His Only Girl

Chapter 14

Char's P.O.V

Hi all..It's been a while since I updated about my life haha

It has been more than one week ago since I ended my first full-time job after I graduated. Life has been kind of boring and weird at the same time. I feel that after I stepped out of this job, I feel that there is no sense of direction in life for me. This job has been my comfort zone for over 2 years. At first, I still hoped that this company would last longer than I expected, but I have to face reality.

My main aim now is to study more in-depth what I have been using in my previous job, such as databases and software , so that it will be easier for me in my next job...

This is life I guess...Things come and go so quickly...

Now..about my love life :>

It has been quite good...We have been together for a year. At this age, people around me are starting to ask when I will get married. Honestly speaking, I would want to have a stable income and a proper amount of savings so that I will be confident enough to do things like buying a house. It would be up to his decision as to when he wants to talk about marriage, as I don't want to force that idea into his head.

I myself, I still have a long way ahead in life in this world. Things like a job, a house and being financially stable are constantly on my mind all the time. This process of adulting since I was 21 years old has been tough for me. To me, money is the most important thing in the whole 20 + years of my life. I feel that I am very sensitive to money, as I was scammed before online and on dating apps last time. It made me really angry about it.

Why do people like to scam other peoples' feelings and money? I always had this thought in my head...What do they get out of scamming people? Their lives will either be f****d up as usual in this society. I used to curse and swear about those people who scammed me. I hoped their lives would be shortened and they would die miserably. All these thoughts are out of spite and anger.

I would just continue with my life...as an ordinary human being who hopes to get a job soon. I hope and I pray, as I have applied to so many places but nobody really got back to me for an interview.

I want to prove to everyone and especially to myself that I am not a useless person that only knows how to cause trouble to other people in my workplace.

I have learnt and reflected on all my mistakes that I had made in my previous company. I hope that I will not make those mistakes again...and I will regain the trust that I had broken with those that I had affected by my mistakes...

Life has been such a rollercoaster since day 1 of 2023, I still hope that in this new year things would get better for me.