CHAPTER 4 HOLLAND
1001 Words
For no reason, today Anne met Holland again at campus, they happened to be in the same class.
"alright class let's start the topic.."
The lecturer started discussing the topic they were going to study. Holland, who had fallen asleep during class, was surprised when the lecturer called his name.
"Holland!"
He rubbed his eyes and yawned.
"yes sir"
"are you sleeping on my class?"
"sorry sir"
"Get out of my class now"The lecturer ordered Holland out in a cold tone.
he sighed and take he's bag then left the class.Anne looked worriedly at Holland but she couldn't do anything.
Holland took a seat on one of the park chairs and put his bag beside him.
He covered his face looking frustrated.
his father just died yesterday he is really in a bad condition at this moment.confused and frustrated in one.Because he was too tired yesterday, he fell asleep in class today.
not only physically tired but mentally tired too.no one knew this news because he didn't tell anyone about the news that his father had died.
"I hope this isn't real dad"This word kept ringing in his mind .
He took his bag and headed somewhere. One place he would definitely visit was the cemetery..
the place where his father was buried.
When he arrived at the place where his father was buried, he put his bag on the grass and sat next to his father's burial.
hey dad, it's me..
you good there?is that a beautiful place?I hope it is..
dad..
wake up,you should teach me how to play chess again..
dad..
how can I survive this world without you?how can I?if you weren't there with me?
dad..is this real?It feels like just yesterday you taught me chess, right?
He still didn't expect his father to leave so soon..he feels like it's not real but that's the reality now..and he should accept that.Even though it's hard,he must accept it..
Holland and his father are very close to each other. They do things together when the holidays come. Sometimes Holland will be taught chess by his father. They always spend time together.the love of children and fathers is so strong..
Holland was still sitting beside the place where his father was buried, looking at his father's gravestone.
he's talking and talking while hoping it wasn't real.
"I shouldn't crying, that's what you said,boys don't cry"
He wiped his tears while looking at his father's gravestone.
After feeling better he left the burial place and went to campus again and decided to have lunch on campus.
He took the food and took a seat in an empty chair with a blank look.He started eating as other students started coming in for lunch either.
someone came towards his table and it was Ronald.He put his food on the table and joined Holland.
"what's wrong?you look tired today"
"there's nothing wrong."
"Are you sure man?"
"yeah,get off."
"woah,I'm just trying to be nice with you man."After saying that,Ronald stood up,he took his food then left.
Holland looked at Ronald's departure with a bit of guilt towards him.
after eating holland decided to go home because his class was over.
After arriving home, he saw his mother sitting staring at the window with a blank stare.
"mom,"He walked towards his mother and hugged her.
His mother didn't show any expression when she saw Holland coming.
"have you eat?"Holland nodded.
she touch his son's face"go to your room now, don't forget to take a shower I has prepared hot water for you."
"thanks mom,"Holland kissed his mother's cheek then went up the stairs to his room.
In the room, he took off his clothes and took a towel then went into the bathroom.after 10 minutes,He came out with wet hair.He wore black shorts and a white t-shirt.
while drying his hair he looked out the window.He still imagined that his father was outside and playing chess near the swimming pool.He shook his head and sat on his bed.
"dad,is this real?"
"all of this is real?"
"do you really leave me alone now?"
Holland's mother, who accidentally passed by his room, decided to go in because she heard him talking to himself.
his mother hugged him"hey, I'm here you're not alone honey."
"why dad left us so fast mom?"
"I don't know honey,but I'm pretty sure he's in a wonderful place now"
"mom,"Holland hugged his mother tightly.
His mother hugged him while rubbing his hair. It felt like she couldn't let go of her husband. She closed her eyes while rubbing her son's hair.
"it's okay, everything's gonna be okay trust me."his mother encouraged her son.
Holland fell asleep while hugging his mother. His mother put a blanket on him and then left his room.
"good night,"his mother touched her son's cheek.
A broken heart hurts, but it will make you strong.Deep pain can be felt when we miss someone we love.Even though life is sometimes painful, we can still find strength in memories and hope.
we often find ourselves in a difficult position but, believe that one day you will find happiness.
You have to learn to welcome people who come into your life, but you also don't forget that people come and go..
no matter what happens people come and go, no one knows when they come and when they go.
in the middle of the night Holland woke up with sweat on his forehead.Her heart was beating fast. he had a nightmare again.
He took a bottle of water from his desk and drank it.after that,He took a deep breath up and down..
He wiped the sweat from his forehead.then took off his clothes and went back to sleep.
Holland has always had nightmares since he was 7 years old. These dreams keep coming to him until now. He has taken a lot of medicine but the dreams keep coming back to haunt him.dreams of past trauma that really always make him scared when he remembers them.it kept coming to him...
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