reminds me of the guy I love. There was something about his voice. His accent sparks the light in my heart. He lightens my mood with just a chuckle.
"Still thinking about Alex?" Paige asked. She comes over to my window and pulls the curtains to one side. She stares outside for a while and inhales deeply. He turns to face me. She looks sad with her cheeks sucking in and eyes bitterly screaming in tears. Her chest moves up and down slowly.
"Hey Paige, when did you come in? And yes, I'm still thinking of him," I admitted. There's no point in hiding it. She knows what went on and is still going on. I simply played with my heart and now I'm regretting it.
"I can always tell Zach to..."
"No, no, no. We'll both get hurt at the end. What will I tell him? That I want him? And I wouldn't tell him
about my husband. And I'll be playing both men. That will be worse if they both find out. Imagine these
two powerful men fighting over me. Or anything. I once thought about that idea...that would be selfish of me," I told as I turn to face Paige. Tears falling from my eyes, Paige raises her hand to dry them up. Her warm and soft palms wipes them away and I rest my cheeks in her palms. I look at her lips which clearly wants to say something but holding back for some known reasons. Her lips open and close repeatedly, then she finally sighs.
"I asked Zach about him and he said Alex has been..."
No I don't want to hear it. It will break my heart if he's broken and it will also break my heart if he's OK. I
don't know what I want. These two different things contradicting each other will both hurt me.
"I don't want to hear it. Probably he's OK, hooking up with some new girl," I said, cutting her off. He'll obviously be doing that. He approached me at the bar and he quickly went on with my deal without blinking an eye. It seemed he had wanted to ask the same thing. He didn't even deny his desire for me; the way he looked at me, the way he touched me only tells me, he's been doing it to every girl he meets. His touch only made me feel special and I wish at least at that moment I was special to him as well.
Paige snaps her fingers at me and i jerk from my thoughts to see her frowning at me. She looks defeated. For some reasons she feels balmed for my heartbreak. She believes we could've avoided this if she had said no to it. She then sighs before heading to the door.
"I knew this trip wouldn't end well. I should've stopped you. I made my obsession with William Levy take over me," she sadly accused herself which I knew she'd be doing that. She's been saying it for quite sometime now.
"But it was worth it. You found yourself a nice man..." I tried assuring her but she quickly cut me off,
"Whose brother is your ex. What do you think? That when Zach's around, you'll feel OK? That when we talk about...I don't know what, you'll feel OK? You won't. You are suffering while I am OK," she continued to blame herself.
"No listen, don't let me be the reason why you break up with him. He's a nice guy. He's so different
from his brother. Trust me," I assured her because I can't stand watching her heartbroken.
"Oh trust me. I'm sure there's no much difference. You think Alex bosses you around. I'll say Zach is
worse. Please think things through."
"Are you inviting Zach over?" I asked knowing she wouldn't.
"Oh no!!! God!!! What do you think of me? He even has somewhere important he needs to go. He invited me but you know it's your wedding. And I'm your bride's maid so...duh, what do you expect?"
I nod. I really thank her for not telling Zach. I know they'll probably be thinking the worse of me. I lied to
Alex I was a wedding planner. I hope he never finds out the truth: that I'm getting married and I only used him...not that i did, we both agreed on one thing. He was more than happy than I really was.
"Stop thinking too much dear. We'll get over it. Besides, your agent said your husband is hot. You know
he never praises someone. Just don't be sad. You make me hopeless," she tried comforting me with her words. Oh if he's as hot as he sounds then I'm hundred percent sure he's hot. There! I feel a tickle in my chest. A smile secretly creeps unto my face. I can feel the smile. Talking about Acel helps sometimes.
I give her a fainted smile and she nods before leaving.
So my wedding gown is ready. Everything is ready and I have just two days to be called Mrs. The thought makes me go wild. I can't believe it!!! But when I think about the voice I'll be listening to when we get married, I want nothing but to marry as soon as possible.
"Having the idea to buy a plane for mum is the worse surprise I have ever thought of!!!!" I exclaimed.
"What? You were planning on buying me a plane?" My mum from nowhere asked.
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