This was the new me. It had to be. Somehow I’d done it, compartmentalized in a way that meant I could do it. I’d made it through the whole drive without crippling over the way I was sure Kael was expecting, but that didn’t mean there wasn’t a silent battle raging on deep inside.
I knew what I had just done. Knew what it meant, but if I didn’t find the light in the fact I saved my own, then what was there?
Something had changed. Amongst all the raging, all the emotions threatening to take over and leave me a babbling mess was a specific power that I wasn’t sure was a good thing, but every time I leaned into it, I felt stronger. I felt in control. I felt like nothing could stop me from doing what I had to.
And that made me sick to my stomach.
Kael didn’t dare breathe a word throughout
