betrayal of a mate

Pain

  Pain is all  i can feel  at this moment and probably the only feeling i ever felt my whole life that will follow me in the future too . 

I was laying on the floor squirming in pain as Rita kept pressing her heels in my flesh , kicking me everywhere . As much as i was happy that she stopped stomping on my hand  (which i can't feel anymore , it basically went numb from the excruciating pain), i hoped that she would stop or for someone or anyone to stop her . Soon enough she stopped trying to catch her breath .

"Now , now my dear alexandra ..i hope you had fun as much as me . Honestly speaking i can never get enough of disciplining you my dear " she chuckled as she watched me curled up on the floor , crying in pain,blood streaming down my face . "Descipliing me my ass ! you sadist sick b***h!!!"i angerly  thought to myself since i don't have the guts to even look at  anyone in the eyes let alone talk back. Only God knows what they will do to me if i ever did  and honestly i don't want to know . 

"s-so-r-ry ..." i mutterred under my breath in a small voice almost like a whisper.But i know that she had no problem hearing me thanks to her werewolf hearing ability.

"oh my alexandra!!" she fake gasped "i'm so proud of you , you are finally using that brain of yours for once. would it harm if you were always this obedient?hmm?" she asked knowing well the answer to her stupid question "but then again one should not expect much from a dumb low-life like you right? answer me ." "y..yes luna " i said tearfully "Good to know you at least know your place my dear "she said proudlly enjoying the sound of the word luna which  i  deliberately used to get her off my back since i can't afford another beating .

After having laughed and degraded me , she left , so I slowly got up wipping blood off my forhead with my shirt scowelling at the thought that now i only have 3 shirts to wear since this one is blodied and the luna hates the sight of blood but it's quiet funny how the luna of the midnight pack is such a p***y i chuckled at the thought as i limped holding my numb hand in my other one trowards the packs members room to clean up since everyone is having breakfast.

At 10 pm i have finally  finished washing the dishes and cleanig the kitchen counters. i graped an apple , a piece of bread and a bottle of water and sneaked into the bassement afraid to get beat up by an angry werewolf because honestly i can hardly stand after the beatting i got from rita the b***h and some other pack members through the day .

I closed the door to my room and headed to the bathroom . i cleaned the blood of my boody , since i was too tired to take a shower and let the cold water run on my hand as i hissed in pain. "at least she didn't brake my hand " i said sighting in relief "but she did leave a scar , hopefully it will fade away" i muttered.then i sat down on my bed and started eating since i was allowed one meal everyday,of course from the leftovers.

I laid down on my back , staring at the ceilling as i thought of my life so far.I don't remember my parents or anything about myself before the age of five other my name and the fact that i was found by the alpha's pack roaming the woods , at first they thought i was a lost wolf pup but later it turned out i was a mere human since i couldn't even shift nor do i smell like a werewolf and so i was treated as a slave for as long as i can remember , serving the pack day and night and working as a puch bag when i need to .My only hope is that i find my mate , mates are a gift from the moon goddess to her children.They are meant to love , protect and help each other.Hopefully i will find mine , my mate, the one who will get me lout of this hell hole and love me .Althought , my hope grows smaller by the time as i find myself wondering if i will ever find him,will he accept me ? an unshifted useless ugly bimbo like me ? what if he rejects me because i'm not enough ? what will i do ??? , i started to panic as my fears grew bigger but i mentally slapped myself as i thought " seriously alexandra ? thinking negativily won't get us anywhere , we need to hold on to this small piece of hope . Mates are bound by a pure connection that draws them together uniting them so that they can complete one another , there is no doubt that our mate will love us , they will , for sure " i reassured myself as i drifted into a deep slumber not knowing what the future holds for me .