Christmas' Misery

Chapter twenty two

[Christmas]

It is almost getting dark when I decided that I will go home. I wasn't in myself while the maid is taking me to the gate. I still don't have no reply from him and I didn't text him again or call him because I already done it many times.

"Take care, Miss Christmas," said of the maid as she closed back the gate.

"Thanks," I only said and looked at my watch. It's already 5:30 p.m. and I have to walk a little to find a cab to ride.

"Christmas."

As I heard that familiar voice at my back, I slowly turn to see if it's him. "What are you doing here?" I asked in my forehead knotted, seeing Carlos sitting at the hood of his car while his arms in cross.

"Going to give you a ride," he answered casually.

"I don't need your ride. I'm using a cab," I refused and about to walk out when he talk.

"About what happened before, I'm sorry if I scared you," he suddenly apologized out of the blue, "I didn't mean it."

"Okay," I only said and continue walking away from him but...

"Christmas!" he called out loud that made me stopped, "Let me give you a ride. We are just in the same place." he added sounded begging.

"What is wrong with this guy?" I whispered to myself.

Before I could turn to face him, a car showed up to my side and the door of passenger open. It is Carlo's brand new sports car and he opened the door from the inside.

"Hop in," he ordered.

"No! I'm going to have a cab," I refused and continued walking but the car followed me.

"Hop in and I will not going to repeat it," he warned.

I glared at him. "You aren't going to stop?"

"No not until you get inside."

"Fine! Whatever!" I yelled in annoyance and instead taking the passenger seat, I entered at the backseat.

"Why are you there?" Carlos asked glaring on me here in the backseat.

"Because this is where I want to sit," I answered and rolled my eyes, "Just drive and take me home."

Carlos just grimaced and closed the door of the passenger before he starts driving the car. I stay here at the back where he is sitting so he will not see me from the rear view mirror.

"Where is auntie by the way?" I asked in curiosity where she must be at this moment.

"She is already home," he answered.

"Don't tell me you f****d her like how you f**k my mom?" I asked sarcastically, "It is disgusting to imagine." I added.

"You don't have to imagine if it's disgusting you," he replied in his deep voice.

"Aren't you feel disgusted on what you are doing, huh? It seems you like f*****g all the people who is close to me," I said in the duh tone and he suddenly stopped the car that I almost got my face on his chair. "Are you going to kill me?!"

"You don't know nothing, Christmas," he said at the deep of his voice.

I hissed. "Oh, please, just drive so that I can go home." I said and crossed my arms.

I never heard again Carlos talk as he continued driving. Our atmosphere filled with silence till we finally arrives. I goes out in his car and about to go when he hold my arm.

“Don't touch me!” I yelled quitely at him and distance a little.

“Take care–”

“I am always and you don't have to say it,” I cut him off.

“What I mean is take care of him. You don't know much about your husband,” he warned me that made me stop. Does he know something? “Good night.” he turned his back on me and walk back inside the car to drive it in front.

I just hissed in the air and start walking inside the house and I couldn't see anything but dark as I opened the door. I look for the switch and I almost jumped in surprised when I opened the lights. Duke was sitting in the single couch while staring sharply on me. It seems he was mad or something?

“Y-you are home,” I said trying not to show he scared me to death.

“Yea, and you are home this time,” he said, “Where have you have been?”

“Before I left in the house I texted you that I'm going to a friend,” I answered.

“Friend? You don't have any friends as fast as I remember.”

“I had one but she is living in the old place where I am before I moved in Orlando,” I said, “She is in Orlando today that's why I came to see her.” I explained and I don't why I am the one who is explaining here, “Before I forgot, why you didn't come home last night? You didn't even make it to our dinner which your idea! I'd been texting you a hundred of times but I didn't receive any even a one message!” I didn't stop my self yelling him and I saw how his face changed.

Duke stood up and walked towards me and when he is nearly, I closed my eyes when he raise his hand. “I'm sorry if I let you down.” He whispered as he hugged me.

I opened my eyes and I don't know if I'm going to hug him too. I just remained stunned on his shoulder. “Why you didn't answering my messages and calls?” I asked.

“I-It's–” He released me from his hug. “I left my phone in the car that's why I didn't reply any of your messages or calls. After I stopped by at the hospital, Andrew called me and we drink in his house that made me forgot the dinner last night. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you about it.” He explained that did not makes me satisfied.

“It's okay. There some other time to have another dinner,” I said in the lower of my voice.

“You are believing me, right?” he asked holding to my both shoulder.

I smiled at him. “Of course I am.”

He pulled me closer to him and kissed me on my forehead. “I'm sorry that will never gonna happen again.”

“Okay.”

“I love you,” he whispered.

“I love you too.”

Before we decided to go upstairs, Duke ordered a pizza so that I will not cook anymore. We ate the pizza in the living room while watching a series movie then after that we already go upstairs to take a rest. The whole day made me stress and I don't know how I will sink everything in my mind. Lots of thoughts running on my head and I don't know how I will deal with it one by one!

“Baby,” Duke called me in his husky voice, “I miss you.” His one hand is moving towards my boobs.

“Duke stop.” I pushed him away. “I'm tired and I want to rest.”

He looked at me unbelievably. “You are never refuse to me. Why all of a sudden, huh?”

“I told you I'm tired. Let's just sleep there is some other time for that,” I said and turn my back at him, hugging my pillow.

Duke heaved a sigh of disappointment. “Okay, good night.”

I didn't hear him anymore at my back and I closed my eyes for me to fall asleep but my thoughts doesn't want me yet to rest. All the things that Lysias told me recently keeps on running and repeating on my head like a circle that doesn't have an end point. I'm trying not to believe but it is bothering me badly.

