A delightful morning breeze enter the passage of my window without permission, so cold, yet it feels good. My room is my only safe haven in this House. Ever since I learned to understand words, my world fell apart. Before I thought everything was fine but my little garden seems to be in full of thorns. My father and mother fights like dog when I was still a cute angel. Kersh didn't know about this dog fight between our parents because he enjoyed his life outside the house. While I stayed in the house. I was never the outgoing person. I enjoy staying in my room. Writing stories and paint the delusions in my minds.
My family know that I am the obedient child, the kind child, and the emotional and caring towards the family, but I never really felt like that. I only did this because I don't want this house to be filled with negative energies. My father is a scum bug of a womanizer, he is so weak that he can't face his reality, same goes like Kersh. He always run whenever there's a problem. I remember when he was in 3rd grade. He was bullied by the new neighbor's son. He just cry and run to mom. How can a man become so weak? A cry baby, what a pathetic brother I have! All of them are the same! My mother is a possessive person, she will do anything she desire. I have the idea on what happened to them with father when they were younger. Looks like Kersh also had this characteristics. I pity him to gain all of the s**t characters of our parents. He is the most foolish among our family. I bet he will kill himself if things go bad about him.
Father brought one woman after another, I don't know why my mom still live with him. I guess that's how dumb she is. I saw her bought a d**g, it was hilarious to see your own mother being addicted by a d**g, I may be a freak to be thrilled by it! I made portray using charcoal, and used her as topic. A mother dancing in the air like a foolish chicken that think she can fly higher. Most of my paintings are inspired to how foolish my family is. After creating one, I sell it to the local museum or to a known rich man. Most of my paintings are now in Palawan.
My future is already settled, an elite English, named James Moriarty wants to invest for my arts. He wanted my paintings, and he desired to display it in all of the museum in every part of Europe.
All I have to do is to finish my college and after that, I can finally flew away in this full of s**t of a family. Sorry Kersh, but I don't really wanted to live longer with you. I know you desire to take us in Manila but your ambition is too small. I need a bigger stage. Manila is not enough, not even the whole Philippines. I want all of the eyes in the world to see me as I rose to fame! My arts will take me to Nirvana!
I can't afford to lose all of my potential to this family. It is my only desire.
"Jyna, are you there?!" a familiar voice called my name. Maybe it's Geraldine.
I went out to see the person and I was right. It is Geraldine. She is friend of mine, unfortunately we became classmates in high school, from freshman years to seniors, 4 consecutive years. I never wanted to be friends with her but because of the circumstances, it happen. Though I never regret it.
The art materials I needed was sponsored by her. She asked me to teach her on how to paint. She doesn't have the talent, she doesn't even can make amateur level of paintings. But I need her, without her money, I won't be able to buy my paintings.
"Jyna, what do you think I lack?" She said.
"Misery." I said.
"But I don't want to paint gloomy things like you." She said.
"You really don't get what art is." I said.
"What is it? Tell me." She said.
"Life will never be called life with only happiness." I said.
"Why are you always like that?!" She said.
"Because I'm an artist." I said.
"So poetic and sometimes Philosophical, as if I'm talking with my grandparents." She said.
"Then it means that you are too simple." I said.
"Anyway, what will you do for the acquaintance night? Will you have a date?" She asked.
"Maybe I will have, but that depends." I said.
"Ulysses, the school vice president texted me earlier. He said, he wanted to be my date." She said.
"As expected, because I rejected him." I said.
"Don't be like that Jyna." She said.
"Men doesn't really care, once you gave them your most honest answer, they will stop and moved on. Most men are like that, they don't like the idea of waiting for nothing, so why make them wait if we don't like them in the first place? I am not that cruel like you, making false promises, saying that once you finish your studies or if things are fine, you will might date them." I said.
"I am not like that!" She said.
"Christian, Michael, another Michael, and another Michael, Freddy the smart guy, Erald the one with eye glasses, John-John, Jhay, Rainier, Richard, Midel, Denver, Rey Mark, Jeremiah, Dave and Aloy." I said.
"Okay stop!" She said as she got annoyed.
"See, you promised to most of the boys in the class, in every class we're in. Also to your new classmates, beauty is not everything in this world. If you don't like them then just ignore them." I said.
"This is what I like about you, you always said what's in your mind, and never have to considered what will the other people will feel. I wish, I was like that." She said.
"Is that sarcasm? But I'm not like what you think." I said.
"No you are." She said.
"I always care for others, and for my family. I also love you, and it is true." I said but nope, I don't really love her.
"Please, don't be like that, it feels so wrong, so cringe! This is not the Jyna I know. You never said, you loved me nor called me as a best friend." She said.
I am impress she knows that, I thought that she is just a clueless girl. I change my mind about her.
"So, where are we going exactly?" I asked.
"In the new bodega, a friend of mine told me the place. There's a lot of graffiti in there, newly painted by some gangsters. I think they called themselves as, Street Soldiers." She said.
"I know that, the new g**g who ruled the whole Samar, are they trying to conquer the whole Leyte?" I asked.
"Well, Bryan is now gone. He might not be a gangster but it is only because of him why the other gangs have truced. Now that the ceasefire is done, a g**g war might happen. The town might become the center of war. Isn't this exciting?!" She said.
"You really are a war freak, you can't hide that from me, and yes, I love to see that. Blood of War, I want to paint that g**g war, it will become a master piece!" I said.
"You always think of your art, aren't you?" She said.
"I am like a painter without a brush." I said.
"Where here, what do you think?" She said.
"First, I can smell that this is a g**g's den, but it seems, no one is here. I hope things didn't go wrong and get abducted by those g**g members then got rape." I said.
"I almost forgot that you are a writer, your sense of stories are absurd, don't be like that." She said.
A slight sound of footsteps and a smell of a cigarette, a man appeared before us. He is tall, maybe a 5'10 or 5'11. He has a good physique. I can see his n***d body. Shirtless Man, wearing short jeans, he has a pair of black skull earrings. I was captivated as how he was eating an apple, he then said, "Something like that will happen if both of you will stay here, in less than 5 minutes." He said.
We just stared at him, he is so gorgeous, and his tanned muscular body gives me chills.
"4 minutes and you will be seen in the side of the river, n***d and r***d. Get out or you will regret this."
Geraldine pull me away but I can't stop myself in staring on him, I never saw a strong man like him. The fantasy I desire, the man I wanted to most, is within my sight. "What is your name?" I asked.
"Alvin." He said.
"I am Jyna" I said.
"I heard." He said.
After that, we run away from the bodega that Geraldine found. I can't wait to see him again! I guess, someone in this world can really bring the other Jyna out. I hope he can! My Saviour!
"Jyna, that was so exciting! We run so fast, it feels like my heart and lungs will explode." She said.
"That guy, my heart and lungs wanted to explode for him!" I said.
"And also your flowers wanted to be watered by him." She said.
"Hey! How perverted! But I wouldn't mind get wrecked by him!"
"Though your father is known for womanizing, but it seems his daughter is a close-perverted person!" She said it as she laugh at me.
"Aren't you the same? Your parents are so kind and trying hard to become innocent looking." I said.
"Alright, I'll stop, but I never saw you have an interest with men, until today." She said.
"I always am, I observe them but not a single one is acceptable but not today, I saw one. I hope he is the one I thought he is." I said.
"Well good luck, he is with the g**g, anyway, I'll be going now. See you on the acquaintance party! Bye-bye!" She said.
"I don't hope for it, bye-bye!" I said.
See you soon, Alvin!