Royal love - she become my addiction.

Episode - 15

Darrick's POV - 

In the library, she entered with the jerk by her side. why he's always behind her back? wherever she goes, he followed her like a lost puppy. Like he have no other work than sticking to her and staring at her always. she didn't even say a word against it. Is she blind or what? can't she see how he keep following her everywhere and keep staring at her or may be she don't want to see it. she's enjoying it. of course, she is. just look at her face, how she's laughing with him. she never laughed with me like this. she either ignored me or avoided me like I am some leech sucking on her blood. I tried my best to not to  look at them but I can't stop the sounds of their laugh that were reaching my ears somehow. I know, she's not mine. I know that she doesn't belong to me, she can never be but still I want her to be with me. I can't see her with any other boy. it hurts me. it fills me with immense anger and pain. watching her laughing with some other boy is burning me from inside. I want her to laugh with me. I want her to smile at me only. it was a complete t*****e watching her with that good for nothing creature. 

so, as soon as the librarian announced that it's time to leave, I ran away from there leaving them alone. I went in the parking. I just can't run away like this every time I see them together. Can I? I need to talk to her. yes. I need to talk to her. I will apologize to her about my rude behavior that day nd then, I will ask her to be my friend. hmmm, that will be great. 

thinking so, I waited for her to show up but she didn't come. so, I thought to check up on her. I was going towards the library when I heard some giggling sounds. I went in the direction of the source of voice and what I saw make my blood boil in the anger. I clenched my fist looking at the scene in front of me. That jerk was holding Lily close to himself that his nose was touching hers and what make me more angry is that she wasn't even protesting his acts. she let him do whatever he wants. 

I marched towards him and pushed him away from lily. Then, I started punching his filthy nose which dared to touch her soft skin. 

suddenly I was pushed hardly to the ground by none other than lily. she supported him and make him stand up on his feet. it makes me more angry. 

I ran towards him again but Lily held me from behind. I never thought that she can be this much powerful. she looks so weak and fragile but I am faster and stronger than her. I grabbed her by her throat choking her to death. 

suddenly someone kicked my leg from behind making me fall on my knees and making me lose my hold on her neck. 

I stood up again and punched the brat on his jaw hard to make his blood spit out on the ground but of course, our dear lily came as her savior. I can't believe she is fighting with me that too save that filthy dog. it makes me lose all my senses and I said those mean words to her that I am myself very ashamed of. I called her by names. In reply, she spit at my face making my dirty mouth shut up. I can see the tears brimming in her big ocean blue eyes. she ran away leaving me all alone to regret my behavior. 

I fell on my knees on the ground. I hurt her. I hurt her again. I am such a d*ckhead. I am good for nothing. I hurt the girl whom I love so much. I lost her forever. she will never forgive me for how I behaved to her.  wanted to cry so badly but tears aren't coming out of my eyes. 

suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. I quickly turned around hoping it would be Lily but got disappointed to see the librarian standing there. I looked into her eyes. 

did you fight with her? - she asked in low voice sitting beside me. 

I looked at her with completely shocked. did she watch what happened here a few minutes ago? oh no! 

I know, you face is telling the story of your heart. - she said with a small smile. 

I looked down not having the courage to look into her eyes. 

tell me, what happened? - she asked placing a hand on my arm. 

I looked at her with my eyes filled with pain. 

I said something very awful and also behaved like a total jerk with her. - I whispered looking down on the ground. 

we give the pain only to the ones who we loved. well, whatever you did was wrong but you should learn from your mistake and rectify it. - she said messing my hairs and giving me a small smile. 

hmmm. I will try my best. - I said returning the same smile to her. 

good. she'll definitely forgive you. just don't give up. - she said motivating me. 

now you should go home. it's quite late. - she said getting up and gave me a hand to help me. 

Lily's POV - 

no matter how hard I tried to keep myself busy and to not to think about him or his behavior but he was the only one in my mind. his words didn't left me alone. even Ash is also hurt by his behavior. she just hide herself in the darkness of my mind. 

Ash please, talk to me. just once. - I pleaded to Ash but I got a whimper from Ash in reply. 

please Ash, I know you're hurt but please don't hide yourself. - I tried to lift her mood up.

