ROSES ARE NOT BLUE

Si Amiel ay isang regular student sa kanilang paaralan, tinatawag nya itong "isang paraiso" sapagkat may isa syang paborito ditong puntahan na tunay ngang nakabihag na ata sa kanyang puso, ang pasilyo, ang pasilyo sa 3rd floor kun saan kita lahat ng iba pang naturang building. Ngunit, magbabago ang lahat sa isang iglap. Haharap sya sa isang pagsubok na hahamunin ang kanyang pagkamatatag, kaya nya ba? "Kaya ko ba?",kahit siya'y napapatanong din. Malalaman niya ang misteryo at nakaraan ng kanyang "paraiso". Paano kung sa hindi inaasahang panahon magkaroon ka ng pagkakataon para makita at makapunta sa nakaraan at hinaharap ngunit, kailangan mo lamang mamili ng isa. Ano ang pipiliin mo, ang nakaraan nang nagdaan o ang paparating mong hinaharap? Sa pagpili ng desisyon kailangan mo ito pagnilayan, sabi nga ng iba "pag-isipan mo muna ito ng sampong beses bago ka mag-decide". Sa bawat desisyon na iyong binibitawan may epekto sa iyong hinaharap, isang maling galaw mo lang ay hindi mo na malaman kung ano pa ang maaaring mangyari sa susunod. Darating sa ating buhay na tayo ay magmamahal, isang bagay na ating mararamdaman sa isang panahon. Minsan nama'y nararamdaman natin ito sa kahit na sino at kahit na saan, pero paano kung dumating ang oras na kailangan nyo nang pakawalan ang isa't isa? ilalaban mo pa ba kahit alam mo na tadhana na ang kalaban mo o, susuko ka nalang alang alang sa kasiyahan at kalayaan nyong dalawa? Pero paano kung dumating din ang oras na ala ka ng pagpipilian, makakaya mo ba? hahamunin mo pa rin ba si kupido? makikinig kaba sa sinasabi na ng isip mo na "tama na, suko na hindi na tayo mananalo, magparaya kana"? Saan sa bawat desisyon na iyong ginagawa isinasaalang alang mo ang sarili mong kasiyahan, sapagkat higit sa lahat ikaw lang at ikaw lang ang magmamahal at mag-aalaga sa sarili mo, kaya't huwag kang magpadurog ng dahil lang sa isang pagsubok. Someone's POV Once there's a girl, with a different magic powers. She fight for her rights, she's not picky at all, she stands as a mother of her friends even though she was the youngest. She cares much for them rather than herself. Everyone loves her because of her attitude specially, him. He always watch her from far 'cause he's afraid that he might lose her if he ever come near her to court her. No one knows that destiny had already make a plan. She can go back to the past or she can go to her future if she ever wanted, and her travel will give her many challenges that will make her more stronger and critical thinker than before. LET'S MEET THE CHARACTERS AMIELA LYFIE SAMONTE 3rd year accountancy student, galing sa mayamang pamilya, 19 years old na nagmamay ari na ng isang company, she named it Paradise. She's the long time girlfriend of Xenon Cruel Clever. She's beautiful, had a long eyelashes, thick eyebrows, pointy nose and a pinkish lips that's shapes like a heart. She's not that thin or fat, i mean she's a damn sexy woman that is giving too much care for others rather than herself. She have a heart failure but it is not that complicated because she can control it and she have a medicines that she needs to take every day but no one knows that she's not taking it anymore. Flashback Amiela's POV After ng pag aaway namin ni Xenon, I try to reach him out to fix our problem to fix, our relationship. The destiny is kinda funny, it jokes me haha. Days, weeks, months, 2 years have passed no Xenon text me. There is no Xenon that I reached. Tinawagan ko na lahat ng kaibigan sa abroad na kilala ko hanggang sa umabot ako ng 2 years na alang contact sakanya. "A-ami is that really y-you?" hindi makapaniwalang wika sa akin ni Crysta, classmate ko nung kami ay first year high school pa lamang ng magkasalubong kami sa mall, na Isa sa pagmamay ari ko. "yeah hi Crysta, how are you, it's been a long time" halos pilit na ngiti ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay medyo hirap pa ko ma umahon sa nakaraan ko. Xenon really leaves a scar on me. "I'm fine girl, you how are you ang laki ng pinag bago mo anong nangyari, sorry to say this pero ang laki ng pinayat mo dati ay sexy kana mhie what happened bigla kang pumayat ng todo, well sexy ka pa rin naman"ani nito kaya natawa namn ako ng bahagya ng biglang may tumawag sa akin kaya nagpa alam na ako kay Crysta at Pina assist ko nalang sya sa isa sa mga staff ko dito sa boutique na pinuntahan nya, i smiled at her a i walk away, she smiled me back that makes me sad so i ran to her and hug her tight, nagtaka naman sya sa inasta ko pero she hugged me back and comfort me. "i know you are not okay, even at my first sight on you here i can tell that you have a big