Leapt Through Time to Save You

Chapter 5 - First Sin

Mary Ann is a woman who only wanted is attention. She's a faithful woman or so I thought which is why I didn't expect for her to cheat on me. She often say to me how she wanted to have her own family. She always say to me that she wanted to have 7 children. She insisted to have 7 children and all of them must grow with her and love them thoroughly. How unreal it sound but I can see how sincere she is.

She's actually a woman who is always in the side of every woman. She would always defend every woman who got hurt by a man, no matter what the reason is.

I remember her beating Bryan, when Bryan dumped her girlfriend or should I say one of her girlfriend.

We may do bad stuff to enjoy our youth and relationship together however I know in her heart that she only do that to sustain herself from reality.

She's always alone which is why she's always frustrated and depressed. It seems that I am her only light in this world, however because of my selfishness she lost her light.

I first met her in the downtown disco bar. I'm with Bryan when we saw her and her friends. Bryan talk to the other girl and I talk to her. I didn't expect to fall in love with her. It was a wonderful night, we drink, dance, and sing.

After that we often meet at the same bar. She's actually weak in alcohol so I didn't push her to drink too much. On the other side, Bryan always offer a drink to Mary Ann's friend, was her name is Carla? And that Bryan, I'm sure he did that just to have a night with Carla.

It took me 3 months to officially ask her out, I asked her if I can court her. I visit her in her school and sing her a song. I walked with her wherever she wants to go. I remember when we first eat a street food together. I didn't expect that she's okay with that. Not all girls would be okay to eat some Fishball, Kikiam and Kwek-Kwek with a guy who's attracted to them or in love with them, it makes them shy. Woman doesn't want to be looked cheap or ugly in from of a man they interested with. And her don't minding it is so beautiful. That is one of the reasons why I loved her. Her personality is down to earth.

She's cute, small woman, about 4'9 I guess, small nose, short hair, fair skin, pink lips and brown eyes. She's like my precious angel.

She is a caring and shy type of person. However not to me, whenever she's mad. She would definitely going to punch my side. I really like when she's mad, she's cute. I loved her, I used to love her. I'm really sorry that I became selfish, and now her parents are dead.

I remember the time when we went to the beach in Samar to practice our surfing. It was our most memorable moment. She's quite stubborn and persistent on learning on how ride a surfboard.

After many trials she learned. It was quite a sight. I never saw her smile and laugh like that before, she enjoyed it which is why I said to myself that I will protect that smile and will always make her smile. It was when we run from her family when they found out that we're dating. But because of what I did, it will never happen again. She lost her smile.

Our second anniversary was remarkable. It was our first time staying on an island. We spent our days on an island. We only have a 3 days' worth of food and drinkable water. We actually started to learn on how to survive in an isolated island. Our boat was carried away by the waves. And it took 15 days before someone found us. It was so adventurous, our relationship is like a drama series.

We spent our time together on learning on how to survive. We had fun, we run around and tried to make a map of the island. We search for crabs we play hide and seek, we become friends with an eagle that we found in the island. We named it, Kor. It was actually my nickname. Mary Ann said that the eagle is alike to me. I was never learned why she said that, and because of what I did, I will never ever learn the meaning behind the name of Kor.

Also on that year, during the Misa de Gallo, we actually tried to sell some traditional rice cakes. It was fun when we spent the night making it and going to the church in morning to attend the first mass, and to pray for a stronger relationship. After that we sell Rice Cakes. Our relationship might end up miserable but I never regret on being her first boyfriend. However these memories will never happen.

On the Valentine's Day, it was her first salary on her part time job. She bought me a paired of leather shoes. Honestly I still wore it even when I married Sarah. It is the first gift I received from someone who loved me. I didn't told it to Sarah because she will get mad at me. It is a waste to throw an expensive shoes.

At first I don't like to wear it but I can't throw it. When I came to Metro Manila, I brought it with me. I forgot my black shoes and I don't have enough money to afford a new paired of shoes which is why I used that shoes instead. I used it for my interview and important meeting. It has a lot of memories but now, I will never receive that shoes again.

Then on our 3rd anniversary. We just spent our day watching some anime. We're in her house. Just chilling and watching. At that time her parents are not mad with our relationship anymore and they started to support us. At that night, it was our first time on having a dinner with her parents.

I never thought that it was possible. They already own a lot of property in Leyte and Samar. Their business started to grow after that month.

