I Loved You with Everything. Even without Myself

Before you, my life was quiet. Not necessarily lonely, just... silent. I had dreams, loud ones, but I kept them folded neatly inside journals no one would read. I had lovers, but none who dared to ask about the fire behind my eyes. I was soft, often mistaken for fragile, but my softness was survival. I didn't believe in soulmates, at least not the kind that wrecks your world and rearranges it with just a smile. I believed in timing, in lessons, in temporary people teaching permanent truths. So, when you came along... Wow. My world just crumbled. My heart pounded so hard, that I had to breathe deeply, steady myself, but it felt like my chest was about to explode. Hah! Who would've thought? You stopped me, asked my name, and just like that, you made me feel like time didn't exist. You thought you could trick me into believing you were from another world, but the truth was, I knew you spoke the same language as me. I became soft-vulnerable, maybe- but I wasn't searching for anything that night. I wasn't looking for anything permanent. I was just looking to feel alive, to have fun. To dance with whoever could keep up with my wild side. But, there you were. Laughing loudly, unapologetically, your smirk pulling at me like gravity. You didn't just want to know my name; you wanted me to be part of your world. And when you asked, "May I have this dance?"-I knew, instantly, you weren't going to just let me walk away. I laughed, not because it was funny, but because I couldn't believe this was happening. Your presence was magnetic-chaotic, confident, but so damn charming. I felt safe... You were everything I never thought I needed but suddenly craved desperately. And, somehow, I was drawn in. You pulled me in. They say that when you meet someone who matters, you just know. And as I stood there, locked in your gaze, I knew. But I didn't want to admit it- at least not yet. Not until we moved together. Not until our first dance, the moment that shattered every preconceived notion I had. The music started to play, and you grabbed me, pulling me close, too close. I could feel the heat of your body, I could feel you breathing in my neck. It was as though the world had slowed down, leaving only the rhythm of our hearts in perfect sync. Your hands moved over me with a confidence that sent shivers down my spine. I wasn't sure if we were dancing or if we were just... existing in that moment. When you grabbed me by the neck, softly, going up my chin... I thought you were going to kiss me. You were playing with me. You smiled at me. And I? I was mesmerized by your charm. We fit. We fit in a way that was almost reckless, the way our bodies moved together as if we had known each other for years, as if this moment was inevitable. Our laughter mingled with that music, but it was the way your touch lingered on my skin, the way your breath brushed against my neck, that sent a jolt of warmth straight through me. It was dizzying, intoxicating-no hesitations, just us. And when the song changed, we didn't stop. We couldn't. How can we do that to us? We didn't. We followed each other throughout the night, your friends laughing at us because we were being childish there. Playing as if no-one is watching. It was just us. Every time I tried to pull away, you pulled me right back, closer, tighter, until I forgot where the night ended and where we began. There was no need for words; every move, every glance, every brush of lips said it all. We were tangled in a dance of lust, yes, but also something more-a connection neither of us could explain. Something that felt like it had been written in the stars. By the time we left the club, it was still dark outside, but I wasn't ready to say goodbye. How could I? I was having the best night of my life! The night was too young, and you were too much of a temptation. So, I stayed. And stayed. For three days, we didn't leave each other's side. We tangled ourselves in each other, so much that I couldn't remember a time when I wasn't wrapped up in the feeling of you. Every touch, every kiss, every whisper felt like it was pushing us closer to something unspoken, yet understood. And just when I thought it couldn't get any more intense, you told me you could take me somewhere else. Not just anywhere, but somewhere that didn't follow the rules of time. Somewhere where love, lust, and the future all blended together. You, my time-travelling enigma, offered me an escape I never thought I needed. An adventure in the unknown. The idea of flying, of being swept away, was nothing like what I had imagined... but with you? It felt like everything. It felt like we had just begun, and yet, we were almost lost in each other's orbit. What I felt: the adrenaline, the laughs, the chasing-game... Everything in my body was blooming, a slow burn, like sunrise peeking over a lifetime of shadows. You were nothing like I ever expected. And everything I didn't know I craved badly. And maybe, just maybe, I was starting to believe in soulmates after all.