problem, i can say it by your eyes" she said while caressing my back kaya mas lalong humirap sakin na pigilan ang kanina ko pang nagbabadya na luha. "b-bes masakit na e" sabi ko sakanya habang umiiyak na parang bata sa bisig ng kanyang ina. "shh bhie it's okay, just always remember that I'm always here for you okay? no matter what happens I'm your bes"she said and wiped out my tears. A month had past after that incident, as Crysta said to me i try to move on and i made it bakasyon naman kaya we decided na mag work sa iisang company, sa company nila kuya Blake. "W-wow ma ikaw ba yan?" si Neo na kapapasok lang sa office ko at naabutan akong nakatayo sa harap ng bintana ng office ko at tinitingnan yung view. I'm now wearing a color dust blue skirt and a white long sleeves that the 2 buttons are open that exposing my collarbone and small peak of my cleavage, i guess she's shock to see me like this cause I'm not use to wear this kind of clothes. I just tied up my hair up and wear a not that dark pink lipstick that i also put some lip oil to make it more shiny and glowy. "Yes baby it's me" I said while approaching Neo with a shock on her face. "ma maganda kana nga noon mas gumanda at nagpa ganda kapa ata ngayon, mukang mas lalo akong mahihirapan mag bantay sayo kapag nakita ka ng boys ha" ani nito kaya natawa namn ako. Tahimik ang paligid dito sa loob ng office ko, nakakapanibago yung ganitong feeling hindi ako sanay, rinig at ramdam na ramdam ko ang lamig ng paligid at tingin ng mga tao sa loob ng office ko na ngayon at matiim lang akong tinitigan na akala mo namang pumatay ako ng kung ilang daang libong tao sa mundo na nagpa bawas sa populasyon. "ehem" pagtikhim ko bilang panimula para naman mabasag ang nakaka binging katahimikan dito sa loob ng office ko. " pwede ko po bang malaman kung bakit kayo ganyan makatingin sa akin, around 1 month lang naman akong nawala sa mga mata nyo pero bakit naman kayo ganyan makatingin may dumi ba aa muka ko? hindi ba maganda yung suot ko? may pang palit pa naman ak-" naputol ang sinasabi ko ng may naramdaman akong malamig na palad sa bibig ko, tinakpan ba naman akala mo namang may sinasabi akong masama sa kanila, syempre si Yumi to e malamang tatakpan talaga nya bibig ko, lagi naman hindi nman nakakasama ng loob konti lng as in. Nagulat naman ako ng may humablot sa kamay ni Yumi na nakalagay sa bibig ko ngunit napuno ng tawanan ng magsalita ang humablot ng kamay nya na si Mika lang pala."tama kana accla baka mapano lang yang si Ami ko, right Ami" ani nito sakin at lumapit pa para pigain ng bahagya ang pisngi ko kaya natawa naman kaming lahat sa inasta nya. Nandito ngayon sa office ko sina, kuya Rase, Blake, Blair, Nao, Yumi, and syempre itong si Mika hindi mawawala. Pare parehas naming napah desisyunan na dito nalang muna mag work sa company nila kuya Blake kasi ala din namang pasok kahit na graduating na sila Kuya and kami naman nila Mika is 3rd year college, 1st year college kami nung umalis si Xenon and now we are 3rd year college at konti nalang graduating na kami pero naka move on naman na ko tanggap ko na lahat ng kinalabasan ng mga pangyayaring hindi ko naman kasalanan at walang may kasalanan,yan nalang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko para hindi na masakit. "Napaka ganda mo talagang bata ka kaya mukang mas mahihirapan kami ng mga kuya mo na gwardyahan ka sa mga magiging manliligaw mo" sabi ni kuya Rase habang natatawa, nakipag apir naman si kuya Blair kay kuya Rase na parang nakipag agree or nag close ng deal,hays. Nagtatawanan kami at nagbibiruan ng bigla akong makaramdan ng kakaiba sa gawing puso ko pero pinasawalang bahala ko lang ito kasi normal naman na sakin to, lagi naman akong ganto kaya normal na to pero kahit ganon alang may alam kahit sino na may nararamdamn akong ganto. Pinagpatuloy ko ang pagsasawalang bahala dahil ayoko silang mag alala sakin at tsaka nasa kalagitnaan kami ng magandang usapan. Sa pagtagal ng oras nararamdamn ko nalang na nahihirapan na kong huminga at sa pagpapatuloy non naramdaman ko nlng na bumigat ang talukap ng mga mata ko at nawalan na ko ng malay, bago pa man iyon ay nakita ko ang nag aalalang muka ni Kuya Rase na syang ata nagbuhat sakin. Rase POV Kanina ko pang napapansin na parang hindi mapakali si Ami pero inakala ko na baka naiinitan lang sya kasi mainitin talaga tong bata na to e. Ala dito ngayon si Axe dahil may nilakad kaya binilin sya samin nila Blair and Blake,ala lang naman samin yon dahil kapatid at prinsesa naman na ang turing namin kay Ami it is also because that she is the youngest among us. I continue monitoring her until she hold her chest and I can see that