That's what I got after saving myself for the mate from all these years. he called me sl*t, lily. He called us a wh*re. our mate who is meant to love us, who is destined to be with us forever, called us by names. he hate us, lily. he feel disgusted by us. we lost our mate forever, Lily. he thinks of us as a Pr*stitute. he doesn't love us. - I broke in tears listening to Ash's words. 

yes, she's right. he doesn't respect us. he doesn't love us but I can't fall weak. 

relax Ash, we will make him regret on this day. we will show him what he lost today. it's his loss, Ash. don't forget that we're stronger than him. No one can defeat us until we are together. - I sad motivating her a little. 

Darrick's POV - 

I got ready in my blue jeans and my black colored shirt after taking shower. I went downstairs. 

hey Mom - I called her and she turned around.

how am I looking? Am I looking good? I think, I should change these black shoes. what say? - I asked looking at my black shoes. 

no, my son. it's looking good you're looking very handsome as always. - she said caressing my cheek lovingly. 

what do you say, Amber? - I asked my one and only sister, Ambrosia. 

she came towards me running in her vampire speed. then, she held my collar and smelled it. 

hmm. you took shower. - it came out as a statement rather than a question. 

to whom you are getting ready? - asked dad raising his brow at me. 

yeah, yeah. even I am curious to know my sister in law's name. - Talon said with a broad smile on his face. 

it's no one guys. - I answered looking here and there. 

hmmm, then why are you blushing? - asked Athan out of no where. 

what? I.... I am not blushing. why will I blush? - I said not looking at them. 

you won't even tell you mother, huh? - Mom said faking a sad expression. 

such a drama queen she is. 

I will tell you once she will accept me. - I said heaving a long sigh.

see, I told you that there is definitely some girl behind all his grooming sessions. - Talon chuckled. 

just shut up. - Mom smacked his head. 

then, she came towards me and said -

you don't worry. she will definitely accept you. which girl in this world can say no to my handsome son? - she said admiring me with a small smile. 

okay. I think, I should leave now. - I said picking my bag up. 

but we still have 45 mins. to reach the school. - Athan said. 

yes brother. why so early, huh? - Amber asked wiggling her eyebrows. 

you naughty kids. - Mom said twisting their ears. serves them right.

stop teasing him. - Mother said twisting their ears more. 

yes Mommy. now please leave my ear. it's hurting. - Amber whined in the pain.

Dad and Talon laughed at their antics. Mom left their ears. I too left from there bidding them bye. 

I reached early at the school. I waited patiently for her to come. she entered inside with the jerk by her side. I controlled myself from doing something which I regret later. she sat behind me with that jerk. I took a long breath. it's not going to be as easy as I thought it would be. 

I turned around and saw her reading a book. I took my notebook and kept a rose inside it with a sorry note. I just hope it would work. I kept the notebook on her table. 

Lily's POV - 

Darrick put a notebook on my table. I opened it and saw a sorry note with a red rose in it. what is he trying to do? he think that an apology can rectify his mistake then, he's completely wrong about it. I took the rose in my hand and smashed it in my fist and then, throw it in dustbin. same goes with his sorry. 

I slammed his notebook on his table.

Darrick's POV - 

I sighed when I saw that she threw my rose in the dustbin. it's not going to be easy. soon, Mr. Patrick came and the lecture started but I couldn't concentrate on it. she was the only one in my mind. 

when the bell rang, she was about to leave the classroom but I stopped her holding her hand. 

I am sorry please. - I started but that jerk came between us. 

if you want to apologize, then apologize to Jack first. you beat him brutally. so, say sorry to him, first. - she said looking into my eyes. 

he deserved it. it's his mistake that he touched you. - I said defending myself. 

you too touched me. now beat yourself too. - he said indicating to her hand that I was holding. 

I was shocked at her words and she left from there. 

Later, In the library -

I again tried to apologize to her but she again repeated the same words. why this jack guy is so important to her? 

I sat in the corner with my sulking face trying to find the way to gain her apology. 

what happened, champ? - Miss librarian asked messing my hairs with her fingers. 

I told her the whole story that how I apologized to her and how she say that apologize to that jerk first.

so, what's the problem. apologize to Jack. it's simple. - Miss librarian replied shrugging her shoulder after listening to my whole story.

but..... - I started but she cut me off in the middle. 

tell me, do you hate that guy more or do you love Lily more? - she asked raising her brows at me. 

