Sinful miracle

I would explain to you how I went through the phases of pain, taking me down piece by piece until I felt the void, I was lost in it, the absolute nothingness of pure agony, brutal pain. The last time I set my eyes on him was on the 22nd of October 2035. The argument went front really subtle, picking the pace, it felt like time stopped for a minute as I felt my inside’s crumble……… and then suddenly at ease. I drew a long breathe as I came to the realization that this was my reality. His words should have hurt me, choking me painfully but all I felt was numbness, it was flushing over me, I was devoid of emotions and could see things for how they were. I looked at the man I loved, I took in every detail of him, he was saying something but I spaced out, just watching his lips moved, completely bewildered by the way he spoke to me, the things he said and was saying, I was shivering, i couldn’t cry for I had gone way passed that. My mind began to wonder how all of this started, when it began to build up and it began to get clearer, it was because of her, she did this to me, to my relationship and here I was getting the hit of it, she will pay for what she’s done and I will make it hurt just like this is hurting me. I looked at my lover again in the eyes and couldn’t believe he’d yell at me because of a woman. “Are we even dating, I can text whoever I want to and be with whoever I want to be with” he yell at me, getting my attention, the blood drained from my face and my lips were apart, I couldn’t believe what I had heard and I was hoping I heard wrong but I didn’t, my hearing was as clear as the morning sun. I staggered backwards, trying to get a grip of myself, I didn’t mutter a word while I looked at him dead in the eyes, questioning what he had just saying. He watched me leave the sitting room, I walked into the room to pack my things, I put on a decent top , picked up my bag and headed straight for the door. He watched me in silence as i put my affairs together and walked towards the door, not one word did he mutter. I looked back at him and a weak smile played on my lips as I made my first step out of the door, out of the relationship and out of his life, I left and trust me I left and promised to never look back on him, on that day, on us, nothing. From that moment, everything about me changed and I took each day as it came and embraced the monster I was going to become.