betrayal of a mate

The past part 2

I don't know for how long i layed there , on the hard cold floor , for after the angry wolf assaulted me . He threw punches , one after the other , like there was no tomorrow . I couldn't move a finger let alone try and stop him . He was stronger , buklier and bigger in every aspect and i knew better than to try to run away or resist because it was clear to everyone that wolves like the chase and the challenge and i was right because after of what felt like forever he slapped me one last time and got up to leave not after spitting on me , cursing under his breath .

I layed there , motionless , unable to move or do anything but the trembeling and muffeled quiet sobbs that escaped my mouth as the blood slide down my face down to the floor , into the small puddle of my blood , to be exact . But believe me this is nothing compared to what i suffered from every day . 

So i try over and over to move myself up but fail miserbally making my pain intensifies and my groans louder . This is hell but i had nowhere to go and no one to seek help from . I'm all alone . Every look that came my way was laced with contempt,hate and  annoyance that makes me want to disappear even more but to no avail . I have to keep going not because i want to but because i needed to , when you realise that there is no running away from a situation or a problem or even your own life you are left with no option but to fight back . In my case it's totally impossible more precisely futile so i had to survive till they decide i'm not needed anymore . I know it's quiet depressing but you have to remember this is life not a fairy tale and some of us don't get the choice to do what they want , all of this was taught to me the hard , bone breaking way and no matter how appealling the idea is to stand up for myself , it lingers in my mind for a few second before it goes away as fast as it came .

I shruggded off those thoughts and continued to pushe myself up as slowly as i can using the little energie that i had left while bitting my lower lip to push down my cries . Every movement left me hurting even more , wishing if i was never born .It was nothing new Those thoughts kept running through my mind the whole time .

I limped trowards the kitchen to wash the mountain of dishes that awaits me . "i need to get this done with and start preparing for the alpha's son birthday , everything needs to be perfect and ready by tomorrow's evening or it won't be just a beating that i will get away with " a shiver went down my spine at the thougth but i shrugged it away and continued washing the dishes as fast as my small weak hands could allow me .

After an hour or so i finished the dishes and headed to finish my chores and preparation . My day went by as usual exept for the casual beatings i got and the never ending load of work i had to do thrown at me by the pack members .

the next day went by so fast , everyone was giddy and getting ready for the celebration while i cleaned the whole house , the celebration room that was dusty as hell and smells even worse, slowly started to look like how it needs to be . I decorated it with colorful ball ,ribbons and plenty more decoration that i didn't know the name off but looks so pretty and expensive just like everything in the room . The best for the best they say , well i can't blame them but it leaves me envious and wondering if my parents were alive or if they didn't abondan me like they say , would they perhaps love me , shower me with gifts , cuddles and goodnight kisses . i felt the tears clouding my vision and the saddness piercing my heart at the 'what ifs'  of the love and affection that i crave so much in my mind . I know that it's no use to think of them or the life i could've had but still i can't help it espacially with how lonely i'm and how shitty my life is . but you have to forget them alexandra maybe they are in a better place or so i like to tell myself .

I blink the tears away and let a breath that i was holding and make my way to the kitchen . first i prepared the dough for those chocolate crispy cookies and put them in a tray and in the oven they go . next the cake , then the cupcakes i put  them in the oven to make the frosting and different creams in various flavours to decorate everything with . 

After , i prepared the fruits to use on the cake and cut the apples for the tart and finally i prepared the drinks pourring them in diffrent cups and so on till everything was ready and i still had 2 hours for the birthday so i started moving everything to where the birthday will be and then took my time  in decorating the cake , it was my first time backing a big cake like this one, i mean i did bake everything before for the luna and the others but this cake is different , multiple layers and so much chocolates and fruits . It's simply delicious just from the sight of it  got me drooling and hypnotised . i hesitatly reach my trembling hand to swipe some cream , slowly to my mouth . Just a taste i whisper to myself as my thumb gets closer to my lips .

As my finger reach my lips , i lick the piece of cream hurriedly and abruptly stop .

