After My Death Tomorrow

Episode 25

I was in the middle of my daydream with Marco when the song of Ed Sheeran suddenly stopped.

Then we heard a familiar sound from the drums . . .

I don't mind letting you down easy.

But just give it time.

If it don't hurt now just wait, just wait a while.

It was an obvious sign that the battle of the bands just started.

And without talking, we all stare at each other. Then we smile. It's as if we are talking through our minds.

You're not the big fish in the pond no more.

You are what they're feeding on.

Before I know it, they all run towards the oval that's situated near where we are standing.

With a big smile on my face, I followed them as I run.

Tumatakbo kami habang sumasabay sa kanta. It's Ain't It Fun by Paramore. God, it's Paramore! Sino bang hindi mapapasabay kapag kanta na nila ang pinapatugtog?

Kahit na pinagtitinginan kami ng mga nadadaanan namin, hindi namin sila ininda at bagkus ay nagpatuloy lang sa pagkanta. We were headbanging while running like crazy.

So what are you gonna do

when the world don't orbit around you?

Ain't it fun living in the real world?

Ain't it good being all alone?

Madilim na nang makarating kami sa oval. Tanging ilaw na lang ng buwan at ng mga lantern na nakasabit sa itaas ng wire ang nagsisilbing liwanag. Pero maaninag sa stage na nasa gitna ng oval ang makukulay na ilaw habang nakatapat sa nagpeperfom ang spotlight. Nagmukha tuloy na Music Festival ang oval ngayon.

Iba na ang bandang ngayon ay nagpeperform. Kung kanina ay kaboses ni Hayley Williams ang boses ng naunang banda, ang panibagong bokalista naman ay kaboses ni Shawn Mendes. Kinakanta niya ngayon ang kantang Painkiller by Ruel.

'Cause you're my painkiller.

When my brain gets bitter.

You keep me close.

When I've been miserable.

Dumiretso na kami doon sa mga tumpok ng mga tao na nagtatalunan habang kumakanta. Ginaya namin sila. Ngayon ay nakataas ang mga kamay namin habang kumakanta nang malakas at tumatalon. Para ba kaming nasa concert ng paborito naming banda.

And it takes forever.

To let my brain get better.

You keep me close.

You keep me close.

Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas ay nagperform na ang isa pang banda na kumanta naman ng kantang Sing by Ed Sheeran.

It's Ed Sheeran! I can never let myself not enjoy the song of my favorite male singer!

With that, I went wild . . .

I let out a side of me that no one knows. The fun side of me that I never get to show to others.

With a cemented wide smile on my face, I sing on the top of my lungs and move like a mad woman who just got out of the mental hospital for about a hundred years.

I need you darling.

Come on set the tone.

If you feel you're falling.

Won't you let me know.

Louder!

Mula sa malaking screen, itinapat ng bokalistang may mahabang buhok ang mic sa direksyon namin. Senyales na kami naman ang dapat na kumanta.

And I really freaking obliged!

My sing wasn't really sing at all, it is now beginning to be the real epitome of yelling.

Oh-oh-oh-oh-ooh.

Oh-oh-oh-oh-ooh.

Sing!

We were singing on the top of our lungs as if there's no tomorrow. The fact that I'm sharing the most memorable day of my life with my favorite persons made my heart flutter. It fuels more the burning soul of the youth who wants to just enjoy life-- who wants to live her life to the fullest without minding how messed her heart was these past few days.

If you love me come on get involved.

Feel it rushing through you from your head to toe.

Matapos ang bandang nagperform ay sumunod naman ang bandang nagperform ng acoustic version ng Without You Now by Digital Farms Animal and AJ Mitchell. Ang kaninang pagtalon namin ay napalitan na ng bahagyang pag-sway ng katawan.

I let you go, got rid of everything I know.

I gave it up, I gave it all for chasing gold.

I ran away, I left you calling every day.

I messed it up, I messed it up, I should've known.

Halos lahat ng mga nanonood ay sumasabay sa pagkanta sa banda. At ganoon din kami, nakakarelax ang boses ng bokalista!

Ang husky ng boses, nakakabwisit! Tagos hanggang buto ko!

Kinikilig ako, walang hiya!

I've been up, I've been down.

Spent my love in different towns.

All this cash don't mean s**t now.

Is this life without you now?

Ang sarap naman kasing pakinggan ng boses ng bokalistang ito. Para bang pinagsamang boses nina James Reid at Michael Pangilinan ang boses niya.

Pinikit ko na ang mga mata ko at nagpatuloy sa pagsabay sa kanya.

I've been up, I've been down.

Spent my love in different towns.

All this cash don't mean s**t now.

Is this life without you now?

At noong magmulat na ako ng mga mata, I saw Marco.

He is staring at his phone with a wide grin on his beautiful face.

Then one moment after, I saw him to slowly walk away from us.

Mabilis siyang nawala sa gitna ng dagat ng mga tao. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nag-udyok sa akin para sundan siya.

Nagsumiksik ako sa mga taong ngayon ay tumalon habang sumasabay sa kanta. Hindi na inalintana pa kung masaktan ba nila ako o hindi.

Kasi ang nasa isip ko lang ngayon ay . . . ang malaman ang dahilan ng matamis na pag-ngiti ni Marco.

Iyong dahilan na masakit.

Kasi hindi ako iyon.

Hinding hindi ako ang magiging dahilan ng kanyang matamis na ngiti.

Then when I was in the middle of the wild crowd, I saw Marco's back. He is walking towards the side of the stage.

Sinubukan ko ang lahat ng makakaya ko para mabilis na masundan si Marco.

Pero . . .

Kusang tumigil ang mga paa ko noong makita ko si Cygny.

Papunta siya sa harap ni Marco.

And Marco is smiling at her as if she is the only girl in the world.

The way he can never do for me.

Then . . . that's it.

Diretsong nanghina ang mga tuhod ko noong makitang hinila ni Marco ang kamay ni Cygny. Pagkatapos . . . pagkatapos ay hinalikan niya ito sa labi. Kasabay ng otomatikong pag-awang ng bibig ko ang pagtulo ng mga masasakit kong luha.

That moment, my world is crashing down as I try to move. I wanted to move and drag my feet somewhere. Somewhere I can forget the pain on my chest.

Pero hindi ko kaya.

Tila bang naka-semento na ang mga paa ko dito.

Tila bang mas gusto ng tadhana na pahirapan ako habang pinapanood silang maghalikan sa harap ko.

On the back of my mind, a thought of me is commanding my body to run away because of the pity I am feeling with myself right now. But it seems like my body can't comprehend what my mind says for it's currently being indulged by the pain that my heart is imposing to my system.

Ang sakit lang.

Sobrang sakit lang kasi heto na 'yon.

Heto na ang araw na kinakatakutan ko.

Iyong araw na wala na. Wala na talaga. Wala na akong pag-asa.

Marco and Cygny were alreay inlove with each other.

And until now, I can't accept it . . .