I don't want you to save me
Kamal hated mornings not because he was lazy, he wasn’t. He just hated the forced politeness at the breakfast table. The quiet clink of expensive cutlery on imported china. The way his father read the paper like the world belonged to him. The way his mother complimented the chef, not because the food deserved it, but because compliments were part of the image.
He sat across from them now, pushing toast around his plate. His father didn’t look up once. His mother glanced at him, then back at her tea.
“You have that charity event this weekend,” she said. “Wear the navy suit.”
“I’ve got school on Saturday,” Kamal replied.
“After school.”
He didn’t argue. It wouldn’t matter if he did.
His parents didn’t ask about his grades. Didn’t ask how he was feeling. They just assumed he was fine because everything around him was fine. Big house, clean clothes and a driver waiting outside.
He stood, thanked the chef (because he was the only person in the house who listened), and left.
At school, Kamal stepped out of the car before the gate like he always did. He didn’t want anyone seeing the tinted windows or the man in a suit behind the wheel. People talked enough already. He kept his world divided, home in one box, school in another.
But Aisha didn’t fit in either.
She wasn’t like the others. She didn’t chase attention. She didn’t fake smiles. She wasn’t loud, or dramatic, or shallow. She was quiet yet not in a weak way. It was something else. Something like control.
He noticed her the first time she spoke in class. She had corrected the teacher politely but with absolute clarity. Her voice didn’t shake. She didn’t apologize for being right. She just said the fact, then fell silent again. Like she didn’t care whether anyone was impressed. During lunch, he watched her from the courtyard, sitting under the old neem tree with her head bent over a book. Not reading but only staring at the page. Her fingers traced the edge of the paper like she was somewhere else entirely.
She looked tired.
Not sleepy-tired. Worn-tired.
He thought about walking over but dared not.
That night, he sat on the balcony of his room, legs stretched out, hoodie zipped halfway up. The city lights blurred in the distance. He liked it out here. It was the only place in the house that didn’t feel like a hotel.
He unlocked his phone and opened the message thread.
Still no reply.
Fine.
He typed a new one, then deleted it. Tried again. Deleted that one too.
He didn’t want to pressure her. But something in him, something quiet and real wanted her to know he saw her. Not just her face, not just the mystery. Her.
The part of her nobody asked about.
The next day, he showed up to school early not because he wanted to but because he hadn’t slept much and sitting at home felt worse. The silence there had weight. Here, it was just noise he could ignore.
He took his seat as usual. Didn't look around for her. He wasn’t going to be that guy.
But when she walked in, something shifted. Maybe it was the way she kept her chin high or the way her eyes swept past him like he was air. Maybe it was just that she was here. Present. Solid. And still, somehow, untouchable.
She sat two rows up.
Didn’t glance his way once.
He opened his book but didn’t read a word.
When the bell rang and the class started clearing out, he packed his bag slower than usual. Not on purpose, just dragging the moment.
As she passed by his desk, she dropped something. Not dramatic. Just slipped it out of her sleeve and let it fall beside his notebook without a word. By the time he picked it up, she was gone.
It was a torn trash of paper that has no fancy. Seven words were written in her tight, quiet handwriting on it: “I don’t want you to save me.” he held and stared at it for so long.
And for the first time in days, he didn’t try to write back.
He just folded the paper carefully, slid it into his back pocket, and left with a silence that said, Okay. I hear you.