Why me

had him for a little bit.

  "What do you mean I'm staying at my grandmas?" I am highly shitty right now. How's he going to kick his daughter out. I was only supposed to be there till the end of fall break. now my trips going to be a stay.

"Roxi is going to watch you for now, on. I can't do it...Not anymore. Your deep blue Mustang; that your grandpa got you should be there too. And I'm having a bank card sent to your Grandmas house as well. Any questions?" He put his keys in his jean pockets. He is acting like everything's okay.

"yeah I have a ton of questions" I'm so irritated. Ever since my mom died he's being more distant. I mean it was two years ago he needs to be stronger and not send me off to my grandmas. I need my dad.

"Lex, I mean questions about the moving and money." Of course, don’t want get all emotional do you dad. He opened the door and suggested me to walk out.

"I'm not staying there, forever right? Will I be coming back home?" I asked trying to stop me from bursting into tears. He looked at me with guilt but anger as well like this should have never happened.

"when you fix your attitude. And do good in school. No going to juvie." He still had the door opened. But I didn’t want to walk through it. I don’t want it to be real. I didn't want my dad to give up on me. "we need to go I don’t want to be there when its dark. I want to be home before it gets to dark." I walked out the door without any more fight; which isn't me at all. We walked to his truck. Hoped in and next thing I now were on the road.

"so how long of a drive is it." I don’t remember my grandma or where she lived. I just now where I live and I live in Kentucky.

" About three hours." Watching the road so carefully as if we were driving in a middle of a storm.

"what's the real reason you want me gone" he's getting irritated and that makes me mad why is he getting irritated. he's not being forced to move out.

"can you just drop it Lex!"

"No because I am a good kid. I have good grades. never went to juvie; don’t know why u had a need to bring it up. Never backed talked in less I was standing up for something or someone. Something you taught me very well." A tear ran down my face. He was still focused on the road.

"well talk about this after you get settled in and used to your surrounding I don’t want you to be overwhelmed. "

"well it's still going to be overwhelming cause I'm going to be wandering and asking myself all these questions" I looked out the window we are now leaving the city of Louisville Kentucky. He didn’t reply and I gave up anyway. My dad is more stubborn than me. I usually never give up. But I always behave around him cause I'm afraid to disappoint him

Wonder what my grandmas like. Wonder what adventures lie ahead for me. Will I be happy? I will make sure I'm happy. Wonder if ill fit in. Who will I meet.

"so, this bank card … how much will I get on it?"  I don’t mean to bring up the money. But I want to see how much my limits going to be.

"you will have three thousand dollars transferred into your account every Friday. But there's already ten thousand on there."  I know where rich but they never let me have that much money before he must feel really bad about dropping me off at my grandmas. You already know I'll be home soon.

"dang, your giving me a lot" smiling at him and of course he shows no expression too focused on the damn road.

"well I'm hoping you will save your money and learn how to control your shopping ergs and save for college. But your growing up so u need to make your own choices and learn from your mistakes." He then turned his head to me giving me his worried looked. But then his expression went to blank and focused back on the road. At least I had him for a little bit.