Mabel
I was in my room reflecting on what I did. I don't know if I am doing the right thing but it's hard to do anything else. It's hard to deny what I am feeling at this moment but I couldn't let him suffer anymore. This on and off game is stressing me out as well. I can't take it anymore and I can't stand staying away from him too.
I went and wore a black dress and black knee-length heeled boots. He added me to accompany him to his mother's grave. I don't think it was a good idea but I decided to go with him and provide him with the support he needs from me. But the guilt was eating me alive. I am practically his enemy and he does not even know that. Our relationship conflicts with my mission but I am choosing to be selfish. Whatever happens, I will hold on to these moments My mind los
