Save Me Alpha

CHAPTER 19

ROSALIE POV

Once I'd stopped crying I realised that someone had put a book on my bed with a note.

'Fifty shades of Grey'

I'd seen the film and thought it was OK, some of the reviews said reading the book was much more steamy.

I picked up the yellow post it note

'Have fun honey and you're welcome- Jan'

I smiled lying flat on my stomach opening the book.

After a couple of pages I could hear movement in the hall outside, I turned over onto my back ignoring it.

This need to open the door took over, I kept glancing at the door expecting someone to knock but they never did. 

I tried re-reading the same line several times while hearing the movements shift away, I got up and opened the door peering out into the hall seeing the elevator doors close.

Too late Ros, whoever it was left.

I couldn't help but think of Jasper, even though my mind was all over the place about him, I f*****g missed him so bad.

I shut my door and went back to my book...

Halfway through the book and holy f**k I'm turned on and goddamit all I can think about is Jasper.

His gorgeous eyes, strong body and lickable jaw.

Thinking of him I abruptly feel my body heat soar, my hand drifting down my stomach and I immediately start caressing my c**t.

I bet Jasper looks amazing naked...

I wonder if he moans...

Oh f**k I want him to f**k me until I scream for him...

I feel myself climbing to release.

"Ros? Are you in there?" I hear Sofia knocking on my door.

"f*****g s**t Sof" I grunt under my breath.

I quickly get up brushing a hand through my hair and take some breathes to calm my breathing and erratic heart beating.

I open the door stop Sofia mid knock.

"What's up Sof?" I say in between breaths.

She handed me a phone, "Jasper left this for you, he had to go straight away. Um I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch together, Max has gone with him so thought we could hang out?" She blushes and smiles at me.

Max has gone huh?

Wait.

Jasper just left?

He didn't even say bye.

I feel the current pain in my chest get worse.

He actually f*****g left.

He left me....

"So just because Maxi has gone, you want to hang with me?" I fold my arms over my chest glaring at her.

She looks suddenly hurt, she twiddles her fingers before I hear her whisper "No Ros of course not, and don't call him that you know he doesn't like it. I just thought we could spend some time, like you girls did the other week... like when you were little?"

I clench my jaw, "Oh you mean before you ditched me for Max?" My harsh tone makes her wince.

"I didn't ditch you Rosalie, you didn't want to come here and Max couldn't just leave the pack and at that point I was already mated to him so I couldn't leave him." She whispered at me.

Oh bullshit! 

"Don't lie, you chose Max over me! You left me alone! My parents had died and you were all I had left but you stayed with Max! For what? Some f*****g werewolf pack!" I spat at her.

She seemed annoyed by this so I smirked at her.

"Ros you don't understand, as soon as you mate a member of a pack, that pack is your pack. You choose the pack over everything." 

This f*****g pack crap, Jasper chose his pack over me, Sofia too. 

Feeling my control of my anger loosening I march back into my room and change into my workout clothing, not giving a s**t that Sofia was stood there.

I walked out slamming the door behind me, she stands there opening her mouth to say something but never does.

I shove the phone in her hands, "Here, I think you need it more than me. God forbid Maxi calls and you miss it." She glares at my words and stomps off to her room.

Fucking Sofia.

She just admitted she chose Max and f*****g werewolves over me.

Bitch.

My head is buzzing as I wait for the elevator to reach the bottom.

Fucking Jasper.

Goddamit.

Why do I f*****g care?

I shouldn't give a s**t.

He thinks I'm not good enough to be a Luna.

I can hold my own.

The ache in my chest throbs with each heart beat, I put my hand on my chest, embracing the pain.

This is who you are Ros, this is why you will never be happy, everybody will bring you nothing but pain.

Breathing in and out, I stop when I see the girls minus Nina and Cameron stood outside the elevator when the doors open.

"Ros? You OK?" Deb asks me.

I nod and quickly walk out to the training grounds.

I walk over to the table with weapons laid upon it, ignoring the shifted wolves around me sparring and the wolves in human form staring at me.

Devon and Nina walks towards me with their fingers linked.

"Need some help there Luna?" Devon asks me with a concerned look on his face.

I turn my attention the knives, "Nope thanks though." Sharp as ever but I need to take back control.

I hear mumbles between Devon and Nina before I hear Devon's manly voice, "How about you do target practice and then some actual training with our wolves?"

Caught off guard by his offer, I turn to him raising an eyebrow at him. "Oh really? Jasper wouldn't allow that."

