It wasn't me

Life is unexpected. Just when you thought you got what you needed to get out of endless pit, life pushes you further down. As if mocking you for even hoping, for even trying. Should I had just listened to all the people who talked down to me, looked down on me? Should I had just stayed where i was supposed to be, where my place was? But where is that place? Is there even a place for orphans in this world. If this world is refusing me, rejecting me, then I also refuse to stay in this world, I also reject this world.... was what I was thinking while coming back to the place I called home ever since I became an orphan. But I didn't mean it when I said I didn't want to stay in this world. Now, I am aching all over. My vision is getting blur. I can hear people rushing to help. I am getting tired and sleepy. Maybe this is for the better. Maybe this really is the end... As I was coming back to consciousness, I could see some nurses and doctors. Doctors shaking there head, and someone breaking down. It shouldn't be her. I didn't want to hurt her till the end. I only wanted to show her beautiful things. The only person to have shown me kindness, my guardian angel, Ms. Raya. Please don't cry for someone selfish like me.... As I was drifted to unconsciousness again, I opened my eyes again. The way I lived my life, I was hoping some hell, but I did not expect myself to be in another world. Is this even possible? It only happened in the novels and to be happened to me, it does not make sense. What are chances, huh? When I opened my eyes, I found myself in an unattended field. The owner of this body must have ran away. As I was looking around, I saw the color of this body's hair. They were beautiful shade of blonde. The type of color no one could even pull off with dyes. After experiencing this bizarre phenomenon, I did not know what to do next, so I just walked and walked. And then I saw it. The huge gates to a village. Is this even a village, on the top of this village like this there was a beautiful castle like house. Is that really a castle. By the looks of the clothes of this body, it could be a castle. Then this must be a territory of some noble. Right now, my top priority was to look for a roof. A place to stay. I have no memory of this body, normally in many novels the memories of the owners stay as it is. But my luck has always in zero. What was I even expected. As I got closer to the gate, I saw some people approaching gate on their horses. Just when I thought I reached my destiny, my eyes felt heavy. And then... baam. A loud noise and I was looking at the sky. Why am I looking at the sky. Then I heard some footsteps and people speaking in a language that is new to me but understandable. Was this all a dream, I want to wake up now. This is enough. I have to go to Ms. Raya. She must be waiting for me. But I can't wake up. Why? I have to wake up. Please. Please. Please. I can feel pain in my legs and in the back. Was the accident real? Then am I in comatose state. I have to wake up or I should just die. If I die, at least Ms. Raya will be able to get the insurance. At least, I will be able to help her in death. Please God help me just this time.