Help me , Mister

My love , My Downfall

Cold , ice cold . That is how I felt as I wake up. My body is numb and really cold . That is when I realise that I cried myself to sleep on the floor . My eyes are sore , they need an eyedrop .

Lonely . That is how i feel as I wake on the floor alone with no one to hold me . I miss waking up wrapped up in his arms , his warmth enveloping all of my body . I miss waking up to him planting kisses all over my body .

I get up from the cold floor and see the plate of untouched food i dished for him yesterday . I start thinking of yesterday's events and I quickly stop myself before torturing my heart more . I will not think of the past but focus on today . Today is our second year anniversary and I plan on making it the best .

I quickly open the curtains and see that the weather is gloomy today but that will not discourage me . I take a look at my phone and become disappointed when I do not see any messages. I take a look at the clock and gasp loudly as I see that it is now midday . I have never slept this long before .

I make a beeline to the bathroom to take a shower. Today I plan on being at my best appearance . After my shower routine I choose the dress he bought for me because he thought it would look sexy on me . I put on a little make up even though I never wore it before. I want to be beautiful just for him today maybe he will see the girl he fell for .

I look in the mirror and I am satisfied with my look . "Baby girl , you are beautiful in whatever you wear. Go and show that boy that we Hudson women never bow down to men but men bow to us ." , those were the words my mother spoke when I was going to my first date .

I take the plate with me as I go to the kitchen to prepare my suprise for him . Our last anniversary was beautiful and emotional . It was the first time he told me he loved me and I was over the moon . I was waiting for a very long time to hear him saying those sweet little words .

"I never thought I would fall for someone as I did you , baby . You are the best thing that ever happened to me . I thank my parents for arranging this marriage because I got you out of it . I love you , baby . I love you so so much ." , those sweet words were spoken by my husband as we were in bed after a long happy and memorable day .

I am planning on making his favourite meal and dessert today . As I am busy cooking I think of my parents. Were they disappointed or happy with me ? My mother always wanted me to meet my soulmate , the one who would protect me , love me and cherish me . My father always wanted me to be happy whatever the situation may be .

The clock strikes six in the evening and there is still no sign of my husband . I have everything set and ready for him . I put the food in the warmer because I want him to enjoy it while it is stll warm . I quickly put everything in its place and take a look again because I want nothing ruining this . I want everythin to be perfect .

With the speed of lightning I make sure my lingerie is ready in the closet and my heels are also ready . I plan on seducing him today and I am not ashamed to say I miss having s*x . I miss it so much that I cannot satisfy myaself .Going back to the kitchen I make sure everything is fine again before sitting and waiting for him .

The clock strikes seven and there is still no sign of him . I convince myself that something is holding him up . Now the time is ten past eight and there is till no sign of my husband. I am starting to lose hope now . He cannot just forget our anniversary ,would he ? He knows that this means a lot to me .

The time is half past nine and I am starting to feel sleepy . He is not coming , is he ? That is the question I ask myself as exhaustion starts to take its toll . I put my hands on the table and rest my head for a minute . When I start falling asleep I hear a commotion infront of the door .

I stand abruptly that the chair almost falls over . My eyes stay glued to the door , waiting for my husband to grace me with his presence .My heart is beating so fast I am afraid it might burst . My hands start sweating and getting clammy . I straighten my back and wear my smile .

I hear the doorknob jiggle and I know that he really is here. The door opens and I am blessed with my husband clad in his clothes from yesterday . I notice that he is still looking outside and I wonder what he is looking at .

"Y-you're back ." , that is all I can utter . Stupid ! Stupid me .He turns and looks at me with his emotionless face and I already know that he is not drunk .

"I've been waiting for you. You must be hungry . I made dinner. " , I say to him but he is now looking at me with a bored face and I do not know if I should scream or cry . I thought this was our day and he will remember . I noticed that in his hands he has a purse and that is when I got confused . Whose purse is that because I do not have a purse like that.

He turns to look at the door and moves in like he is opening for someone . That is when I notice the long legged blonde and blue eyed woman . She is really gorgeous , she looks like a model out of a Vogue magazine .

I will not jump to a conclusion with the way she is hanging off my husband's shoulder . Maybe she is his childhood friend or college friend or a relative but I highly doubt that because there is not even a little resemblance between them. I hate the way my husband is looking at her . He is looking at her like...

"Babe , who is that ? " , my mind battle was cut off by the annoying voice of this woman . My thoughts were now confirmed , she is not a friend or any relative .

My husband looks me directly in my eyes with a daring and uttered the words that destroyed my already broken heart.

"That's no one important , baby . Don't bother yourself with her . Just focus on me she is nothing , baby .Let's go and have some fun , you promised me ."