The Alpha's Mate (GxG)

chapter ten - mates

Arya’s Point Of View

I looked at her beautiful eyes once more and calmed down my breathing. I had to gain control of my thoughts and emotions. I could feel that I was losing a grip on my self control and not in a s****l / sensual way but in the most purest of passion. I just wanted to feel at peace ,I wanted to be welcomed into her arms . I had been strong for so long I was tired of it. Always putting up a front trying to never show weakness or any form of emotion that could be used against me. She was different , I could feel my internal walls slowly crumbling into the atmosphere as I looked upon the caring nature that she emitted from her essence . The pure aura of Peace tender love and care just exuding off of her In Waves. I could somehow suddenly feel myself giving in to the mate bond and I honestly did not mind.

I wanted to be weak with her , just throw myself into her arms and cry away all the years of pain , anguish and constant misery. They is nothing like the pain of People not seeing you but seeing a different version of you that they have made up in their heads ,a version that that grow to hate each and every passing day . I quickly snapped out of all the gods that I was currently having. My walls are slowly being built up again as I played through the scenario of our supposed relationship in my head. I thought it through carefully and try to envision a future between the two of us but I could see nothing. Darkness loomed around our future as I watched all that I have worked for slowly start to fade as she gets the brunt end of this relationship. Yes my father will be angry and yes he would try to separate us but I am used to him I am used to his hatred and his abuse she is not.

I would never subject anyone into the constant torture and agony that I go through. I would never drag her into my life dramas because just by looking at her I knew she wouldn’t survive. I could tell that she has been through more than her fair share of suffering. I look ok on the outside . I am strong I am firm on my word , I can fight for what I believe in to some extent and I am off alpha blood which guarantees me some form of respect. Deep down I am not as I seem, I am broken and I am shattered now could you imagine what she could be dealing with deep down at her core . My exterior exudes strength but I am broken whilst her exterior exudes weakness , pain and agony which just makes me wonder exactly what it could be that made her to be the way she is. Who hurt her so much that she resorted to not talking and being a shell of herself? I could not bring myself to worsen her odds and put her in such a worse off situation such as being entangled with me.

I wanted to protect her with each and everything in my being so did my wolf. Just craved to hold her tightly in my arms and shield her from how ugly and painful the world could be. I wanted to keep her away form life’s challenges or at the very list just protect her from harm which meant protecting her from my father’s abuse and that of my crude pack members. Even though I had a lot to lose if anybody found out about us so did she and that was all the convincing I need to build up a strong conviction and not to do anything to risk her seemingly already shattered mental health. Even though I wanted to stay away from her I was still curious and I just had to ask about us. Ignoring all her Caring questions I resorted to asking her a question instead of answering . “tell me , Nicki…is it ok if I call you that or? Just that Nicole has too much drama around it,” I waited for her to nod before I continued on with my question.

“anyway Nicki, tell me something, Do you know what is a mate?” I asked in a very low voice trying to make sure that no one hears me aside her . I watched ash she cutely moved her head left to right to signify a no . My lips tugged up in an upward motion as a smile covered my face at her innocence of our situation. Knowing that she was unaware of our bond stung a little but somewhat made me want her even more but I removed such thoughts from my head.

I opened my lips to explain what mates are to her but froze as my mind link got bombarded with multiple screams and warnings. The loud bell at the center of the pack rung loudly and vibrated my auditory canals . I could feel as my blood ran cold and my wolf stirred up in high alert. I was up ,on my feet and in my fighting stance in an instance as I watched our surroundings to ensure no ambush.

I knew what the warning bell meant.

We were under attack.

I got one word from the pack mind link “ Rogues!”