Ghosted

Chapter 4 POV Amelia

POV Amelia

When I went to the hotel I was totally surprised by Lion-Alpha because although Mandy had told me he was hot, this guy was seriously out of my league and I was incredibly nervous. She told me that he wasn’t very nice but actually he was lovely to me. All the things she had told me had been totally wrong and I wondered if she had mixed him up with the wrong guy but when he got undressed he had the same huge lion tattoo that she had told me about so it definitely was him. The s*x was fabulous but for some reason there was a few tender moments between us and although I enjoyed them it was a far cry from the way Courtney had described him to Mandy. I thought that maybe he was just being nice and that I was outstaying my welcome so I offered to leave a few times but he kept asking me to stay. He even told me his real name and asked to see me again. He couldn’t stop kissing me and then he went down on me and I was glad she was wrong about that one. When I was leaving he stood at the hotel room door waving me off and I wasn’t sure if he’d had a personality transplant. The time I had spent with him had been fantastic because the s*x was great but it was more than that because I actually kind of liked him. Two days after our night together I stood in a meeting at the hospital I worked at and I couldn’t stop thinking about him when suddenly I told myself to get a grip. This guy met up with numerous women in hotel rooms and I was just another one in a long line of women he was sleeping with. That day in the break room I got out my phone and I had another message from him. He said that he had booked a hotel room for that night and that he couldn’t wait till Thursday to see me and that he wanted me badly. The message got me really excited and I was grinning at my phone like a love sick teenager. I didn’t know what to message back so I just wrote ‘Okay, I can see you tonight, send me the details’ Within a second he sent me the address and the time and to my surprise he said he would be counting the minutes until he could see me again. This guy was giving me such a boost to my confidence that I actually felt sexy again. I got out of my scrubs and I had a shower and got changed at the hospital because I knew if I went home I would feel too guilty to go and see him again. I only had my suit from the meeting that morning and I decided that it would just have to do. I put on my heels and zipped up my skirt and headed down to my car. When I got to the hotel I took off my wedding and engagement rings and put them in the glove compartment. As I arrived at the hotel room door I took a deep breath because I was kind of nervous to see him again. He answered the door straight away and he had a huge smile on his face. His smile was gorgeous and it instantly lifted my spirits. “I’m not on the phone this time” he said and I appreciated that he was being welcoming to me. I went into the hotel room and it was a huge suite. He must have paid a fortune for it and I felt guilty that I could only stay there with him for a few hours. “This place is amazing” I said as he took off my coat and hung it up for me. “I’m glad you like it” he said as he moved my hair to one side and started to kiss my neck. His touch was gentle and it sent delicious shivers all over my skin. “You look beautiful Amelia” he said as he carried on kissing me and I felt like I was in heaven. When he stoped my eyes shot open because I wasn’t ready for it to end. “Let me take your jacket for you” he said as I took off my suit jacket I felt rather underdressed for such a lovely hotel suite. “I’m sorry I’m dressed like this, it wasn’t a lot of notice so I had to come straight from work.” He spun me around to face him “you look good to me” he said as he put both his hands on either side of my face and he kissed me. He was gentle to begin with but as our kiss went on he started to rub his hands over my t**s and I was already turned on but this sent me into a wild state. I started tearing his cloths off and our mouths never left each other for a moment until we were both totally naked. I couldn’t help but touch his huge manhood and he moaned against my lips. We were both still standing in the middle of the room and we were kissing and panting with anticipation. He reached between my legs and teased my c**t as I stroked his c**k and massaged his balls. He used one hand to lift my leg up into the air and he slipped two fingers into me. Years of fingering my self had left me sexually frustrated but he was unbelievably good at it. He was pumping his fingers in and out of me and rubbing my c**t with his thumb. By now I was so worked up that I wanted to come there and then on his hand but I had been kind of embarrassed that I had squirted the last time we had s*x and I had to hold myself back. I used both hands on his shaft when suddenly he pulled away from our embrace. “What are we like?” He said breathlessly as he gently put my leg down on the floor and I had to hold his shoulders to steady myself because