Divorce drove me crazy

"I am sorry babe , I really am", she said that as I walked out , shocked by all that I had seen. My own wife , my own wife cheated on me with my brother. I was shocked to the extent that I thought that everything that happened was a dream , my heart was broken into a million little pieces and somehow the picture of my wife with another man couldn't be erased in my mind, it was the only thing I saw , and no matter how hard I tried to forget it , I still heard the moans and screams of satisfaction she had with my brother. I walked in the streets at midnight with that picture and those moans in my head "how? how could Olivia do this to me? After everything that we have been through together". I asked myself a lot of questions, and yet they didn't have answers. I looked around and somehow my pain led me to a bar where I drank my sorrows away. "She cheated , you were right Jimmy , because even after everything , she cheated ", I didn't know what to do so I told the bartender what happened as I drank my pain away. "Come on man , you can't be crying over a cheating b***h , I mean you take care of her right and you also took her to school, you also make sure that she's the prettiest girl around , and yet she cheats on you , with your brother, don't you see how messed up she is , I mean just let let her go , because if she cheated on you it means there's obviously something you lack, so just leave her alone and focus on yourself ", I sat there as Jimmy gave me advice wondering if I should do as he says or give my wife a second chance. "Okay bro, I hear you but what about my brother, he also betrayed my trust", I asked because a pice of me wanted him to die while the other piece wanted to forgive him. "Look I don't know man , because that's your choice, but you must also remember that blood is thicker than water", Jimmy said that as he picked up his drink. I left the club and walked home, wondering how I was going to face my wife after everything that she had done , and when I got home there she was , waiting for me by the door, she walked to me as I walked towards the house " I am sorry Jack please believe me when I say that , because I really am sorry", and as she said that a part of me wanted to pull her close and kiss her but the another part of me wanted nothing to do with her , so I walked past her because deepdown I was also still confused. She held my hand as I walked past her and she said "please , don't be mad at me", "I'm afraid I'm already fuming with anger, so please let go of my hand before I do something I will regret", I said to her before walking to the guestroom. And when I got there , all the pain and anger I had inside came out and I just found myself screaming, they say a man doesn't cry but I cried myself to sleep. When I woke up , my mind was made up . I was going to divorce her , because she had hurt me and somehow leaving her hurt more because deepdown I really thought that she was the one . I woke up and went to our room where she was sleeping I woke her up and said " look you cheated on me with my brother and that is unforgivable", she looked at me with a sad face "but I told you it was a mistake J, it really was",she said that as she pulled me close to her and tears flowed from her eyes. "I loved you , I still do , but you don't love me like I love you" , I said that as I stood up to leave but she pulled me to the bed and said " I won't happen again J, please give me a second chance", and somehow I couldn't believe everything that she was saying , because she was acting as if cheating was a minor issue ,so I looked at her and said " I'm sorry but it's not me, it's you and I always thought that I would mess it up but , I didn't , you did , always remember that",I said that as I walked out leaving her on top of her bed.