BUTTERFLY

POLLEN AND FACTS

A drop from the endless ocean...

Wishes reaching to the heavens are in God's ear. And what exactly is fate?

Although I normally like the snow glistening in the morning sun, after this day I absolutely did not like it. I was exhausted until I had to get the snow out of my boots.

I didn't know how many hours had passed, but the sun was nearing its zenith. Kize kept me running and lifting weights. After a one hour lunch break, we resumed training. As the sun approached the west, I could feel that my body couldn't take it anymore. There was a buzzing in my ears. I could even hear my bones creaking.

I could no longer hear Kize's voice counting my squats. As my own breathing echoed in my ears, colorful flowers began to bloom in front of my eyes. Kize said 'one!' out loud. As the pains in my body gradually disappeared, I was unaware that Kize had picked me up and carried me home. My own breathing sounds, Kize's voice counting nonstop, and the whisper I heard in the forest; all together revolved around my head.

Mistress Seli brought the new dress she had bought for me and put it on the bed. I looked at the midnight blue dress without enthusiasm. I never liked the color blue and they knew that, so they bought me blue clothes. "This is what you will wear to the Board's ball tonight, princess." she said and looked at me over her glasses. "Do you know what will happen if you forget all this?"

I opened my eyes when I heard Kize's voice saying, "Wake up." Although it was dark at first, gradually I began to see my surroundings. The voices and the Mistress Seli disappeared from my eyes, revealing Kize's smiling face. "That's all for today." He said and touched my forehead with his fingertip. It took me a while to understand what he was saying, but when I did, I let out a deep sigh of relief.

When I tried to get up, he stopped me. "Don't get up just yet." He said and stroked my forehead with his fingers. As his fingers moved, the pains all over my body slowly disappeared. "Have I fainted?" I said and with Kize's support I moved to a sitting position. He nodded. "It's normal to faint, it's your first day." When he said that, I hit his shoulder with the back of my hand and frowned.

"Are you crazy, I thought I died the first day." I said and let myself fall on the couch. "If you want to be strong, you have to push the limits of your body." I rolled my eyes, he was right, of course, but I didn't care if he was right. I was looking for something new to be angry with him when I remembered the whisper.

"And why did you keep whispering in the forest, I would have had a heart attack if I didn't realize it was you." When I said that, he narrowed his eyes and the smile on his face slowly faded. "What whispering?" he said, tilting his head to the side. His reaction seemed to fool me for a very short time. "You can't fool me Kize, you did the same thing that day in the forest and you asked me why I was scared. I'm not fooling you now." I said and sat up and looked into his eyes, my back still aching. "I know it was you who followed me, don't do that again, it's not nice," I said, wagging my finger. He frowned and looked at me silently for a short while.

"It wasn't me." I was surprised when he said it, like he wasn't joking. "There was no one else in the woods but you." When he continued, goosebumps ran down my spine. Was he tricking me?

"No, someone was coming behind me. I heard his footsteps and he kept whispering." When I said that, he frowned. His eyes narrowed for a short while. I quickly reached out and grabbed his arm. "It was you, wasn't it Kize, please be you. And I asked you when I was running, I asked if that was you behind me, weren't you listening to me?" he shook his head from side to side. "I thought you were trying to get my attention so I would answer you," he said with a smile. My mouth hung open. "I can't believe you, what am I, three years old?" I said frowning, but since Kize was smiling, I couldn't help but smile back.

"I'll check the forest, don't worry." He said and stroked my hair. Then he leaned down and sniffed my neck and I pulled back. "I'm sweaty, I smell bad Kize." I said gruffly. He shook his head from side to side. "You don't smell bad Een, it's strange but you're scared like a wilted flower." I got up from the couch in embarrassment. Sweat wouldn't smell good, of course, I think he was just saying that to make me feel better. That aside, why was I getting excited when he said my name?

"Can I take a shower." I said, shaking my head from side to side. Kize smiled and stood up and took off his t-shirt. "Sure, let's take a shower." I looked at his face in shock when he said. "Okay, you first and then me then." I said and sat back on the couch. Kize smiled and leaned over me. I looked at his swollen biceps when he leaned his hand on the seat. "Let's take a shower together, the bathroom is very suitable for s*x education." I felt my whole body warm up when he said.

