BLACK TIGER | YOONMIN

Afraid

"It's not the future you are afraid of. It's the fear of the past repeating itself that haunts you." T.W.W.

Yoongi's POV:

I hate this.

Hearing him say that he's going on a mission alone has caused me a damn headache. I don't know why he's eager to fight and take all the responsibilities by himself.

And the boss? I don't get what the hell is he doing, giving him the permission to do this bullshit.

I couldn't sleep. I usually take a nap after lunch, but I couldn't. The idea of him leaving the company alone during night, heading to god knows where in a world full of assholes is piercing my brain. I opened my eyes and let out a loud sigh before getting up and leaving my beloved bed. I put on my hoodie and headed outside. As usual, I would hear whispers every time I walked passed some agents. I got used to them thinking that I'm some kind of evil monster who kills everyone that crosses its path. I can't blame them though, because it's partly true. I took the elevator and went to the reception hall where I found Namjoon and the mission planner talking while drinking their coffee in a small table. I didn't like spying on people outside the missions, but I sensed they were talking about Jimin and I couldn't let it slide.

I approached them slowly and hid behind the wall. I lied my back against it and leaned closer to be able to hear their voices. "He didn't seem nervous." I heard Taehyung say. "I explained the mission to him and he looked so ready to start at any moment." Namjoon chuckled. "He's a brave guy."

A brave guy who can f**k it up, yeah.

But I can't help being worried about him." the boss added, catching my attention. "Geumsik's reputation is not so good." he sighed. "Seducing him won't be difficult when he's drunk, but we never know what he can do to him."

Geumsik? I raised an eyebrow. I was sure I heard this name before, so I took my phone out of my pocket and tapped his name on Google. "Shit." I mumbled when I realized he was Jang Geumsik, a famous influencer who worked at Himchan Corporation. His reputation preceded him indeed and the number of scandals is incredible. How the hell did they let him meet that asshole?

"I'm sure he's going to be alright." I heard Taehyung say. "He just needs to get him drunk and take the file. "Easily said than done. "I told him to call if something ever happens." the boss said. "I'll send an agent to him."

I scoffed and rolled my eyes. These dudes don't know that in some situations you can't even f*****g reach your phone to call for help. How is he even our CEO?

"Where did you say he's meeting him?"

"The Red Hat."

Nice.

I smirked and headed back to my room. I changed into something more comfortable. I grabbed my phone and keys, without forgetting to hide my gun inside my leather jacket and left.When I opened the elevator's door, the boss smiled to me and I mentally slapped him for being an i***t.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

"Out." I mumbled coldly.

"No s**t Sherlock." he chuckled.I rolled my eyes, "Just gonna have a ride."

"I see." he nodded. "Just let your phone on, I might need you."

No need.

"Yeah, I gotta go." I left the small moving cabin and headed outside.I put on my helmet and started the engine.

~~

I knew where that bar was, so it was easier for me to find it.

When I entered, I frowned because of the amount of men inside. A horrible smell of alcohol and sweat ruined the place's charm. I chose a small table in a hidden corner and looked for Jimin.

"This boy..." I scoffed when I found him sitting in the bar counter, whispering some bullshit to his target while touching his thighs. "I can't believe it."

Geumsik seemed to enjoy his company and I just hated him more for looking at him with such disgusting lust in his eyes. The little black-haired asshole seemed to be doing well at his job. I didn't know he was an ace when it comes to seduction. The Jimin I know is a nice guy whose smile shines brighter than the sun and whose mind is as pure as a kid.Little did I know.

I watched the man pay the bill before leaving with him. "Sir, what would you like to drink?" the waiter covered my view. I looked at him with an annoyed face and pushed him slightly to walk outside. I can't believe I just left a bar completely sober.

The things that bastard makes me do...

I saw them get in a black BMW and I hurried to start my motorcycle to follow them. A few moments later, I stopped in front of a big house and watched Jimin help him walk inside. I parked the vehicle a little far and made sure no one was around before I approached the window and looked through it discreetly.

If I was in a mission, it would be completely normal, but at that moment I just felt like a stupid stalker. I saw him sitting on the sofa while Geumsik poured some wine in their glasses. He seemed to be doing quite well because the man wasn't suspicious at all. I chuckled because I pitied him for thinking that Jimin had any kind of interest in him.

Later, I watched him standing up and climbing the stairs alone. Geumsik looked drunk enough, so it was the perfect moment to take advantage and steal the file.I sighed and rested my back against the wall because I was tired from standing up too much.When I looked through the window again, my heart skipped a beat when I realized Geumsik disappeared from the living room.

"No..." I panicked.

I ran around the house, hoping I would find any window or a way to know what is happening upstairs.

"s**t!" I just hoped he didn't catch him stealing. My legs were shaking from fear and anxiety. I was eager to know what was happening. I could break a window and infiltrate inside, but I was afraid I would ruin his mission if nothing was actually wrong.I waited impatiently until I heard a loud bang.

Jimin ran downstairs and looked for somewhere to escape from. I tried opening the door but the asshole locked it before. He also made sure to activate the security program, so everything was locked automatically.

"Damn it." Geumsik caught him and took the red file away from him. He pushed him and he fell on the ground. I tried opening the windows with my strength but it was impossible.

"s**t STOP!" I heard him scream. My heart was totally breaking while I looked for any way to enter inside.

