Bad Reputation

Episode 16

Damon’s POV. 

What the f**k just happened I thought as I got to my room. I don’t understand I thought we were both enjoying it, I know I was. Her lips on mine felt amazing. And the small moans that fell from her lips, told me she was enjoying it too. So what happened to made her pull away? To yell at me and throw me out??? 

I got to just shake this, she’s just another girl, no biggie right?! Then why can’t I get it out of my head. 

I need to get out of my own head. 

“Damon, are you home?” I heard my mom yell. “Yeah mom, I’m here.” I opened my door and answered. “Will you please come down here.” She yelled, I rolled my eyes. “Coming!” 

I got the living room. “Honey, I got a chance to go see Ryan. So will you please look after your sister tonight and bring her to the daycare in the morning. Ryan is sending a car for me, so I’ll leave you the car.” My mom said looking at me with a pleading look. Even though I don’t always see eye to eye with Ryan, I like that he makes my mom happy, she really deserves that! “Sure mom. I’ll look after her.” I said. I guess looking After Rose gives me a chance to think about something else than Malia. 

“Thank you honey!” My mom said kissing my cheek “I’ve really missed him, you know.” She added.

“I know mom, so when are you leaving?” 

“In a hour.” She answered. “Ok, I’ll take rose up to her room, so you can finish getting ready.” I said. “Come on Rose, wanna have a tea party with me in your room?” I asked reaching my hand out to Rose. “Yes yes I want tea party.” Rose answered with a big smile on her face and got to her feet quickly. I returned her smile. 

“Have fun you two.. love you both.” Mom said as we walked upstairs. 

**** 

Rose finally fell asleep. It’s been a good day with Rose. She always put me in a good mood. My mom texted earlier to let us know that she got in to town safely. 

My phone vibrated telling me I had received a text. 

Malia: I’m so sorry! I owe you an explanation. Are you home, can I come over?

Maybe I should just leave well enough alone, but I am kinda curious to hear her explanation. I just don’t want her to wake up Rose. 

Damon: Yeah I’m home, i’ll leave the door unlocked, don’t ring the doorbell.. 

Malia: OK, I’m gonna be over in 10 minutes.

“Hello?” I heard in a loud whisper. 

“In here.” I answered back. I turned in the couch to see Malia standing in the doorway fiddling with her fingers. 

“Uhm ca..can I come in?” She asked. I nodded in response and Malia came over to sit in the couch leaving a large space between us. 

“How come you didn’t want me to ring the doorbell?” Malia asked still looking super nervous. 

“My baby sister is upstairs sleeping, I didn’t want you to wake her up.” I answered coolly. I’m a little bit more annoyed at her than I originally thought.

“Oh, I can go if you want me to.” She said starting to get up. 

“Don’t..” I said “I think you wanted to give me an explanation.” I added starting to loose my patience. 

“Right .... OK. But before I start, you have to promise me that you will hear me out, and just so you know, I haven’t told anyone about this... Ok??” She said her voice breaking a little as she said it. 

“I promise.” I said trying to look at her kindly. I could almost feel how hard this is for her.. 

“OK.” She stated, she close her eyes for a second taking a deep breath. And she continued. 

“The Malia that you’ve come to know a little, is not the Malia I used to be.” I didn’t say anything I just looked at her kind of confused. “I was a happy girl, shy but amazing enough I was very sociable.. that all changed last year. I went to a party at someone from school’s house ....” 

****

“... that night changed me! And ever since I...I’ve been keeping to myself, trying to be invisible..” Malia was sobbing by now. And me? Yeah I was pissed to say the least! I wanted to break every bone in that assholes body! Suddenly I found myself wanting to protect her and just hold her. 

I moved closer to her on the couch. I hesitated touching her, maybe that is the last thing she wants. 

“Malia??” I said carefully, she slowly looked up at me the tears clear in her eyes. She didn’t say any names of who it was.