I shouldn't have said yes, of course, but my heart was racing so fast that it had already given him the answer with its rhythm.

Kize threw his shirt on the couch and placed one hand on my waist. Just doing that was enough to make me gasp and panic. I didn't know where to put my hand because he was naked and I was afraid to touch his skin. I felt as if my hands would burn if I touched his naked skin.

He wrapped his arm around my waist and lifted me off the couch, his body completely pressed against mine. "What do you think?" I hiccupped and put my hand on his chest and tried to push him away. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't. "No." I said out loud. Since pushing didn't work, I got out of his arms and jumped on the couch. Now we were equal in height, so I looked straight into his eyes.

"We just met Kize, are you crazy or what?" I said, frowning. In fact, a very strong feeling inside me wanted to accept it, but of course I couldn't listen to it. I couldn't take off my clothes, but of course I couldn't explain to Kize why I was distancing myself from him. That's why I brought up the new acquaintance.

"Een, if I had pushed you a little in the car you would have accepted everything. Now you're thinking about new acquaintances?" he asked, half laughing. I shook my head from side to side, what he said was true but I didn't care. "I'm so tired Kize," I said using my last trump card. I had to convince him. "A hot shower will take the tiredness away." he said as he grabbed me by the waist and threw me over his shoulder. With the world now upside down for me, I realized I had to come up with a better excuse. I bit my lower lip and thought about what to say. Would it be okay if I said I didn't want to? But would he know I was lying? But in the end, would it be enough to say I didn't want to? "Kize!" I said, looking at his bare back. He laughed and headed for the bathroom.

"I'm in pain everywhere, let go of me," I said, trying to sound angry. But he was definitely not listening to me. I had to tell him that I definitely didn't want to, but would that hurt him? After all, I would definitely be very upset if he said he didn't want me. But it seemed like I had no choice. What if I told him I didn't want him and he realized I was lying and asked me why?

When we entered the bathroom, he put me down and leaned my back against the closed door. I tried to push him away when he put his arm around my waist and leaned in to face me. "I don't want to, Kize," I said in a shaky, thin voice. The smile was gone from his face. He narrowed his eyes and tilted his head to the side. "We're just going to take a shower, nothing else. You don't have to worry." He grabbed my chin and looked into my eyes. When I involuntarily averted my eyes, he looked at my sweat soaked neck.

Yes, it was obvious that nothing else was going to happen! And my God, it's not a question of anything happening!

I quickly grabbed his wrist as he was about to lift it from the corner of my blouse. He frowned and looked at my face. "No." I said, swallowing. He frowned slightly and looked at my hand holding his wrist. Did he suspect me? God, what was I going to do!

"I can see your feelings Een, I would understand if you didn't really want this, I know you do, and..." he said and leaned towards my face. A threatening, dangerous energy radiated from him. "...don't ever stop me with your hand again." When he said that, I realized that my grip on his wrist was making him uncomfortable, so I pulled my hand away and looked down at the floor, shaking. "But I said I didn't want to," I said, my voice sounding weak. Kize certainly knew how to scare me.

"I know you want to, Een, why are you limiting yourself? Is there something you're hiding?" he asked and I wanted to bang my head against the door. "No, it's not that." I said, unable to keep my voice loud. Kize grabbed my chin and lifted my head to look into my eyes, his eyebrows raised. Stop lying, Een! This man understands. Suddenly he took his hand away from my blouse, grabbed me around the waist and pulled me into his lap. Then he sat on the edge of the bathtub and put me on his knees. I took a deep breath and tried to calm down.

"You don't have to be afraid of me, even if I get angry. Unless you need to be scared in training." he said with a smile. I put my hands on his shoulders and nodded, his warm skin under my cold fingers felt good. But what would I answer if he asked me what I was hiding? What could I hide!

"What you're hiding..." I held my breath when he said that. "...is it that colorful glitter?" He continued, each word coming out slowly. A few seconds ago, the touch of his skin and his words had relaxed me. But with his question all my bones tensed, my legs started to tremble and I couldn't stop it. I swallowed, he was waiting for an answer but I had nothing to say. Had he seen me in the bathroom?