Oh dear sweet jesus , this is the most delicious thing i ever tasted in my life . I get it now why the luna loves sweets , it taste like heaven but i abruptly snap out of my own world as the weight of what had just happened drowned on me . I looked left and right to see if anyone saw that and thakfully no one was around to see this or they would've killed me . I'm not allowed to breath the same air as them let alone eat their food and not anyones food but the future alpha's food . I let out a breath i didn't know i was holding and continued my work as fast as i can trying to forget what just happned but little did i kow that someone was watching my every move while grinning to themselves .

By 7 am everything was ready and everyone started heading to congratulate the young alpha , looking at everyone enjoying themselves i took this as my queue to leave .Turning around i starded heading to the exit " Alexandra ! where do you think you are going " yelled mike  making me stop in my tracks as he stood there in the middle of the room getting everyone's attention on me .

I turn aroud head down in front of him " i-i f-iinishe-d my w-ork a-lph-a "i whispered swallowing the lump in my throat but i knew he could hear me perfectly like everyone else in the room .

"Well i don't remember giving you permission to go did i ?" he asked me and i can imagine the smirk that rested on his face 

"nno a-lpha"i replied "well don't go yet , we may need your sorry ass in here so stay in the corner over there " he ordered pointing at shady dark corner in the room . I nodded in response and made my way to the corner only to be stopped a second time by him .

"Alexandra don't you think you forgot something ? " hearing this i stopped in the middle of my tracks , sweat started forming on my forehead , hands trembeling and i can hear my heart beats speeding up like crazy . just what did i forget i screamed to myself as i started to panic , i was beyong terrefied at this point. it could be anything and honestly i have no idea what it may be , i did everything the luna asked cleaned , washed , backed etc just what did i forget ?? . I felt tears clouding my vision as i racked my brains out but nothing came to my mind . I shut my eyes tightly embaracing my fate , there is nothing to be done now , i'm gonna get beat up over it anyway so why bother i told myself as i waited for him to lash out on me but it never came instead i was shocked by what he said next .

" Well you didn't wish me a happy birthday did you ? but i can't blame you and your pea size brain can I ? "

i stood there , eyes as big as saucers , i expected him to beat the s**t out of me for not doing the incognito task which turns out to be this ? honestly i can never understand him at all but let's get this over with 

"h-ap-ppy bir-thh-dayy a-lpha" i said head down 

"whatever get going already " he scoffed turning around to talk with the rest of the pack so headed to my corner and stood there quietly looking at the wooden floor trying to keep my eyes open . I had no break through the day , i kept working like crazy . Not to mention the usual beatings , combined i feel my body turn to mush and standing with nothing to do made it worse as i had nothing to focus on but the pain .

After what felt like an eternity , it was time to blow the candles so everyone made their way to the center , encircling the table  singing happy biirthday songs  with the alpha in the middle smiling .when they finished he blowed out the candles and cheers and howels erupted from the crowd .

I waited for him to cut the cake but he never did instead he looked up and stared right at me , Chills run threw my spine as he smiled at me .I swear i could see a glint of mischieve in his stormy black eyes before i tore my eyes away from his gaze and looked down at the ground trembling and wondering what was that about and knowing him , i know that something bad is bound to happen to me .

"Guys I know that everyone of you wants to eat the cake but knowing that My Alexandra here  didn't even wish me a happy birthday on her own , to me her future alpha which is the least to do , not to mention she didn't even bother to get a present or get ready which makes me angrier .So i think a punishment is in order right ? "smirked mike earning sheers and shouts of approval from the pack .

It all happened so fast one moment i was standing in the corner shaking and sweating in fear the next i was tied to a chair unable to escape as they poured what i think was gasoline on my lower half .

Amdist the excited howels of the pack members sat mike at the table smiling at me before saying "You thought you could eat from my cake and get away with it ? well sweety i will make sure you will never think of touching what's not yours nor eat cakes or whatsover .A lowly piece of s**t like you only gets to eat the scraps that we toss at you so watch closely  " he laughed wikedly at me before scooping a handful of cake with his hand and devouring it while i started screaming and begging them to stop the fire but they just laughed at me and enjoying my pain . I had to watch him eat the cake that i worked so hard on making while i screamed and trashed around crying and begging as i burned alive till the smell of burnt meat could be smelled in the air but to no avail no one is going to save me , not even the gods themselves . 

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