I was still wearing my heels. “We have this huge bed here and we haven’t even used it yet” He picked me up and laid me on my back in the middle of the bed and took off one of my shoes at a time and threw them onto the floor. “You have the cutest little feet” he said as he kissed my toes. I let out a giggle and then he kissed me from my neck all the way over my n*****s, then down my stomach and he was between my legs. He had the tongue of an expert but Mandy had told me that he had refused to go down on Courtney so it didn’t make sense. His tongue caressed my c**t at a rapid pace and then he gently licked my opening. It was long lustful strokes that was sending me into another stratosphere. He was incredible. He was stroking my stomach with one hand and I was surprised that he held my other hand. His hands were soft and he was so gentle. It was such a loving thing to do considering he was a f**k boy that probably slept with every women he could get his hands on. It was astonishingly sexy to watch him lovingly worship my p***y. He looked like he was really enjoying himself and it gave me a thrill that he hadn’t done this with Courtney. He pulled his mouth away and started to gently rub sweet circles on my c**t with his fingers and he looked up at me with a sexy grin. “Tell me what you want. Tell me what porn your into and we can do it” He was using the words I’d used on him from our first time together. I licked my lips and said “I love gay porn. I like to watch two or three guys together” and his eyebrows were down “well I’m not going to do that” he said and he licked his fingers and carried on stroking me. We both laughed “I like the idea of someone watching us” I said and his eyebrows shot up. “Really?” He asked and I could tell he was surprised “I got caught with someone before and it was so hot” he smiled then he buried his face into me and licked and sucked me again then he pulled away. “Amelia you’re so f*****g hot. I haven’t stopped thinking about you these past few days” I was incredibly flattered and I knew I had to be honest with him. “Me too. You are so handsome. And the s*x was..” I threw my head back with pleasure as he eased his fingers into me again. “I’m glad you feel the same way because I think I’m a bit obsessed with you” He buried his face into me again and I couldn’t hold on for another moment. My orgasm was like an explosion and I could feel my whole body shake as I screamed his name and grinded my p***y against his mouth. When I could finally open my eyes again he was on top of me. His mouth was covered in my juices and I covered my face because I was mortified “I’m sorry Mark, but every time you make me come I squirt. I’ve never done that before. You make me so wet, I’m so embarrassed” I covered my face again and he took my hand away and kissed all the way down my cheek. “Do you know how sexy you are when you say things like that?” I shook my head and he laughed and then he kissed me on the mouth and it was passionate and I had never felt this wanted before. When he pulled away he had a wicked grin on his face, “that was hot when you told me what kind of porn your into” he said he looked deep into my eyes. “Obviously I’m not going to sleep with a guy but I think we can do the other thing you mentioned” I was intrigued. He got off the bed and then he picked me up without any effort at all and I liked that he was so strong. He placed me over at the window and then he walked over to his trousers and took out a condom. I was just standing at the window looking out over the London Thames. The room had floor to ceiling windows and it was really high up. He came up behind me and kissed my neck like before and I can honestly say that this was my new favourite thing because the feeling was unreal. “I didn’t realise how small you are. I’ve never seen you stand with no heels on” he hugged me from behind and I felt tiny surrounded by his huge muscles. He gently took both my hands and placed them on the window and he bent me forward. I could hear him tear the condom rapping and within a few seconds he was inside me. He started off slow but his speed increased and he was tenderly stroking my back with his huge hands but then his hands travelled to my waist and he started to rock me back and forth as he slammed his huge c**k in and out of my p***y. His speed was frantic and I was trying to push back onto him but he was in charge and I was just along for the ride. I felt his hands travel up my back and he grabbed my hair and pulled my head back so that he could kiss me but he couldn’t reach my mouth from that angle so I stuck out my tongue and so did he. We were wildly licking each others tongues as he f****d me from behind and I’d never had s*x like this before in my life. He nudged me forward until I was pressed up against the cool glass of the window and I could feel my n*****s rub up and down the window with every one of his thrusts. “Every one is looking at you Amelia” he said “everyone can see you naked and how much you love being f****d by me” his enormous