I ran out of words. In fact, since I came into this world, I've been wordless a lot, and I always thought I was good at talking. "What glitter?" was all I could say, and it took me a few minutes to form the sentence. My voice sounded so weak that I wasn't sure Kize heard it.

He gave a short laugh at my question and put his hand on my trembling leg and stroked me as if to calm me down. I felt like crying, I could have sobbed if I remembered how to cry. "It's everywhere you walk, you can't miss it." He said as he put his hand on my cheek. "I noticed it before we met, even on the snow in the forest. If you hadn't come, I would have followed the tracks and found you anyway." he said in a soft voice. I swallowed, my breath getting shorter as he spoke. I tried to take a few deep breaths.

"I recognized it when I saw it on the sweater you wore that day, you have that glitter on your stomach, right?" He said and pointed with his finger, right where my race mark was. I was silent. Of course he understood, of course he understood that I wasn't of this world. I was a fool to think he didn't. Almost every word I said about myself was a lie and of course he knew it. I felt ashamed of myself, ashamed that I had lied so much, and to look him in the eye.

I looked at him in silence for a while, my whole body was shaking now. I was already exhausted and the fact that he was saying these things on top of that was causing my body to strain even more. Mental difficulties were more damaging than physical ones. Both to the soul and the body.

"Don't be so scared Een, I'm not going to hurt you, of course, you must have realized that all this time." He said smiling. I felt my scalp open as he took the hairpin out of my hair, and he smiled and looked at my face. Unlike me, he was quite relaxed, acting as if he was talking about an everyday topic. He could have been doing it to make me relax.

"When..." I said and then I fell silent. Maybe he was just suspicious of me and was trying to get something out of me. He shouldn't have heard it from me. I shouldn't talk about it until I heard a clear sentence from him. He narrowed his eyes and pretended to think. "When did I know you came from another world? The first time I saw you." He whispered and sniffed my neck. "You can't find a smell like that in this world." I was in shock when he continued. So he knew from the beginning.

I shook my head from side to side, my eyes filled with tears. "Why didn't you tell me you knew then?" I said, trying to calm down. If he knew from the beginning, he had no intention of hurting me. Besides, he wanted me to get stronger, is that it? Did he want me to be strong so that I wouldn't be harmed if it became clear to others that I wasn't of this world? It could have been. And I hoped it was.

"I didn't want you to be afraid, you were trying so hard to hide it. But as long as women don't find out, you'll be fine." He said, stroking my hair. Even though I was a little relieved, I still couldn't stop shaking. "But you found out, won't others find out?" I said, my voice still sounding weak. As if someone would come and kill me if I spoke out loud.

"They have to touch you to understand. There are two other people, besides me, who can figure out who you are without touching you, but you don't have to worry about them." he said, a small smile on his face. His soft voice was slowly calming me down. Actually, on the one hand it was good that Kize knew the truth. I didn't have to lie anymore and I could be more comfortable around him. I mean, in every way, I could be comfortable. But could I trust him? Even though my heart said yes, my mind told me to be careful. No matter how much I disagreed with him, my instincts still told me to stay away from Kize.

"Show me your tattoo." Kize said and put his hand on my blouse. I grabbed his wrist and was about to stop him when I remembered what he said and stopped. He looked into my eyes before lifting my blouse and taking it off my head. As I dropped the blouse on the bathroom floor, he looked directly at my race mark. His eyebrows were raised. I felt embarrassed that he was staring at me so intently, but I didn't try to hide myself. I was already so nervous that I didn't think I could move even if I wanted to.

"What exactly is this?" he said and ran his fingertips over my race mark. I was startled. I put my hands on his shoulders and took a deep breath. "It's a sign of what our ability is." I said, so nervous that my voice cracked. He nodded and looked at the glitter smeared on his finger. "It's soft." He said, rubbing his fingers together. Then my eyes widened when he put the finger with the glitter on it in his mouth.

"Kize, what are you doing?" I said in shock. I was so shocked by his gesture that almost all my nervousness was gone. He smiled and took his finger out of his mouth and looked into my eyes. "It tastes like pollen." He said with a shrug. I tapped him on the shoulder.