she's in pain but then it's just a light come from, i saw Ami lying on the floor so i carry her to drive her to hospital. I put Ami on the car then Blair is the driver, the others are on the another car and following us, I'm with Blake 'cause i know he won't agree with me if I said that he need to go to another car. When we're on the hospital i already saw the nurses and doctors that ready to assist Ami, I'm glad that we have these kind of connections. Natataranta naman kaming lahat dahil bigla nalang nag pass out si Ami e she's a healthy woman, she had a proper diet and a vitamins so we don't have any idea what would be the reason. Ipinasok na si Ami sa emergency room at andito kaming lahat sa labas ng pintuan ng emergency room, pinatawagan ko na rin si Axe at sila tita Carmen para sabihin ang nangyari kay Ami. The girls are crying quietly in the corners and praying for Ami to be okay and there's the two looking at the ceiling to stop their teara from falling, i am not surprised why they are acting like that, we just care too much for Ami like she's our life. I felt like I'm trembling and my tears are ready to fall but I stop it by biting my lower lip, i don't want to cry right now they need someone to be strong in this kind of situation but my life just stop when i hear something in the emergency room. I hear that the doctor's are preparing to save his breath, her heart just stop. "H-her h-heart s-stop" halos ala ng boses na wika ko at hindi na napigilang maluha. "N-no not now baby, n-no Ami, AMI F-FIGHT, fight Ami." Utal at humahagulgol na iyak ko sa labas ng pintuan ng emergency room. Lahat kami dito ay nag iiyakan na ng dumating si Axe. "Rase what happened to my Ami" Axe said with a authority with his voice but it's obvious that he's afraid and his tears want to fall down. "H-her heart s-stop A-axe" i said as I'm trembling right now in front of him. "W-what?!" he said and just kneel down and punch the floor. "W-what happened to my princess why is it so random?" he said. "We're just talking and laughing and have some joke around and t-then by that she pass out we don't have a clue Axe" Blake answer for me. The doctor came out from the emergency room and talk to us. "It’s no secret that being overweight or obese can increase your risk for numerous health problems, including stroke, some cancers, heart disease, and depression. What many people don’t realize, however, is that we can suffer all these problems even if we’re normal weight or underweight. Scientists have even coined a phrase for this phenomenon: “thin on the outside, fat on the inside,” or TOFI. Instead of being “overweight,” these people are “under-lean” (i.e., they don’t have enough muscle) and have a little extra weight around the middle, or “belly fat.” TOFIs have the metabolic features of a prediabetic obese person: Low muscle mass, inflammation, high triglycerides, low good cholesterol, high blood sugar, and high blood pressure." mahabang lintanya ng doctor samin but still we can't process what she says because Ami is healthy, she had a healthy and proper diet so it's, impossible. " Somehow heart failure can also cause by stress and i can tell that the patient is stress this past few months" she said as we all listen to her. " She's okay her heart beat came back,she survived but she died for 10 minutes but miracle happen and now she's alive again" she said that make us smile and left a heavy sigh. Hindi ko maipaliwanag yung na ffeel ko right now 'cause yes hindi ko kadugo si Ami but i love her as a real sister and i don't want her to let go or be gone nor to hurt by someone. I saw how Axe had a little smile on his face when she found out that her sister, Ami is alive. "Oh thank god my A-ami is alive, my princess" mangiyak ngiyak na sabi ni Axe habang nakatingin sa salamin ng pintuan ng kwarto where Ami is laying. Days had passed since Ami had an heart attack, it's not that worse but still she need to be confined here, I'm now here walking down the hallway of the hospital with some fruits in my hand and a bouquet of tulip flowers that one of Aimi's favorite flowers. I'm now standing in front of her door when i heard them talking, Ami and her kuya Axe, looks like they're arguing again. "Kuya malakas na ko pls uwi na tayo hindi ako makatulog dito ng maayos e look namamayat na ko, I'm not sexy anymore look" narinig ko na sinabi ni Ami sa kuya nya kaya hindi pa man nakakasagot si Axe ay pumasok na ko sa kwarto at sumagot. " If that's what my princess wants, I'll talk to your doctor to ask if you can now be released in this thingy 'cause like what you said namamayat kana and looks like hindi kana din nakakatulog