Leapt Through Time to Save You

Chapter 11 - Do Dreams Come True?

Why do we dream? What is the purpose of it? Is this to show a prediction or to show our true emotion? I often dream of a certain person, and in those dreams, we are a couple.

I often ask myself, do I secretly love her? I admit that I admire her but not to the extent of loving her. It all started when I was in college. We used to be a childhood best friend but after her family left I forgot about her, the next time I saw her was in college. She went back to Leyte for her study in college and also to take care of her grandmother.

I never approach her when she came back, not even a single hello nor a simple greeting. I actually don't know what to say to her. I just ignore her and I just do my business.

The dream started ever since she came back. Even when I'm with a relationship with Mary Ann, I still dream of her. I found it confusing, when we're young, she often play with her sneeze, which is why I don't have a certain feelings for her, nothing but only a play mate.

When she returned, she is so different, mature and smart, though she's clumsy. We are neighbors so I often see her but I don't really think much of her which is why it is confusing to dream of her. I actually don't pay much attention to her but when I heard her speech as Lakambini during the Filipino Month, I was so amazed. I think I start to admire her because of that, but not because of her but because of her performance, it proves that I don't love her nor have other related feelings for her.

One out of seven is the chance of dreaming her in a week. I actually start thinking that I must love her to have a dream like that, but I have a girlfriend, and she has a boyfriend. I never really had the chance to confirm this emotion to her.

But now that I came back to the past, things began to change. Some of my history change, and the biggest lost is Mary Ann. The girl I'm talking about is Joy, Joy Negrido. A small woman, maybe about 5'1 or 5'2? Fair skin, small nose, medium-short hair, big face, and loud voice when she's speaking. I am amazing of her fluency, her English vocabulary, and her skill of communication.

I talk about her because she is the New HR Personnel of the company. From what I heard, she is single. I actually don't know but since I came here, I met one girl from another. Is this a test of loyalty and faithfulness to Sarah? If so then I can do this with ease, however, the temptation is real.

But, maybe I should do what I suppose to do, maybe not the exact but somehow with the same element. I should be in a relationship and making good memories, then on the October 17, 2008, I will break up with her, just like how my relationship with Mary Ann ended. Then I will go Quezon City after that.

Actually if that is the case, maybe I should have done it with JR. It is easier to explain it to her, and I know that she will understand me better. I may thought of that, but we haven't talked nor met since Mary Ann's death. I guess, she doesn't care anymore.

It is for the best, involving to me is like swimming in a huge tank with a shark. I better be alone, this is for the best, and besides, I have to take care of my mother. From the past months, I haven't given her some time and attention. I bet she's lonely.

I made a lot of preparation for me to enter this company, and there's a lot of work I received since I came here. Some of the news I work in is new to me. Maybe because it is local, and it is only written in a newspaper. I didn't really give much thought of this, overthinking and trying to predict something is not best for me. I study the past, not the future. Looking at the future is not my nature. So it is better to let things happen, and wait for it, before making an action.

You cannot see a problem not unless it is in front of you, because you will only consider something as a problem if it affects you.

After the work, I always go straight to the house, but somehow, I never met a single person. As if I am the only one living in that house. I feel so lonely even when we live together. "Is this what they called, yet so near but yet so far?"

I ate my dinner and washed it just like how I usually do it. Wash my face, brush my teeth, and change my clothes, and other stuff before I sleep.

Just like everybody, I sleep. I can feel the wind from the fan, the darkness in the room. I feel lonely.

I can remember most of my dream... no, I'm actually aware inside of my dream but when I awake, I forgot some of the details.

A man is sitting in a bench, the room is dark. I can't see the end of it, nor hear any sound but when I tried to walk, the venue change. It was my neighborhood.

I can see some children, playing in the street, hide-and-seek, Tom Sawyer, Bente Uno, Black 1-2-3, and then other street games. I used to play some of this street game when I was a child. After a while, someone called my name. Unfamiliar voice, a voice of a woman. I don't know who it is yet I know it. I turned around and I saw her, it was Joy. She's wearing a ring, and when I look at mine, it's the same.

I see, so I dream of her again. If she's not my girlfriend, she's my wife. I walk with her to the house, and when we entered it. Familiar faces, welcomed us with balloons, cake, gifts and other stuff that you can see in a children's party.