Devon smirks before continuing, "Well Jasper isn't here and he left me in charge. Come on, you can really take your anger out in training. Unless you think you aren't Luna enough for it,"

Did he just?

Mother fucker.

"Fine, but if I kick ass then I want you to tell me the f*****g reason Jasper won't make me Luna".

I see Nina pull on Devon's arm shaking her head at him.

He kisses her nose before turning to me smiling, "f*****g deal!".

I pick up several knives and walk over to the wooden targets, I take my stand a couple of metres away.

Taking a deep breath, I feel my whole being change into Ros the killer.

My confidence is soaring feeling the cold blades of death in hand.

I think of the time I threw a knife at a fat bald guy in an alleyway who tried raping some girl.

My adrenaline floods my body like a drug, I feel high.

I see the target,  my vision completely focused on it like it's the next vile guy.

Breathing through my nose, I anticipate the direction of the wind and it's strength.

Holding my breath, my eyes focused on what I want, I throw the knife hard making sure to angle my wrist for maximum force.

As soon as the first hits the target near the bullseye, I start throwing them simultaneously until the target is covered in the knives I just held in my hand.

I let out the breath I was holding, feeling better... but I need more.

I turn to see Devon staring at the target with his mouth open.

Nina walks up to me smiling like a teenager, "That was awesome Ros!"

I smile at her, lowering my gaze to the floor.

I was never good at taking compliments.

I look up at Devon with a smugness on my lips, "On to training now please second in command."

He rolls his eyes at me before beckoning me to follow him and Nina up to training grounds filled with wolves.

A wave of confidence overtakes me, I look over at the shifted and unshifted wolves.

I see some tough looking guys viciously fighting and I approach them, I need a challenge or maybe the sicko inside me needs a beating. 

Jesus what's wrong with me.

"Which one of you fine looking gentleman would like to spar with our Luna" I hear Devon say.

The men pass each other worrying looks.

I put my hand on my hip, "what's the matter boys? Scared?".

They exchange hushed words, which at one point I hear Devon and Nina growling at them.

Clearly talking s**t about me.

Fucking men.

I see one tall muscular guy in particular, he keeps whispering things to the rest of the guys. He has short brown hair which reminds me of a soldier, his striking jaw and cheekbones reminds me of a bad boy model. But his whole demeanor f*****g irritates me. 

He doesn't hold s**t compared Jasper. 

OK, he's head of the group.

Someone thinks he's f*****g alpha dog.

I point at him, gesturing for him to come forward with my finger.

He steps forward glancing at his buddies.

Devon steps forward glaring at the asshole in front of me.

"OK, hears the rules for BOTH of you. First one to pin the other for 10 seconds wins. Simple as."

I nod getting into an attacking stance.

Asshole stands there waiting for me, his eyes looking over me body.

Like fuel to the fire, I lunge at him pretending to punch his face with my right hand while forcing a blow to his stomach with my left.

He grunts holding his stomach and glares at me growling.

"What's the matter b***h? Didn't expect a human to pull one over on you?" I spat at him chuckling afterwards.

"OK then Luna, you want to play dirty then let's go. Hopefully the alpha won't hold it against me for pinning his piece of ass."

SON OF A b***h.

He swings swiftly trying to clip my chin but I pull back in time, while his arm pulls back I yank it down and spin round so his arm is twisted around.

I immediately kick his legs from under him, and pull putting pressure on his twisted arm making him groan in pain.

I drop his arm not satisfied with his approach, "You're holding back dog, give me your all." I gesture with his hands to come at me again as he turns to me.

The asshole growls at me before punching me in the chest, winding me before he picks me like I weigh nothing and slamming me to the ground making me feel even more winded. 

He holds me in place which I accept until I feel his hand wander up to my crotch, feeling me through my bottoms.

FUCKING PIG.

My anger boils over as I grip shove my fingers in his eyes and push inward harshly.

I don't even register his shouting, I punch him square in the face and lace my fingers through his hair and harshly slam his head into the ground.

I see his eyes roll back as I keep slamming his head into the ground, I didn't realise his blood and my screaming until Devon drags me off of him.

"f*****g hell Ros! That's enough!" He shouts.

I try to calm myself before shoving Devon's hands off me and stomping towards the pack house.

I shout over my shoulder, "Answers now Devon, kitchen RIGHT f*****g NOW".

I look to see Devon and Nina shuffling after me.

As I stomp towards to the kitchen, all I can think about is Jasper.

My Jasper.

He's f*****g mine.

Shit.

I f*****g want him so bad.