“Before I tell you everything, promise me that you are not going to tell Duke that I am the only one told you about this.” Lysias is staring directly into my eyes like she was going to kill me if I didn't follow what she said.

“I promise,” I only replied.

“Good.”

“So, start telling me now.”

She smiled widely. “For your information, cheating on him is my plan.” She started. “I already known Duke for a years and every single thing about on him, I knew. His likes and dislikes about things and women. His attitude and what will trigger his moody and even his dark side that you wouldn't want to know.” She grinned. “You sure about this, Christmas? This is look like a betrayal at your husband. Would you take the risk of this? You can still change your mind and walk away with an empty head.”

“Spill out everything that I should know,” I replied eagerly.

She chuckled. “You know what the funniest part here? Me and Duke had been in relationship and we both known each other since childhood. But you and him met only the day he found out I'm cheating on him then you two married that quick?”

“It is not my fault because it was yours in the first place. If you did not cheat on him, he still yours by now,” I said, “Besides, we already love each other before we got married.” I added confidently.

“Psh! Stop me with that. I ain't regretting what I did anyway. I told you it was planned and yea that guy he saw that I'm f*****g that day, I'm seeing him in a months but he is jerk as well that's why I kick his ass off,” she said, “Aren't you curious why I planned it, hmm?”

“I'm curious and I'm just waiting you to spill it out.”

“I cheated on him because he isn't the man that I thought. You can see him definitely a good and calm man but it is only a mask, Honey. I'm sure you will do the same thing what I did.”

“You are confusing me,” I said in my forehead knotted.

“You won't be happy with him because Duke doesn't want to have a child my dear Christmas,” she said that made me stop.

“W-what did you say?”

“You heard me, Christmas,” she smirked, “Duke only wants s*x but afraid of taking responsibility. Sooner or later when she done or sick to you, he will leave you even you two are married.”

“No, you are lyi–”

“Am I lying or you just can't take it?” she asked sarcastically, “Still remember the child you lost, hmm? I bet Duke done something that's why you lost it.”

“He doesn't have to do with it. I miscarried our child that is why we lost it!” I replied that almost shout.

She start laughing out. “Oh, really? Did he really not do or give something to you, hmm?” She asked, arching her brow. “Because if you will not ask, Duke gave me before a medicine that is stopping me to get pregnant. Everytime we are having s*x I didn't get pregnant which I want to be but he doesn't want me to.”

“H-he gave you a medicine?”

“Yea, because he doesn't want to have a baby,” she answered, “That jerk always love to c*m inside but a coward in taking responsibility.”

The morning seems a little different for the both of us. No one is talking even I want to, I don't know what should I say. Duke and I had our breakfast silently and no one dared to talk till we finished eating. I want to speak with him but he is too damn serious. I can still see the calmness on him but today has the mixture of seriousness that he might yell if I'm going to start a conversation. It seems like we are just a stranger while having our breakfast that making me feel sick!

“I'm going now. Don't forget to take your medicine,” Duke reminds me coldly and before I could reply, he already goes inside the car. He glanced at me from the inside and I smiled a little, waving on him.

I watched him driving the car till it gone on my sight. I heaved a sigh and about to go inside when I saw Carlos standing on the door of their house. His arms are crossed while his eyes darted on my way. I just rolled my eyes on the air and walked back inside to clean the house.

I headed to our room first and look for my medicine. As I found the vitamins I took when I'm pregnant and my anti depressant inside the drawer, I quickly opened it and scattered the tablets in the bed. I took one of it and stares on it for almost a minute. “What are you really?”

“Oh, really? Did he really not do or give something to you, hmm?” –Lysias

“Because if you will not ask, Duke gave me before a medicine that is stopping me to get pregnant. Everytime we are having s*x I didn't get pregnant which I want to be but he doesn't want me to.” –Lysias

“It's a medicine that will keep our baby healthy. That is what the doctor said.” –Duke

I finish first cleaning the house before I take a bath. I just made a quick bath and fix myself right away, wearing a denim jeans matching wi.th a floral off shoulder. I used my old doll shoes so I can walk comfortable in the way later.

“Where are we heading, Ma'am?” asked of the cab driver to me.

“In Preston Pharmacy Jax,” I replied to him here at the backseat.

“Okay, Ma'am,” he replied and start driving the cab where I am going to head.

While we are on our way, I can't stop my hands from shaking while holding the tissue that I covered to the tablets. I'm afraid to know the truth but I have to face it but how could I deal with it? How will I deal with Duke if Lysias telling the truth?

“Here we are, Ma'am,” said of the cab driver as we arrived.

“Thank you,” I said and gave him the payment, “Keep the change.” I goes out in the cab and look at the name of pharmacy in front of me.

I started walking inside and the guard opened the door for me. As I saw the pharmacist in the counter, I quickly headed to her.

“Good morning, Ma'am, how may I help you?” she asked.

“I just want to ask if what is these tablets for?” I showed her the two different tablets I covered with a tissue. “Is this an anti depressant medicine and a vitamins for a pregnant woman?”

“Does it don't have its container, Ma'am?”

“The container is in the house and it is written there this is an antidepressant.” I showed her the white round tablet that has a line in the middle. “This one is the vitamins I took when I am pregnant.” I showed her the next tablet that is in color orange and has a shape of round as well.

“Ma'am, it isn't an antidepressant and a vitamins for a pregnant,” she replied, “The usually color of antidepressant are more likely to be green, blue and purple,” she explained, “and this other one isn't a vitamins for a pregnant woman.”

My heart starts thrashing as what I heard on her. “T-then what is this?” I asked in my dried throat.