GUILTY OF LOVE

Only in his arms did I feel safe, safe from all and none. This past week has been so horrible to me. A voice in my pretty little head told me I didn't deserve the type of love showered on me by him but the security I felt now was something new and reasurring. One hand pushed my hair from right side of my neck to my left side, his fingers slightly touching my skin while the other hand was tightly holding me so close to him although I backed him. A little tear rolled down by eyes knowing I didn't deserve him but just then, his cold lips touched my neck and kissed it softly in a way that made me jump a little, a low moan escaped my lips. It was low to my ears but loud enough. I felt his muscles tense up a bit, my butt could feel his length harden up, it sent shivers down my spine, good and exciting shivers that made me shut my eyes tightly closed. He then traced one finger down my neck tormenting me. I had lost my senses of where I was and in those few minutes, I forgot all about what had happened until I heard someone cough loud enough to make us stop. I heard a familiar voice say, "We don't want to see you guys bang right now...or ever...", the voice trailed off. Followed by small chuckles from him. He wrapped his arms around me. He smelled like the mixture of cinnamon and chocolate. A scent that made me feel at home, peaceful, happy, stress-free. My eyes were still shut tightly closed, my mind racing, trying to connect the dots. I felt so safe in his arms that I forgot that I was hurting in the first place. I then opened my eyes slowly, first seeing Maddy, Claire and then Steve and then it hit me. The truth that I cause pain to my loved ones. The kind of pain that never heals. The kind that leaves a huge scar in the heart that never fades away. A tear slid down my cheeks and then another, followed by a hot stream of tears...