"It's inedible, don't be ridiculous." I tried to get angry, but I couldn't help laughing at his curiosity. He frowned and tilted his head to take a closer look at my race pattern. His deep breath through his nose caressed my belly as he murmured thoughtfully. "There are flowers and trees, you smell like flowers. Then your talent is with plants?" I nodded when he said that, I thought of my flowers in the palace. Certainly the ones that missed me the most were fixed. And it was my flowers that I missed the most.

"I'm a butterfly." I said with a shrug. His eyebrow rose and his eyes slid to my back. Oh, how I wished I had colorful wings to show him.

"I don't have wings." I said with a smile and touched the black butterfly tattoo on his chest with my index finger. "So I only had one, that's why they sent me here," I mumbled. What happened there was still breaking my heart. "But somehow, before I got here, my other wing was gone." I continued with a shrug.

"So you have wings?" he said, a wry smile on his face. I crossed my arms over my chest and frowned, he was staring at my breasts. His smile widened and he licked his lower lip, looking at my breasts, I took a deep breath and tried to ignore his gaze. My heart was already racing. "There are no animals or insects where I come from, Kize. I think our genetics are mixed together as a result of evolution. That's why I'm shocked that you eat animals. In my world, if we ate animals, we would eat each other." I said, and I hit him on the shoulder again.

"No shit." He said, frowning. "I wanted to go to your world, but not if there's no meat. Am I going to eat butterflies?" he said, shaking his head from side to side. My chest heaved with excitement, I put my hands on his chest. "Can we go to my world?" I said, looking into his eyes. For a moment I thought my excitement and joy would spill out of my eyes.

"Yes, Een, with God's permission we can go." When he said that, I raised my fists in the air in joy, and he smiled as if he shared my joy. "Then let's go talk to him and get permission." When I tried to stand up, he prevented me by holding my waist. But he shook his head from side to side and gave a short laugh.

"Wait, calm down, if we leave now all the women will attack you. I can protect you against them, of course, but I will have to kill some of them." As he spoke, the smile slowly faded from my face. As much as women were my enemies, I certainly didn't want any of them to be harmed.

"That's why you need to get stronger first. That way, I don't have to protect you, but only make way for you." He continued and stroked my hair.

This man knew how to move me from emotion to emotion. "Then we will go after I am strong." I murmured and touched the black butterfly tattoo on his chest with my fingertips. As much as I wanted to go to God right away, of course I had to take my time. I didn't want anyone to die or kill anyone because of me, no matter who it was.

Kize nodded and placed a brief kiss on my shoulder. "Actually, it was nice to watch you get stupid trying to lie when I pretended not to know." He said and pushed me off his knee and stood up. My eyebrows furrowed as he reached for his belt. Even though I was about to react to what he said, I paused when I saw what he was doing. As he unbuckled his belt and dropped it on the bathroom floor, I clasped my hands behind my back and watched him take off his pants. I could tell how red my face was by the way my neck was burning.

After taking off his pants, he grabbed me around the waist and got down on his knees. I took a deep breath as he kissed my belly and after kissing it a few times, he grabbed the collar of my tights. My knees were shaking when he lifted his head and looked into my eyes.

He looked briefly at my trembling knees and smiled when he looked back into my eyes. I was embarrassed that I was shaking. "Okay, keep your panties on." He said, licking his lower lip. I frowned to hide my embarrassment and slapped him on the shoulder. "Kize!" I said, trying to act angry. He let out a short laugh as he took off my tights.

I was gasping for breath as his warm hand grabbed my bare calf as I held onto his shoulders and helped him pull the tights off my feet. He stopped and looked briefly at my legs, it felt strange to be naked in front of him. I was so excited and embarrassed at the same time. He stood up and looked into my eyes as he put his fingers on my ankle and slid them up my leg. I looked away as his fingers slid up my thigh, the ache between my legs making me want to press my legs together.

Kize took me by the chin and made me look into his eyes. "Look into my eyes Een, you have nothing to be ashamed of. I like that you are excited for me." He said with a faint smile. His eye color seemed to darken a little. I swallowed and nodded my head, and then in a rush,"Yes, sir." I said, and he gave a short laugh. I grimaced and tapped him on the shoulder with a sigh.