"Wait for me." I mumbled with a breathless voice.The asshole was going to rape him and there is no way I would let him do this s**t. Just the fact that his nasty hands are touching his skin was enough to kill me inside. I stopped in front of the door and closed my eyes to take a deep breath to calm myself. I was so angry that I couldn't breath properly nor stop shaking my arms and legs.I couldn't see what was happening, but Jimin's voice proved enough his suffering.I took my gun out of my jacket pocket and mumbled, "I'm gonna f*****g kill you." before I kicked the wooden door with my leg too strong that it opened immediately. My chest tightened when I realized Jimin was naked, the old pervert topping him and ready to take away the most precious he had.I didn't wait a single moment to shoot his damn head.

In a matter of seconds, I was kneeling before him and my heart shattered in a million pieces for seeing him crying and gasping for air. I helped him put his clothes on and put my jacket around his naked back.At that moment, I didn't care about causing troubles or the risk of being arrested. The world stopped around us and I only desired to hold him tight and make him feel protected.

~~

Back at the company, it was too late and I knew Jimin wasn't in the mood of sleeping in the same place as a dozen other agents let alone that pervert named Wonsik who's ready to jump on him anything.

I couldn't believe I asked him to sleep in my room when I never liked sharing my properties with anyone. This guy sure makes me do some crazy s**t.

I made sure he lied in bed and didn't need anything before I left to take care of the incident I caused.

On my way to the reception hall, I cursed when I spotted the boss walking toward me. "You're still awake." he raised an eyebrow.

I rubbed the back of my neck, "Yeah, I need to take care of some stuff."

I was ready to walk away when he grabbed my shoulder and turned me around to face him. "What's going on?" he asked.I mentally slapped him again for having the ability to read my mind. I sighed and pressed my lips. "Tell me." he repeated.

"It's Jimin." I said.

He furrowed, "What's with him? Did something happen? He didn't call me."

"Well that's why!" I frowned. "You sent him on that f*****g mission without knowing that he still doesn't have the ability to defend himself!"

He froze. "Hey...you followed him?"

I nodded.

He scoffed. "Seriously man? It was his mission!"

"Well if it wasn't for me, he would have..." I sighed.

He took his hand away from my shoulder and looked at me with those serious eyes I hate so much. "What...did you do?" he bit his lip.

I scratched my neck and cleared my throat, "I was just defending h-"

"What did you do Tiger?!"

I closed my eyes and mumbled, "I killed that asshole."

The boss slammed his fist on the wall, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?!" he shouted.

"I know...I f****d up." I sighed."I can't believe you." he shook his head.

"He was going to rape him!" I protested.

He froze again and looked at me with wide eyes.

"I couldn't let that pervert touch him!"

Namjoon closed his eyes tight and ran his fingers in his brown hair. "But...you shouldn't have killed him man. You could have...I don't know...punch him or whatever, but not kill him for f***s sake!"

"I know." I lowered my head, ashamed of my actions.

"I thought we were done with this Tiger..." he mumbled with a calmer tone. "I thought you surpassed that phase."

"That's what I thought too." My chest tightened and I felt tears blocking my view. "Now, I'm...I'm gonna take care of that." I said. "I'll make sure not to let any trace of us." I lifted my head and I hated myself because of the way he was looking at me.

After we talked for a long time about my past mistakes, I promised that I would change and become a better person, but it seemed like I was still the same.

"Yeah, go." he whispered. "Where is he?"

"My room."

He simply nodded and left.

~~

A few hours after, I came back to the company, completely exhausted. I walked in the middle of the corridor with the fear of seeing him again. After that small conversation with the boss, I realized that I was still the monster I used to be and I don't deserve to be excited about being with someone.

I stood in front of my room's door and took a breath before entering. I approached the bed and gulped when I saw how he was sleeping peacefully on the mattress. He looked like an angel because of the early morning sunlight that illuminated his half naked body.

One thing warmed my heart a lot; him hugging my pillow. I couldn't help but smile at how cute he looked, but it immediately faded when I remembered the person I was. A good for nothing.

I took off my jacket and lied next to him. I didn't want to wake him up, so I slept without a pillow.

Later, I opened my eyes and thought I was dreaming when I saw how close he was to me. His black hair was covering his eyes and his plump lips were all ruined with small wounds. He must have bitten them hard because of the fear.

My heart beat faster when he finally opened his eyes and they connected with mine. "Hyung." I heard him whisper with his sweet angelic voice.

I couldn't feel myself talking to him or listening to his answers. His beauty was so mesmerizing that I almost forgot who I was.

"Why were you hugging my pillow?" I asked him, waiting impatiently for his voice to sound in my ears again. His giggles sent a strange sensation all along my body. "It comforted me cause it smells like you."

That's it. I'm done.

In a matter of seconds, the dream became a reality and our lips finally found their home. I placed my hand around his neck and pushed my tongue inside of his mouth to claim my territory. I felt bad for having him after what happened to him earlier, but I just couldn't stop myself nor control my desire. Hearing his sweet voice that turned to a gentle melody made me want to do everything to hear it again and always. I touched him and it didn't feel enough for me, I wanted more, I wanted better, I wanted him so bad.

But there again, I am still a monster.

We parted and I looked at his gorgeous eyes. "Shit." I mumbled when I remembered that I didn't deserve any of that. "I gotta go, I'm hungry." I lied.

I had no appetite, nor the envy to leave this room or leave him, but I knew that I could never have him.

"Can I have breakfast with you?" he asked.

You don't know how much I wanted him to be by my side everywhere. I wished I could start having all meals with him instead of staying alone, but he deserves better than me. He doesn't need someone who can easily end a person's life. Not me.

"Thank you." I heard him say. I looked at him and my heart broke because he shouldn't be thanking me for killing someone.

"For what?"

"For saving me...for everything." The blush on his face made him look more handsome and irresistible, but I needed to restrain myself from pushing him against the bed and own his body for the rest of the day.

I took a breath to calm myself down and smiled to him for the last time before leaving him alone.