Hi dad
It's like no matter what I say, I always come back writing letters to you. Even when you haven't replied to any single one of them, it feels like it will hurt a little less with every passing year, but every time I see someone's dad coming to the parent-teacher meeting, I lose it. I lose it all. This hole that you left in our hearts starts to feel like a void again. All the temporary things we filled it with scatters away, and this emptiness starts weighing again.
It's back today as well. I just hope I knew how to shut it down somehow. But it's like a father can turn away from the daughter he brought in the world, but a daughter who opened her eyes to a man who smiled as if she was the best thing that ever happened to him just can't shut it off. I loved you when I came into this