I'm sorry Uncle Carlos and Aunt Gloria. I killed both of you. I'm sorry, I really am. I never thought much about my actions. Mostly for Mary Ann.

We spent a lot of good memories, I just followed my emotions and didn't think much for the consequences.

I actually can't forgive Mary Ann about when she cheated but what I hated the most is myself. I just become a coward. I didn't face her. Mostly when she tried to explain herself to me. After that I run away and went to Metro Manila. I changed my number so she wouldn't be able to call my number.

All of this memories of her being with me will never happen. I need to become strong to face this consequences.

But why?! How can I face this kind of consequences?! How?! How?! What should I do?! The man who brought me here, is this part of your plan?! Who are you?! Why is this happening to me?! All I want is to be with my family again. I miss Sarah and the kids.

I can't turn back now, I need to become stronger than today but for today, I will let myself to be have this drama. Complain, cry, be mad, or blame yourself. Do whatever you want Kersh!

"No matter what the reason, why should I experience such drama?! I can't! This is a requiem I cannot play!" I just can't believe this!

After hearing the news I run towards Mary Ann's house. But when I came, people were gathering around the house of Mary Ann.

Words are spreading, "I heard a scream earlier of young Mary Ann." A woman said.

I walk and tried to enter the house but an officer stopped me. The officer spoke, "No one is allowed to enter the house. The owner's daughter killed herself after learning from the news that her parents died from the mudslide in Southern Leyte."

After hearing this, I heard some rumors that the reason why her parent tried to go home despite the condition is because their daughter was r***d by an unknown man a day ago, and now is running away. Her grandmother came to visit her and found the man. Her grandmother immediately chased off the man and call for the Town's Officials help but they were busy because of the weather, and they're lack of men. When the Barangay Officials came, they immediately talked to the Mary Ann's grandmother, her name is Elizabeth.

Her parents immediately drove back, however because of the mudslide, they died. Elizabeth heard a news that there is an accident in Southern Leyte. However her father called Mary Ann's phone. He called and told to Mary Ann that they were trapped inside the car and they were underneath of the mudslide. Her father said that her mother is already dead, his father only cried and cannot describe how bad his wife condition is, and he is in the brink of death. He called to say how much he love Mary Ann. Before Mary Ann was able to say something, the call ended, and the phone was out of reach.

Mary Ann lose herself after hearing it. She was r***d and her parents died. Her sanity finally lost. She lost her boyfriend and her virginity which lead to her death. She cut her pulse on her left hand. Her grandmother tried to call for ambulance however it was too late.

Why is this happening?! If I just reenact what I did before and spend my time together this would not happen! This is my fault! That guy who r***d her, I must find him. This is my sin, I have to face the consequences. "I must find that guy!" Someone pulled me and said, "Kersh! Come here." I looked at my back and saw that it was JR.

She grabbed both of my hand and she brought me somewhere we can be alone, and then said, "Never lose yourself. This is not your fault! Forget what I said. It happened not because of your absence on the scene but because of something else."

"Don't be an i***t JR! It happened because of me, don't try to comfort me! I know why she's now dead, and that is because of my selfishness! I tried to change the future! I change the present! I have no rights for comfort. This is my sin! However this is too much. Why?! Why she has to die?! Of all the people, this is something I don't want to happen! I hate her but I don't want her to die!" I said.

"Kersh no matter what happened don't you ever try to kill someone using your both hands." JR said.

"I already did, I killed three person or maybe many with me coming back here in my past, your present!" I said.

"Okay I understand but you should go home and take a rest. We wouldn't be able to come up of something if we don't know what's going on." JR said.

"Understand?! Don't make me laugh!" After saying that I run away.

I want to go back, I don't want to change my past. Why is this happening?! This is too much for me. If this is only the first thing to happen then what will happen afterwards?! I must be careful with what I do.

Reenactment is not an option, I've already change a lot in the past. So what I can only do is to protect myself, my family, and to protect Sarah.

All of this is for the sake of my family. I will face everything for my family. Even if I have to sacrifice myself! This means nothing to me. From this day on, I, Kersh will become stronger in facing my sin.

If I can't do this, it means I wouldn't be able to save my own family. I will sacrifice my sanity in order to bring my family back to life again.

Sarah, Nicolas and Knyah, wait for me. Your father will come and bring you back. Our family will become happy again.

"Oh Sarah! I need you here! Only you can help me, only you can comfort me and only you can keep me in peace."

"Why, why, why people I love have to die?!"