Ghosted

Chapter 9 POV Mark

POV Mark

I went home that day after seeing Amelia and I couldn’t get my head around the fact that I had seen her again. I couldn’t stop thinking about her all night and I had to hold myself back from going over to her house to see her. I was crazy about her but obviously she didn’t feel the same way about me. I was glad my girlfriend Cheryl was still out of town because I needed to be alone. I sat there lost in my own thoughts when there was a ping on my phone and it was the hook up app. The last thing I wanted was to see anybody after I had come face to face with Amelia. I had been using the women on there as a distraction and I had to admit to myself that I was miserable without her. I picked up my phone to silence the messages and that’s when I noticed that it was a message from her. I immediately sat up and turned off the TV as I stared at the little box that was flashing with her username. I was scared and excited to open it. After a second or two I managed to calm myself down and I took a deep breath and to my surprise it was a long message from her. Amelia had only ever sent me emoji’s before and I was desperate to see what she had to say.

‘Mark I’m so sorry for standing you up for our date a couple of months ago. I want you to know that I was really beginning to fall for you and I was scared of all those emotions and I felt guilty because of my husband. I know that it was unfair of me to do that to you and that you have probably never gave me a second thought, but I wanted to thank you for always being so lovely to me and for your discretion today in my house because my housekeeper is a nosy b***h. It was lovely to see your gorgeous smile today even if it was under such sad circumstances. You looked great and I hope you can forgive me for being so rude to you.

From Amelia xxx’

I read it at least 10 times and I still couldn’t make out if she wanted to hear back from me or not. Because it sounded like she just wanted to acknowledge our awkward encounter. But the more I read it the angrier I got. She said that I probably haven’t given her a second thought and I was livid and I wanted her to know it. So I decided to write back to her.

‘Amelia you weren’t just rude to me you hurt me. I told you that I had feelings for you and rather than be honest with me you ignored my messages and let me think that I had done something wrong or that I wasn’t good enough for you. I can’t begin to explain how much pain you have caused me.”

I knew I was coming on strong but this was the only opportunity I was going to have to be honest with her and I wanted her to know that you can’t treat people like that. I didn’t expect to hear back from her because she said that she would always run away and hide from her feelings but a few minutes later there was another message from her.

‘Mark I’m sorry. I’ve thought about you every single day, but being a widow is such a strange situation and I didn’t want to drag you into my f****d up life. You are such a nice guy and everything I have ever wanted in a man but I know a girl that slept with you when she met you on the app and she said that you were just looking for a good time and my heart has already been broken so badly that I couldn’t go on seeing you knowing that you were only with me for s*x when I had started to really like you. I hope you can understand.

Amelia xxx’

So it had turned out I slept with her friend too and I felt like an i***t. She only thought of me as a f**k boy and why wouldn’t she because that’s the way I had been acting for the past few years. But I had to explain that there was more to me than that.

‘Amelia I had no idea that I had hooked up with your friend, but as she’s probably told you I treated you differently to any other woman I met through the app. You mean so much to me and I miss you’

Mark xxxxxxxx

Within a second she wrote back

‘I miss you too’

My heart leap out of my chest because it felt like I had a chance with her again.

‘Amelia I understand that you have been through a lot but I would really like to see you again. I promise that I would never do anything to hurt you. Please say you will let me take you out for a proper date.

Mark xxx’

I waited for her response and it said

‘I can’t wait, I want to see you now’

I stood up and paced the floor as I sent her my address and invited her to come over. She sent back a message saying she would be there soon and I had honestly never been so happy before in my life and I couldn’t keep the smile off my face.