My Secret desire

6.

Serena

When I came to the campus this morning I immediately felt the change of the atmosphere there the tension was thick and loaded but I couldn´t quite put my finger on what was going on, so therefore I decided just to do as I used to do.

So when I got to school I just shrugged it off, but I can´t help to hear all the whispering around us

"have you seen the new ones"

"damn they are so hot you could get a burn by being too close to them"

"I know they are all hot as hell, even the girl, but the one who isn´t one of the twins damn he looks good enough to eat." The girls giggles at each other, and my interest is peaked, but I´m nothing like these sharks who obviously is out for blood, I´m just curious to see what or in this case who have turned campus into a buzzing beehive.

That´s when I´m suddenly is put to a immediate stop by the girls.

"yeah of course he is hot, but who are we kidding Alia has pretty much marked him as her own belonging." they sigh in agreement and look almost disappointed.

At the girls words, I can´t help but shiver if the new ones are gonna be the newest edition to the Alia toycollection they are not worth my thoughts, and I wont even consider trying to get to know them, and besides if they are so hot, they are probably not the smartest either, and I don´t want to waste time to be with someone who doesn´t challenge me intellectually but just is pretty to look at.

and for goodness sake of my own health I will stay away, I am in no mood to make my color known and directly go against Alia, since she seems to be the devil incarnate and I already has made a very unfortunate memory with her in the lead back in our highschool,  short time after Chris died, as she blamed me, and I do NOT want a rerun of that. 

"Yeah I really don´t see why everybody has to fall head over heels just because there is something new" I mumbled to myself just as I was finished Nate came up to me.

"what are you mumbling about? If you want somebody to love you could always just fell head over heels with me." He says in a light choice of words, and immediately I feel like I am being squashed.

AT the least Nate picks up on how I feel pretty quick and his facial expression changes to one of guilt. 

"I´m sorry Ren, I wasn´t thinking, I did not want to make you uncomfortable, I just saw you sulking and thought I would try to cheer you up, and turn that frown upside down, I´m not interested in making you mad again so soon after last time, but to be true you seems a bit tired today, did you had a bad dream?" I said looking worried.

"Thanks Nate I do appreciate your attempt to try drag me out of my foul mood, but to be true I doesn´t really know why I have it like this, I was just wondering how 2 people can have hat much influence on the campus, even though I haven´t met the one part yet." I was just rambling  like a loonatic.

"Wow you aren´t kidding with the confusion, but you can it is an unknown rule that pretty people like those are destined to be together, personally I think they are born with a magnet that pulls them towards each other, by the way who are we talking about.? By the way you reacted the other night and giving your shared past I guess one of them is Alia, and since no one attracted your attention last semester I would dare think it´s one of the three new guys who arrived this morning, and it is not the one who arrived with the girl."

I wince by the thought of how perceptive he is and I can´t help it.

"Listen Nate I don´t know why, because I haven´t even met them and I have no intentions to get to know them, least off all if they think being friends with Alia is the greatest idea. They might be transferred A-class students but if you consider her nice company to keep they really are not that bright and SO not worth my time."

" so why don´t we go to class together I have biology right now and we are studying the higher meaning of evolution, they also went as far as talking about shifters and why some genes evolved into those of shifters, and say I find it refreshing to look at shifters as a biological concept, and not all that bogus about magic." 

I shake my head, my mum has always tried to read fairytales for me, in the hope that I would be gaining interest in them, but I was never interested in them like most other little girls, my sister inclusive she was always another princess when she went of to daycare. The only two stories I thought was a little interesting was Hercules and The Little Mermaid - because both of them grew up with a feeling like they didn´t really belong where they were. 

My sister was a typical brat who was used to get her wills fulfilled, went to prom with the hottest guy lead cheerleader, head of the bookcommity and she was always in the center of attention, she also was one of Alia´s best friends which just made my life more miserable, since Alia wouldn´t just torment me at school but she would follow home with my sister Cam and make my life a living hell. 

And even though I know my mum loved me, she just kind of turned her head the other way, which is why I always loved visiting Nate and his parents they did for most part treat me as if was their own. My heart warmed by the thought of their kindness.

"but yes let´s go it´s in the other of campus" 

Nate walks by my side when Diana jumps on my back and surprises me she is almost shaking.

" Yo you two, I don´t care what your plans are but Friday night are partytime and of course you can come if you wishes to Nate but Serena you doesn´t get to choose since I know you would say no"

she chuckles as her comment is the most hilarious in the world. 

I can´t help but sigh she is so annoying sometimes but her enthusiasm is cute and I can´t help to laugh when she spins me around and look at me.

"Yeah your right if I got the chance I would simply walk to bed and sleep in, but who am I to question you. I need to work hard and try to change I want to be someone new this semester, my life is way to short, just to sleep in." I really wasn´t sure why I said it, but as I did the more determined I got, nothing was gonna stop me, I was done living in others shadows, and I wouldn´t be a doormat for someone to walk all over. As the thought manifested and grew in my mind, I felt my necklace heating up around my neck it wasn´t uncomfortable but almost like it tried to ensure me that I was on the right path.

Diana jumped up and down in pure excitement, not at all looking like she was on second year in college

"I´m so happy I should invite you out more often and not give you a choice, and how about you Nate if you come I promise to be good" she gave him a sultry look and I couldn´t help but giggle.

"I don´t know I think I will pass this time, since you two need a girlsnight out without interfering from us men" He grinned and hugged me " I´m so sorry Ren I just remembered I had to go see professor Williams before class" He turned around and walked towards the teachers private offices.

"so we are going out on Friday, but we HAVE to go shopping for Friday so on Thursday we are hitting the shops, don´t worry it´s all on me" she looked at me and winked, Diana´s father was a billionaire and she had enough money that she didn´t need to work a day in her life but she wasn´t arrogant or conceited she was very mellow and grounded. She didn´t bragged about her wealth but lived life as it came and I loved her that. but I couldn´t put the feeling of being pitied to ground. 

" I know you are good for paying Diana and would never think in a million years you would hurt me or my feelings, but I don´t like to feel like I owe you something." I couldn´t help it, I was very modest and simple. She just looked at me and shook her head.

"Serena (sigh) I know you don´t, and don´t worry I will make sure the money goes to good use, but believe me I would rather make them be at good use for my best friend than let them set and simmer, I got my brother to do that. I love you like a sister but I think you could use a couple of hours off and a new wardrobe, even though you have your own but most of it isn´t even yours just what your sister couldn´t fit anymore because it was the must convenient thing to do when you were younger, just let me spoil you this time, and DO not ask questions about money or think about it, this Thursday and Friday are on me."

Even though she shake my beliefs, and I have decided to be strong and independent, her words touches me deeply, I really don´t know what to say, she is a fantastic friend and I couldn´t live without her.

"okay, okay I give in I will be your humanized Barbie for the day, let you pick out what you want and let you pay without complain" I look at her with disdain.

And bend over and laugh her head off. 

"You are just wonderful Serena, lets get to class" 

we walk together to our respective classes, and just as I goes into the classroom I feel the hair on my arms to rise, and the feeling of being watched is creeping inside me, and I immediately think of the night down on beach with Nate I did feel like somebody was watching as well, even though it didn´t make my heart race and an uncomfortable shiver ran through me. 

What on earth is going on there are no one around so what is it there is creeping me out this way, I hope it will just go over soon.