"Look, you ruined my psychology in one day, Kize, I was dying." I said grumpily. Laughing, he grabbed my waist and took a deep breath and put his hand on my head. "I like to be dominant, saying yes sir and doing everything I say is not only valid in training. You'll make me happy if you do that during s*x too." He said, leaning in to me as the smile slowly faded from his face. "Of course your wishes are important Een, if there is anything you don't want, just say so." I just nodded my head when he said that. I didn't want to speak because I was embarrassed.

When he smiled again, I let out a little scream as he suddenly pulled me into his arms, sitting in the hot water as he got into the tub and took me between his legs. I sat on my knees and looked into his eyes, I couldn't stop shaking slightly.

"What did you work before you came here?" He asked and closed his eyes and threw his head back. His chest rose with the deep breath he took. "I wasn't doing anything." I said, looking at his neck. I wanted to touch his smooth dark skin, I briefly looked at his shaped abs. When I looked at his face again, I realized that he was watching me with his eyes slightly open. When I met his bright yellow eyes, I was startled that I had been caught watching him.

"What do you do for a living?" he said, not reacting to my watching him. I guess I was free to look at him. "I mean, I'm a princess, I didn't have to do anything in general." When I said that, he opened his eyes wide and lifted his head to look into my eyes. He looked at my face for a short while and then let out a small laugh. "Princess?" He said, surprised. I shrugged, what was there to be surprised about?

He had a sly smile on his face as he reached out and grabbed my naked waist. "People won't turn on me for making love to their princesses, will they?" He said as he pulled my body against his. He moved slowly, but the water rippled and spilled a little from the tub. I put my hand on his shoulder and looked into his eyes that were watching my body. I could hear my heart beating fast with excitement.

When he bent down and kissed my neck, he lifted my body and sat me on his legs. He ran his hand over my bare skin as his tongue ran along my neck. The ache between my legs left me breathless. I closed my eyes involuntarily.

It was absolutely unfair that they had deprived me of this all my life. Not telling me anything about sex... Wasn't it my right to discover the color of s****l desire because I was going to die?

It felt good to have Kize touch me and I was happy to come here and experience these feelings before I died.

"White is my favorite color." He said as he ran his fingers through my hair. Without letting me answer, he grabbed the back of my neck and sucked both my lips into his mouth. It wasn't like the kiss in the car. It was more... It was a dirty kiss.

He took my bare buttocks in his palm and squeezed. The pain between my legs was getting worse and worse. When our bodies were fully joined, I felt the hardness pressing between my legs again. When Kize deliberately pressed his hardness against me, I couldn't help the moan that escaped my mouth with the increasing pain. The pain reached my knees, causing my whole body to tremble.

He bit my bottom lip before parting our lips and pulling back. We both gasped and looked into each other's eyes. I unknowingly dug my fingernails into his shoulder as he rubbed his hardness against my thigh again. He had a serious expression on his face and seemed to be scrutinizing my every reaction.

"Good." He said as he did it again. I was embarrassed to look into his eyes, but I managed not to look away. When he pressed his hardness against me again, I bit my lower lip and moaned involuntarily. He gritted his teeth and put his hand on my back and ran his fingers along it. When his fingers stopped at my bra, he looked into my eyes as if asking. I swallowed and nodded my head in the affirmative. As soon as I nodded, he undid the clasp of my bra.

When my upper body was completely naked, I was tempted to hide my body, but Kize kissed my neck and took away everything I could think of. I ran my fingers through his soft hair as his lips trailed down my neck. When he sank his teeth into my skin, he pressed against my thigh, pressing his hardness between my legs.

I moaned again as his lips reached my breast and sucked. He sucked my one breast with his mouth and squeezed the other with his hand. I was shaking, but this time it wasn't from fear or nervousness. It was excitement.

He looked at my face again and smiled. I couldn't help but smile back. "We have a lot to talk about, but all I want to do right now is have sex." I swallowed when he said that. I squinted when he squeezed my buttocks. Kize squinted too and looked at my body from head to toe, this time for a long time. And as he continued to look at me I could feel his muscles tense, like he was making an effort to stop himself.

I certainly didn't want him to stop.