Save Me Alpha

CHAPTER 18

JASPER POV

All this week I'd had our pack elders bitching about Rosalie being my mate, all f*****g week.

Things had been going soo damn well between us, she kept pushing for us to mate but I knew as soon as we would start it, my wolf would completely take over and mark her straight away and there wouldn't be a damn thing I could do about it.

Not that I don't want to...

I ate with pack's elders a few days before, all was just chit chat about the upcoming alpha meet and I made clear my intention to possibly mate and mark Rosalie so I could take her but it did not go down well.

With Devon on my left and Max on my right and myself at the head of the table, the table was filled with fifteen elders who advised my father when he was alpha. Each of them I hold the utmost respect for, each of them has given me advice and direction over the years and consoled me when Carmen passed, and actually pushed me to mate Miranda for the packs' new Luna.

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"OUTRAGEOUS! You cannot make a human our Luna! That would show weakness towards other packs! You would be vulnerable! Our pack would!" Henry screeched at the end of the table. Never one to hold back.

I could feel Tyler growling in my head at what Henry said but then huffed at me to say something.

Bernadette coughed to get my attention, I often regarded her as a grandmother, she was best friends with my grandma when she was Luna then befriended my mother and also Carmen over the years.

"Look alpha-" I waved my hand at her, "Please Bernie, you can call me Jasper, we are family".

She nodded at me and continued, "Jasper, we are only voicing the pack's concerns. Henry isn't the only one to feel like this. Just please reconsider taking her as your mate for the sake of this pack."

Bernie gave a motherly smile at me, I softened seeing it and smiled back trying to calm Tyler going crazy in my mind.

"Alpha, need I remind you of what happened to Carmen? And she was a wolf, how do you a mere human such as Miss Parker would fare in the same situation? Her fate would be the exact same if not dragged out to be worse." The familiar emotionless dark voice echoed down the table silencing the chatter among the table. 

Carter Bowden, the snobbiest bastard about. Always the bane of annoyance in my father's life. The only person that backed up as an elder was my grandfather, hence why he's still f*****g here.

Looking up I see he's dressed in a sharp slim fitting grey suit, his dark locks slicked back in a neat ponytail now sporting grey down the sides and wrinkles sprinkle across his smug face.

'PRICK' Tyler and I say in unison.

Tyler quickens his pace in my mind, 'How dare he mentioned Carmen! How f*****g dare he!'

'Calm down Ty, as much as I don't want to admit it they've got a point. We can't risk Rosalie'

Tyler growls loudly and retreats to the back of my mind.

"I do not need you to remind me of that Carter although I'm sure you love to keep giving your reminders." I sarcastically replied to him.

My Carmen. Taken.

My Rosalie. I can't lose her too.

"You say you need no reminders and yet you still act foolishly. Did you know that word has spread to other packs about your potential mate being a human? They will surely use this against you which in turn will put our whole pack in jeopardy!" He said with his voice level rising at the end.

This bastard!

My teeth clench together, I slam my fists on the table and use them to slowly rise to my feet.

A growl tears through mouth making everybody in the room bow their heads in submission, Carter smirks while bowing his head.

He knows how to get under my skin.

"DO NOT QUESTION YOUR ALPHA BOWDEN, MY FATHER AND GRANDFATHER MIGHT HAVE PUT UP WITH YOUR s**t BUT I WILL NOT. NEVER QUESTION MY LOYALTY TO MY PACK OR YOU WILL BE EXILED FROM IT!" I screamed this at him making some elders at the table flinch.

Carter nodded his head and kept his eyes lowered in submission.

Sitting back down I pinched the bridge of my nose to calm myself.

God I wish Rosalie was here right now, she would calm me down a treat.

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And then when I took Rosalie out to the town's restaurant, I had to warn several staff members working there to keep their remarks to themselves as I overheard them talking s**t about Rosalie.

Always the same, the head of the restaurant Marcel, a trusted friend of mine had pulled me to the side and said the same as the elders.

This only made me distance the s****l contact with Rosalie, because whether I liked it or not these people, my pack members were only trying to protect our pack and their alpha.

Devon and Jaxon had entered my office the morning we were leaving for the alpha meet, I'd already discussed my decision to leave Ros here with the girls.

"Look man, I'm not saying you should or shouldn't mark Ros as your mate and Luna. I will stand by you regardless but I don't know what I'd do if you got hurt because of her being a human. That's nothing against Rosalie as a person. I'll be staying here with Frannie so I'll keep an eye on her for you." Devon spoke officially to me.

I put my feet up on my desk, feeling the stress of this week really straining my brain.

"OK, inform Max he will be coming instead of you. Jax what do you think about this?" I turned my eyes on Jaxon who always a lot to say and yet seemed silent about the issue with Rosalie.

Jaxon gulped before looking back at me, "J you're like a brother to me and it's not that I don't like Rosalie... she has a lot of issues up there" He tapped his temple when he said that. "How do we not know she wouldn't lose her mind again and kill herself? That would make you weak! Or what if somebody got to her to f**k us over? Who knows what she would do!".

"For fucksake! Everybody is so hung up on her being a human and now you think she'll lose her s**t and either kill herself or betray us! Really?"

I slam my fist on the table which results in a slight crack form in my solid wood desk.

I can't be dealing with everything on my f*****g plate right now!

"Look I'll deal with Rosalie when I get back, that doesn't mean I'm going to reject her nor does that mean I'll make her Luna. Let's just get this f*****g alpha meet out of the way. You're dismissed."

My second and third bowed their heads and promptly left.

That was this morning, and now I'm stood outside her room after telling her about the alpha meet in the kitchen.

As I expected, she shouted at me, she ended up feeling shitty about herself which I could tell by the look on her face which Tyler really scolded me for. I expected myself to really fight, but I just couldn't and it didn't help that she was so cold towards me.

And I let her walk away.

As Jasper I wanted to make her stay and be with her, but as alpha I had let her leave so I could focus on my pack.

Sitting on my bed thinking about today, Jaxon came in to pick up my bag I'd be taking with me. I left my room and headed up to Rosalie's room, I just wanted to kiss her goodbye.

This time away will allow me to think about what to do for what's best for the pack, for me and for Rosalie.

Sofia is stood in the hall kissing Max goodbye with tears in her eyes, they've always stuck to each other like glue, I've always admired their love for one another.

I might not get that with Ros.

'Because you don't deserve our mate! You asshole!' Tyler yells at me.

I ignore him and nod at Max as he passes me, Sofia walks up to me putting her hand on my arm.

"Look after him please Jasper, and I'll look after her." 

I smile at her putting a phone in her hands, "This is for Sofia to call me on whenever she wants to talk, if she does want to. And don't worry about Max, he's a fierce warrior and that's why I'm taking him. Use the phone to call Max too if you need to."

I walk to Rosalie's room and listen out for her.

'Go to mate, we need her, she needs us, she's hurting' Tyler says.

I hear her steady breathing and soothing murmur of her heart.

I hear a page being flipped between her fingers, she's reading a book. I wonder which one.

I feel my heart ache for her.

My c**k is hardening in pants just being this close to her, only a door keeping us apart.

Fucking door.

I raise my hand to knock when Jaxon mind links me that we need to leave asap if we are going to get there on time.

I tip my head back and take a deep breath out.

I take one last look at the door before heading the elevator.

I won't be gone long Rosalie.

I'll miss you.