My mom holds a child, she called my name and said, "Kersh, will you hold your child, Nicolas for a while." The child's name is Nicolas. So I still name my first born son as Nicolas. His name is derived from a greek word, "Nikolaos", it means, "People of Victory". Maybe I miss him, so I dream of him.

When things is about to be good, the venue changed again. I saw the strange man again, but somehow nearer. It seems he is familiar, but I can't see his face clearly. Who is he?

I stared at him and do nothing, I want some clues, and I noticed him looking at the ground. He then started to say something, he is muttering something. What is it? I tried to listen but I can't hear him. I keep on trying but then, He vanished.

I returned back go the house with everyone, I tried to casually enjoy it but I can't stop myself on thinking about the strange man in my dream.

Joy called my name, she asked for a help, and when we are alone, she said, "I'm sorry Kersh but, I killed Sarah, your wife, Nicolas your son, and Kynah your unborn child."

"I don't understand? You killed who?" I said. I don't understand, who are the people she's mentioning? "Will you please explain it to me?" I added.

She then hugged me, and whispered, "I am Yolanda."

The memory of my family returned to me, every single of it, flash through back in my head. The loneliness and emptiness I felt, starting to make my eyes cry again.

It made me wake up, my heart is pumping so fast. I look at the mirror, I saw myself covered in sweat. After I try to make myself calm. I saw the strange man, in the side of the corner. He is sitting, like a scared child. When I tried to move, he then disappear, I look around to see if he is in the room but he is not.

I sat down on my bed, "Do dreams come true?" A whisper came from my back. I immediately turned around but no one is in there. I start to panic, what is this? A ghost? What is going on? Sweat came out again from my body, and my heart pump so fast again.

I look around, look around, look around, look around, look around, look around, look around, and look around but no one is in there, until I slip from the dizziness, and fell to the ground.

Then I wake up from my bed again. "Is that a dream?" That is the scariest dream I ever had.

What time is it? "3 am?" Talk about bad luck. I guess I have to walk drink some water to refresh and relax.

The television is open but no one is watching. I guess my father forgot to switch it off again, Knyah's magazine are all over again in the kitchen's table, and mom forgot to finish her coffee again. People in this house are so forgetful.

"What are you doing? Why are you throwing my coffee?"

"Ah, this is because of..."

Joy? Why is she in the house?

"Because of what, honey?" She said.

"Nothing, I just thought that you forgot to finish this." I said.

I'm confused with what's going on. What's going on? Am I dreaming again? I was thinking when the calendar took my attention. "October 3, 2013."

I am in the future? But why October 3? Wait, something is off. It feels like some off my memory is gone. But it doesn't feel like I forgot something.

"Honey, we married last year right?" I asked Joy.

"Yes, did you almost forgot our anniversary?!" She said.

"No, I was just.... Nothing, don't mind me." I said.

What's going on? But why am I thinking that I came in the past? What happened in the past?

I feel confused for something I am not sure of.

Days has passed, Joy got pregnant, I feel overwhelmed with the emotions I have. I will become a father, a new family is about to move forward, but then everything freeze.

"This is not real."

"Everything is a dream."

"But dreams may come true."

"You have no memories of the past."

"Would you like to live in here?"

I hear different voices from every corner of the house.

"You may live peacefully in this house."

"But is that what you really want?"

What I want? For some reason I felt empty. What is it I want? One of the voices said that this is a dream, and someone mentioned that dreams may come true.

Did something happened to me in the past that something bizarre like this happened to me?

But one thing is certain, if I am not from of this world, then I have to leave.

"You will leave us again, Kersh?" Joy said.

I look at her, I love her, but something is off.

"I want to know the truth, take me to where I really belong." I said.

Then everything flash through me, memories and places. The emptiness I felt was this.

I am in my bed again.

"7:00 am" It is written to my clock. 7? 7?! If I don't rush, I'll be late for work!

"Hey watch out?!" Knyah said.

"Did you sleep too much, Kersh?" My mother said.

I run towards the door, and saw my father putting his shoes on.

"Excuse me, I have to get through, I'm late for my work!"

I started the date, as if nothing happened. The dream I had earlier, I forgot it. All I know is that, Joy is my wife. I guess we became a couple again.

Maybe I should try to be in a relationship with her, and dumped her afterwards, then meet Sarah.

Well, let's see, how our fate will intertwine?!