ng maayos, my princess looks so tired na"ani ko habang nakangiti pero agad din akong napangiwi ng balibagin ako ng unan ni Axe na ngayong ay pinapatay na ko sa tingin nya. " Sige ikaw na kapatid"he mouthed that makes me laugh at him and throw him a piece of apple that he'll peel for Ami. I smiled when i saw Ami smiling at me, " thankyouu kuya Rase you're the best" ani nito na nagpangiti sa akin lalo. " Okay sige magsama kayo" ani ni Axe kaya napatawa nalang kami ni Ami. "Look Ami kaya ko lang naman na ayaw pa kitang lumabas sa hospital kasi baka ma stressed ka na naman ayoko ng maulit yung nangyari sayo Lyfie, hindi ko alam if anong mangyayari sakin if, if that will happen again" ani ni Axe ng may malungkot na boses. Naagaw naman ng atensyon ko ng bigla akong kalabitin ni Ami at naintindihan ko naman ang gusto nyang iparating, inalalayan ko sya para makababa sa bed nya so that she can go to Axe on the sofa. "Kuya look your princess is like a metal okay so you don't need to be afraid, it won't happen again i promise tsaka kuya sawang sawa na ko sa amoy ng room ko, i miss my real room" ani ni Ami na ngayon ay nakaupo na sa tabi ni Axe. Pumayag naman na si Axe na lumabas sya sa hospital we just need the approval of her doctor. Weeks had past seen nakalabas na sa pagkaka confine si Ami, ang sigla nya not like before. We are on our way home, ako na ang nag drive para kina Ami at Axe yung dalawang kambal naman ayon nakasunod samin,sabi ko dito nalang din sila sumakay kaso ayaw naman nila i don't know why. "Kuya tamo tong si Blake" biglang wika naman ni Ami kay Axe na katabi lang nya sa back seat kaya muka talaga kong driver dito. "Hmm why, what it is?" sagot naman ni Axe. "Ganto kasi yan kuya dba I'm asking Blake na why they didn't just sabay to us like we can fit here naman right?" conyo na sabi ni Ami habang maamong nakatingin kay Axe,ako naman nakikinig lang ako kasi nagtataka din ako kung bakit ayaw sumabay dito nila Blake parang ewan lang e. "Wait Ami is that really you, my baby is back" natawa naman ako sa inasta ni Axe at sa sinabi nito kay Ami but yes our baby is back, before when she's young like around 4 years old, conyo talaga sya but for us as her kuya's she's too cute to laugh for everytime she's speaking in a conyo way. "Psh, kuya stop saying na I'm a baby I'm grown na kaya look" sabi pa nito habang pinipilit na tumayo sa kotse, she can't fit here though she's to tall to stand here. Axe patted her head and tap the sit as sign to Ami to back to her seat. "Whatever Ami, so what's Blake's respond?" ani ni Axe. "Well Blake state a unbelievable reason kuya, he says na the reason why they didn't join us here 'cause he want to protect me like a VIP, they're following us so that they're aware whatever happens to us here in the car like kuya i can protect you naman" Ami said in a cool way, i can't deny that makes me laugh a bit. I cleared my throat before i speak. " Well Ami we can't blame them why they're acting like that, they're just protecting you, alam mo naman na for them i mean for us you're out princess and our forever baby" i said. After an almost hour we arrived at one of Blair's famous resto's. The theme was too simple but it looks cool and elegant and a aesthetic also. The walls are painted black but not that too dark and it have some white on the corners and the lights was too simple chandelier it's also cool here. It contains three floors. I'm one of the managers here's because Blair said that he trust me when it comes to business. " This punk" i said as i saw Xenon right in front of the counter. I flinched when i remember that I'm with Ami so i turn my back and there, i saw Ami smiling at me while walking and holding a cup of coffee, she always had that cup. I ran to her and hug her until i saw on my peripheral view that Xenon was fully gone, i leg go of her when i saw it, i feel like Ami was curious because of what I've do but i just smiled at her and pat her head and lead her the way of our reserved table. As we're heading on our table Axe and the twin sudden approach me so i call one of the managers to guide Amiela on her way on our table and make her order what she wants. "You see it don't you?" Axe said to me i just nodded. "So what now, should we tell Lyfie about this?" Blair said but he just receive a slap on her tummy by Blake. "We won't tell it to Ami, not again but you Axe should we tell her about this, i guess it's her right to know that her boyfriend, no i mean her ex boyfriend is here again, back in the Philippines" Blake's said as looking deeply on Axe that now is looking at Ami's direction. "Wag na muna" i said, Axe looked at me as if his waiting