c**k was hitting my g spot deep inside. I looked out of the window and it was looking over the water and there was just empty office buildings on the other side. I was glad that there wasn’t lots of people because although the idea of it excited me, the reality was that I didn’t want hundreds of people watching us, although we were so far up that no one could probably see us but it was still the hottest thing I’d ever experienced. When I looked down onto the Thames bank pathway there was a couple holding hands and they looked like they were out for a romantic stroll when I seen the woman point up to us and Mark must have noticed them too. He leaned forward and started to whisper in my ear “They can see you, they can see you naked Amelia.” I looked down and the woman covered her eyes but the guy stood watching us. “They’ve caught us, they’ve caught me screwing you” he said and he was really pounding into me. The woman slapped the guys arm and stormed away and the guy watched us for a moment then went after her. He walked a few steps then he looked back up at us and then he ran after her. “They’re going home to have s*x and he’s going to be thinking about you, he’s going to come and he’ll be thinking about your t**s pressed up against this window and me f*****g you from behind. He will be running after her with a hard on wishing he was me” and with that I came and I couldn’t help but let out a loud scream and to my surprise he was coming too. He grabbed my shoulders and grunted and then he was still for a moment. I leaned against the window with my eyes closed and I hadn’t even felt that he had moved from behind me. I looked up at him and he took my face in his hands and kissed me on the mouth and we both pulled away and looked into each others eyes and laughed. “I think we can’t come back to this hotel either” he said and he kissed me again. But this kiss wasn’t sexy, it was loving and I didn’t want it to end. He pulled me away from the window and quickly closed the curtains “that was hot but I don’t want any one to look at you like that again” he said and I felt the same way. “I know, that b***h is going home to dream about you touching her and you’re mines tonight” he c****d his head to the side. “Is it just for tonight? Because I really like you. I know this is a bit full on, but I want you to know that I don’t want to meet up with any one else on that app and that I’d like to see you again” my heart was beating out of my chest. This guy was like a porn star and a sweetheart all rolled into one. He was looking at me with his big brown puppy dog eyes and he was patiently waiting for an answer. “That would be great because I like you too” I said and he kissed me again and it felt like I’d never been kissed before. Then there was a knock at the door and I was startled “oh no, we must have been too loud again” I said with a nervous laugh. I buried my face into his rock hard chest and he laughed too. “No that’s the room service, I ordered us some food. I hope you don’t mind” this guy was a keeper. Not only could he make me come but he was gorgeous and I hadn’t eaten a thing since breakfast. “You’re amazing” I said and he kissed the top of my head and went over and put on his boxers and I picked up his shirt and put it on and buttoned it at the front. I couldn’t help but sniff the soft fabric and it smelled just like him. His eyes lit up when he came back through with the food. “You look good enough to eat wearing my shirt” he said with a huge grin. We sat down at the table and munched on our food and he was so lovely and I really enjoyed his company. When we were finished I couldn’t help but ask about his lion tattoo. I traced my fingers along it. “This tattoo is fabulous, the detail and shading are amazing. What made you choose it?” “I had the name of my ex wife tattooed on me but when I caught her cheating I had to have it covered up. She was always flirting with other men and I stupidly didn’t think anything of it. She even tried to flirt with this rich guy in the jewellery shop the day we bought our wedding bands. I should have called it off then. But it is what it is” I was surprised to hear that he had been married. “It was an ugly tattoo anyway. After that me and my mate got drunk and got matching ones to cover this up. I couldn’t wait to get rid of her and that tattoo. Enough about all that, let’s get back to bed” he said and he picked me up off the chair and took me to bed and we had s*x for hours until we were both exhausted and I had to try and break it to him that I couldn’t stay the night. I didn’t know what to say and I really didn’t want to leave him but I had to go home. It was around 11pm and my phone started to ring. It wasn’t my work phone so I planned on letting it go to voice mail, but it rang again and I knew that it must have been Robert. “I need to get that, sorry Mark” to my relief he was fine about it. I answered the phone “hello Robert how are you?” I asked and his usual happy voice rang through the phone. Robert is my husbands twin brother and