I love lily more. - I answered honestly. 

and you can't even do this little thing for your love, huh? - she asked looking at my face. 

then, she left from there leaving me in my own thoughts. 

yes, I can do this for lily. I can do this for my love. if this is the only way to gain her apology. then, I am ready. - I thought and went towards them. 

I stood in front of Jack. I heaved a long sigh and then, I fell on my knees in front of him. 

I am really sorry, jack. I shouldn't have raised my hand on you. I know, I shouldn't have beat you up like this. I am very ashamed of my behavior. I am extremely sorry for that. please forgive me.  - I said with my gaze fixed at the ground. 

it's alright, buddy. not every person has the courage to admit his mistake. yes, it was wrong to beat someone like this that too without any reason but I accept your apology. - he said and hugged me tightly patting my back. I smiled hugging him back.

hmmm. this guy isn't that bad. 

I looked at lily and turned her towards me. 

see, I apologized to him. I apologized to your friend and he accepted my apology. he forgave me. now it's your turn. please I am sorry. - I said holding her hands in mine. 

good that you accepted your mistake. - she said running her fingers into my hairs messing them but I loved this little action of her. it calmed me down and filled my heart with joy.

she is just amazing. 

I am also forgiving you. - she said taking her hand back from my hairs. 

so, from now on, our ways are different. you don't have to interfere in my matters neither I will. got it? - she said and I looked at him with my jaw wide open.   

she moved away leaving me there thinking about her words. 

what does that mean? our ways are different? 

hey, what do you want to say, huh? what does that even mean? - I asked holding her arm and turning her to me. 

means, I don't want you to be around me. I don't want any relation with a man who can't even respect me. - she said jerking her arm off from my hands. 

that means, you didn't forgive me, right? - I asked in low voice laced with sadness. 

It's not like that, I forgave you but it's just, I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to keep any kind of relation with you. I don't want myself to get hurt again. - she whispered the last part to herself but I heard it. she started going away but I held her hand in mine. 

don't go, please. Just give me another chance. I know, I am such a jerk and D*ckhead and I hurt you a lot but please, trust me, I will never repeat it again. just be my friend, please. - I said almost pleading to her.

she turned around to look at me and I saw tears running down her cheeks. I wiped them away. 

I am sorry, please. - I whispered joining my forehead with hers. 

it's not like I didn't forgive you. it's just I am afraid that you might break my heart again. you don't even know how much you hurt me throwing those words to me. - she said sniffing. 

I.... - I started but she just cut me off in the middle. 

she wiped her tears with her hands and asked looking straight into my eyes - 

tell me, do I look like a sl*t to you? Do you think that I am a w***e who just opened her legs for every guy? do you think I am a pr*stitute who sleeps in the be..... 

shut up. just shut up please. - I shouted at her keeping my hands on my ears so that I don't have to listen whatever she was saying. 

listening to her, I felt like someone is piercing thousands of the needles or pouring the hot boiled oil in my ears. 

I felt disgusted of myself to think such things about this pure and innocent soul. 

I know, I was angry at that time but this excuse of mine don't justify my behavior towards her. 

she is such an innocent soul who just know to spread happiness and light. she's such an angel and I used such kind of words for this pure soul. 

I looked up and saw she wasn't there. she left me there filled with guilt, pain and disgust. disgust towards myself. 

hey, you alright? - Miss librarian asked coming towards me. 

she didn't forgive me. she never will. - my voice came out more broken than I thought it would be. 

what happened? - she asked putting her hand on my shoulder. 

I hurt her so much. I hurt her. she will never forgive me. - I repeated those words again and again. 

hey, relax. if your love is true and powerful enough, then, she will definitely accept you. just don't lose hope, please. - she said trying to motivate me. 

do you think I deserve her? - I asked looking into her eyes. 

that doesn't matter. what matter is if she loves you or not. - she said picking up the lock from the table. 

I went to her and looked at her face. 

get out now or do you want to spend your night here itself? - she asked showing me a lock in her hand. 

I went out with her and she locked the door of the library and kept the key in her handbag safely. 

she will never love me. how can she love a person like me? - I whispered to myself but she heard it. 

why? what's wrong in you? you're a handsome guy. - she said complementing me. 

just don't give up on her otherwise you will lost her forever. just give her sometime and show her that how much you cared for her. she's a girl. she will melt soon by the heat of your love. - she said winking at me and then, sat in her car and drove away leaving me to ponder upon her words.