My Rebound Boy

This is about me and the two boys whom I gave my whole heart. My story. My true love story. My one great love and my rebound boy. I would like you to meet my rebound boy. the one who saved me from misery. But first let me take you to the part where it all started. My One Great Love "Let's end this." Out of nowhere without a warning. I received the message coming from you. We were okay, I guess I thought were okay. Almost two years of being together, through ups and downs. We managed to survived. "Why?" I replied. It was strange. There were so many things running through my mind that very moment. Like "What?" " It's not working anymore. " " I'm sorry. " " I love you, it's about me, it's not your fault." The last messages I received coming from you. I kept begging you, chatting you, texting and even calling our friends, your family so I can talk to you and discuss what is the real problem. But after weeks of being ignored, giving me a cold shoulder. Feeling miserable but still having hopes for our relationship. Then one time, I still remember that day. It was 1st week of October year 2012. As I'm walking inside the campus with my classmates. I saw a couple walking together on the hallway of the college of education building. I can see clearly the guy with the black backpack smiling all eyes to the girl. The girl is petite with a short hair. I do not know the girl. I didn't remember seeing the girl before. As a saw them, I felt something like electricity enter my whole body. I was shocked. I thought i was just dreaming or hallucinating. But reality hits me hard and all the questions that I've been looking for came out of nowhere and the answer is that girl. It was the girl. I did not bother to confront you at that time, I'm afraid that you will not talk to me, or I guess I'm scared that you will ignore me. I remember walking away going to my class with a heavy heart, taking the exam while tears flowing on my eyes. I texted you that same day, asking you about her. Confronted you on what I saw. And you said she is a new friend. And I never buy it. BETRAYAL. It was hard. After what I saw that day. I became miserable. 1 month of pain. Pain that no one else can imagine. Every night of endless crying. I'm always praying that God will take my pain and help me forget about you. I started drinking and partying with my friends almost every day after class so I can forget you. I am saying to my friends that I will easily forget you, that I am strong, and I will definitely found another man more capable of loving me, but at the end of the day I'm still thinking about you. It was really hard. I kept asking myself, what did I've done to you? For almost two years I became your best friend, lover and even personal nurse. Do you still remember when you were sick, you were at the hospital and I'm the one who took care of you? Different hospitals, I was there. Not enough sleep and food. As we thought that you were going to die but we prayed hard. I prayed hard that God will save you. And you survived. I am not complaining or what, because I can't see you suffering that time. And after all my care and love, you betrayed me. You cheated and hurts me. And then one day, it was your birthday. I went to your house, eventhough I'm not invited because I love you that much. I begged you to comeback. And you confessed that the girl, it is not just a friendly relationship. It's a friends with benefits relationship. I cried infront of you. because I loved you that much, I forgave you and begged to start over. Yes I knelt down with my knees. I also make a story that I also have a fling with another guy even it's not true, it was just that you will not be felt the guilt of hurting me. My friends even told me that I was foolish that time. But I don't care all I think about is saving our relationship. I don't want to see you again with another girl. Even with a heavy heart. I swallowed my pride. I was blinded by love. Two years of being together, I can't throw our memories, our love. Love is sacrificing after all. You promise not to communicate anymore with her. We were back together. I taught we can start over. A fresh start and that we can easily forget the past. Yes we start again with a positive outlook and vibes. We were like the old us, like the courting phase. Exchange of sweet messages, but it was a short time. Suddenly we fight almost everyday with some petty things. I easily became irritable. I became aloof and cold. it's okay for me that your not replying back with my messages. I did not bother checking you, if how's your day. I'm not curious about you anymore. And I thought its weird. I received a text message from you. " Let's have some space." " Let's cool off." Here you go again. You are the first one to say those words. And to my surprise, I replied. "OK." What the hell I was thinking that time that I did not begged for you? Why I did not bother to ask questions or what. It's weird that I don't felt anything that day. That it's fine and it's okay to have space. Maybe I get tired of everything. Year 2011. I am a BS Psychology student. I'm just a typical average student. I studied but I enjoyed partying and drinking at bars outside the campus. We were enjoying the night one day together with my friends when one guy approach our table and one of my friend talk to him cause he was his classmate. He joined us and say "Hi" to everyone. And then my friend introduced him to us. The guy was tall, has white complexion. I can say he is not that good-looking guy nextdoor, but something on his eyes caught my attention. He has this charisma and this guy has a sense of humor. He talked to me the whole night and makes me laugh. We suddenly click. After that night, we exchanged cellphone numbers and sss account. After 2 weeks of chatting and calling each other almost everyday, I fell for him. And vice versa. He confess that he likes me and want to court me. After a week we became official. August 10 to be exact. I don't want long courtship. I just fell in love with him in an instant. At first our relationship was great, with same university attending, we often went to school together and left school together. We were legal to our families both sides. His family was wonderful. Of course every couple has a code name whatsoever. "Hubby and Wifey" The start of our relationship was indeed beautiful. Celebrating our first monthsary, I remember I cooked our favorite dish carbonara, giving you a CD with our songs recorded with my voice, a towel with your named printed on it. And you surprised me with a DIY book with pictures of us together. On every love story there was bumps on the road. It was not smooth. You and your hobby or I can say addiction to online games. Cutting classes it became often. And as your girlfriend, I don't want to ruin your future. I want to be your inspiration and be a better version of yourself. But you are hard headed. You listen but never act. "Yes I will change." I always heard that from you. We often fight about it. You l