Alco

The journey of finding who you really are is the best journey you could ever have. Once you realize how far you've come... you wouldn't want to go back. I've always thought of going back in time. But I changed my mind sometimes thinking that I've come so far just to go back. I wonder why I always want to go back.

Maybe because back then I was enjoying life. Now that I am turning 22 years old this coming March 30, 2021 I have come to think about it that I've come so far.

I kept on going back to the past and it's not good for me. I could say that but from time to time I still do it.

Any names in this book is made up

I just want to enjoy life. I suppress my feelings for Ethyl because I made a plead to God that I won't be a lesbian. Well, I didn't really plead like God I won't be a lesbian. I said God I won't be a lesbian just helpe get through this. But then, I kept on sinning. If that's a word. How can I? Just how can I overcome this if I myself don't do my best to fight this.

I've been having a hard time getting my life back. I want to go to school again but I'm afraid that when I go home I'd have a breakdown because I don't like our way of living and our social status. I also would like to work in a BPO company but I'm afraid that I won't be able to enjoy it because of the other people working there. My mom suggested for me to take a Tuesday course in cooking. For God sake! I don't want that!

Alco (2021)