he is one of the best guys you could ever meet. Richard and I had both been over the moon when he bought the house across the road from us and I liked that we were best friends and neighbours. “I’m good Millie, I popped over to see you tonight but you weren’t home. I wanted to let you know that dad is back from Italy on Friday and he wants to take us out to dinner” I had missed my father in law since he went away on holiday. Richard and Robert looked exactly like him in every way but his sons were relaxed and friendly he was a kind of scary character but he was always so nurturing to me. He was great fun and he was also a really good dad to Richard, Robert and myself but he could be rather cold to everybody else. He had always treated me like a daughter and he insisted that I call him dad too. My friend Mandy said that she didn’t like him and that he was too harsh when he spoke to his wife but his wife was such a pain that I didn’t blame him. Mandy said that she had met men like him before and because he was rich and successful that he thought that he owned the world. I would always disagree with her because he was always so loving towards me and it felt lovely to be part of a real family especially since I had lost both of my parents when I was a teenager. “That’s great that dad is back on Friday, I can’t wait to see him” “I will let him know and I’ll see you tomorrow, love you Millie” “love you too, night night Robert” I hung up the phone and I felt immediately guilty that I was there with Mark and I knew I had to get home. I turned round to him and he was sitting up in bed with his back to the head board with just a sheet covering his huge manhood. “Everything ok?” He asked and I just nodded my head. “Yeah but I have to go” his face fell. “Oh alright” he said but I could tell he was disappointed. “I have surgery in the morning and I need to be well rested for it” he nodded his head “no I get it, you don’t need to explain how important it is” Now I felt guilty for hurting his feelings and because he was so understanding. I could tell he liked me and I knew I was starting to have feelings for him too. He got up and put on his tight white boxers and he came over to me and started to stroke my hair and kiss my cheek. “Can I still see you this week?” He asked and he looked kind of nervous and it tore at my heart “yeah of course, I have a family dinner on Friday but are we still on for Thursday?” He nodded his head with a huge smile. We stood there kissing for a while and then he waved me off at the door. When I got into the car I drove home in silence. Usually I would put on music to drown out my own thoughts but tonight the guilt I felt for leaving Mark in a gorgeous hotel suite on his own when he had been so loving and the disappointed look on his face made me want to run back to him but I had to go home. Then to hear that Richard and Roberts dad was coming home to see us made me realise that I didn’t want to lose my family. They were so important to me and I was scared if they found out about my meetings with Mark that they would never speak to me again. I pulled up at my house and when I looked at the lovely home I had built with my husband that I loved so much I felt my eyes fill with tears. I got out the car and went inside. I kicked off my shoes and hung up my coat and although I felt awful I knew I had to sound cheery “Hi Richard, I’m home” I shouted up stairs. The light switched off and I knew that he must be angry with me for coming home so late. As I climbed the stairs I shouted that I had to work late but he didn’t say anything back and I wondered if he knew what I was up to, because I didn’t have a clue what I was doing.

I woke up on the Thursday morning and I had already decided that I wasn’t going to see Mark again. The guilt was killing me and especially since I knew I was going to a family dinner on Friday and I was terrified that it would all get too much and I would blurt it out over our desserts. I imagined everyone’s mouths falling open as I announced “I’m sleeping with a hot guy I met on a hook up app and I’m starting to have feelings for him and I shagged my Therapist earlier this year” I couldn’t trust myself to see Mark again because he was everything that I hadn’t allowed myself to want. He had sent me at least 5 messages and I had ignored every one of them. I couldn’t even bring myself to read them because I knew that I might have a moment of weakness and cave in and I couldn’t let that happen again. So I decided to delete the app from my phone and try and forget all about this huge mess I had caused. Richard and his family would never be able to forgive me and I couldn’t have any of them finding out. I text Mandy and she seemed disappointed because I knew she was loving all the excitement but when I told her, she said that she understood. I went to work and I was totally miserable. When I got home that night I went straight to bed and I couldn’t help but cry in the darkness. My life was a mess and there was nothing I could do to make it better.