“Who did that to you?” I tried to keep the anger out of my voice. 

“Please don’t make me say it.” She looked at me with begging eyes, still tears in them. 

Even though I was dying to know who the hell it was that would do that to her, for now the only thing I could think of to do was hold her tight, so that’s what I did. 

I wrapped my arms around her, half expecting her to pull away, but she didn’t, she turned a little and sobbed into my chest. I grabbed her waist, lifting her and sat her down on my lap. Not a word was said between us. 

****

We have been sitting like this for over an hour. Still no words bring said. Malia stopped crying about half a hour ago, but she kept snuggled into my chest. And honestly I have no idea what to say to her. 

Malia finally lifted her head, her eyes meeting mine for a moment before falling on my chest where her head was a moment ago. 

“s**t! I’m sorry, I totally messed up your shirt.” She said the sadness still leaving a trace on her voice. I looked down my own shirt seeing what she was referring to.

“Don’t worry about it!” I chuckled using my finger to lift her chin. Wanting her to look at me. 

“Thanks for telling me about what happened.. your reaction earlier make a lot more sense now!” I said. 

“But you have to know, that I will never and I mean Never! Force you to do anything you don’t want to.” I added searching her eyes for confirmation that she believes me. 

“I really want to believe that, I really do Damon. But you have to understand that I also never thought that he would do that to me... and let’s be honest, we don’t really know each other that well, do we?” She said.

“I get it, but you can’t let what one asshole did to you, stop you from living your life..” I could fell myself getting angry again just thinking about what that sorry excuse of a human being did to her! I could feel my jaw clenching and my hands were turning in to fists. I need to calm myself down so I don’t scare Malia! 

Like if she could sense my anger, Malia placed her hands over my fists. 

“Damon look at me.” She said in a whisper. Not even realizing I was no longer looking at her I snapped out of it and looked at her. Now her eyes were the ones searching in mine. 

“Where did you go?” She asked quietly.

“Sorry Sugar! I just get so angry, I don’t understand that anyone can do that to another person. Trust me when someone forces them selfs on someone it’s not because they have to, it’s because they want to.” I said clenching my fists once more. 

“Sounds like you know more about it.” Malia said and I could feel her wondered whether or not she was safe again. 

“Don’t worry, i’m not talking about myself. The man that i was supposed to call father, he used to hit me and force himself on my mom when he had been drinking. He is nothing but a worthless piece of shit.” I said clenching my teeth. I need to calm my self down before I scare her! “I’m sorry Malia I don’t mean to scare you, I just get so damn angry!” I added. Malia relaxed still in my lap. Her hands moving up to cup my face. 

“It’s ok, you don’t have to apologize. I can relate to the anger.. if you don’t mind me asking... where is he now?” She asked.

“Hopefully he’s rotting somewhere far away, but I honestly don’t know. As long as he stays away from my mom and I don’t ever have to see him again.” I shrugged feeling more calm now. 

“That sure is a lot of sharing for one night.” I chuckle trying to lighten the mood a little. 

“Yeah it is.” Malia giggled. 

“It’s getting late, I should really get home before my dad starts wondering where I am.” Malia added starting to stand up. I pulled her back down hugging her! 

“Now you can go.” I said letting her go while laughing, she joined my laughter.

I walked her out to the door, before she left she turned around looking at me. 

“Are we gonna continue our assignment tomorrow?” She asked.

“Sure, see you in the morning.” I answered smiling at her.. 

I was beat! Heading straight for bed. It has been a long day! I went and brushed my teeth before stripping to my boxers and getting in bed. My phone beeped telling me I had a text. 

Malia: Thanks for listening to me. I was wondering if maybe you want to help me get over a part of what have happen to me last year? Think about it, see you tomorrow. Xx

Damon: If I can help I will. See you tomorrow Sugar. Xx

I felt myself drifting of to sleep after turning off the lights.