for my explanation. "For now wag muna kagagaling lang niya sa hospital and she's from heart attack, guys Ami become dead for f*****g 10 minutes, if we tell this to Ami it can trigger her that can to her attack again, i know we all can't let that happen again" i said in a serious voice as I'm looking to Axe. " Ami is matured enough to know about this but you're right Rase for now we can't tell this to Ami, someday basta not now but soon okay now let's order our food I'm hungry enough to talk about that shitty head" Axe said then he walk first and then we just followed him. As we're eating i can sense that someone is looking and watching us. I look at Axe and he just nodded at me means he also feeling it. I excuse myself and go to the cctv room to check something, 'cause i know something is wrong this feeling isn't right anyway. As soon as i enter the room, Deiv greeted me so i just nod at him and ask him if can I see the cctv footage on our table and he let me too, ala naman syang magagawa I'm a manager here. As we're going into it, Axe entered the room. As soon as we see the footage we can spot the black hoodie guy at the right side of our table. "I'm right he's looking at us" Axe suddenly said so I'm a bit confused by that time 'cause who the heck is that guy watching us eating? I know it can't be Xenon, "is that f*****g Xenon Clever?" i raised my voice when i clearly saw the guy that watching us eating or should i say that the guy watching Ami eating. "No other than" Axe said in a calm way. I don't know why I'm acting like this like I'm kinda feel anger at my body and also I'm afraid that Ami will know about this but how this guy right in front of me just eating one of his Shanghai's while being calm. "You" Axe looked at me confused, "how the f*****g bird your calm while knowing that it's Xenon watching us eating?" i said and Axe just laugh at me, again. "Look Rase, Xenon is our friend since then so i know him, i know that i know him that much he won't approach Ami looking like that? Nah he won't" Axe said as he bite in his Shanghai. Habang pinapanood namin ni Axe ang replay ng cctv camera kung saan una kaming dumating parehas kaming nagulat na tumunog ang fire alarm, " oh s**t" sabay na wika namin ni Axe at sabay kaming lumabas ng pinto habang patakbong tumutungo sa table namin kung nasan andon sila Ami and the twin, ganon nalang ang takot namin ng makita lang namin sa table yung kambal "w-wala si Ami" i whispered. When we approach the twin we ask where's Ami but they didn't know they said that someone push them due to urgency then Ami is gone. Halos mabingi naman kami ng biglang tumunog yung speaker na animo'y may mic na grounded ang nakatutok doon. " Good day everyone sorry if what happen but it's a false alarm we're asking for your forgiveness, again we apologize what just happened" ani ng speaker ngunit hindi pa rin kami nakakahinga ng maluwag dahil nawawala pa rin si Ami. " A-ami?!" Blake's said kaya napalingon kami sa direction kung saan sya nakatingin, and then there she is looking like a child that didn't have an idea what happening. " Ami where have you been?" Axe said as he's checking Ami if there's any injury or if something is hurt on her. " K-kuya chill let's go home na" Ami said with a smile on her face but i can sense that something is weird, something is not right. Once again, nahagip ng peripheral vision ko yung lalaking naka hoodie, si Xenon he's still here. Ami's POV We're heading out from the hospital, I'm now free haha. As we're walking i can sense that something is not right, my heart beat is not that calm i don't know why kalmado naman ako I'm not even tense but i guess this is just because I'm exited to go to the resto again. I also found out that i have a heart failure but I didn't mind to think about or give a care about it'cause i can handle this smoothly. While I'm looking at the window of the car i saw something familiar. "That thing, i guess i saw it somewhere" i silently said so that kuya's won't hear me, i don't want to disturb them though. "back then when i was young, i tend to enjoy playing a lot with my friends that i didn’t even notice that it’s getting dark. bidding good byes to my friends and getting sad of going home. i admit, i don’t want to be alone because i thought that it’s lonely. i kept on telling myself that i would not make it if i’ll lose a friend or someone important to me but, look at me now, enjoying the days like nothing happened. losing them is a chance for me to be independent and to get stronger. but now, the fact that i smiled and i laughed a lot these past few days without someone by my side means that i enjoyed my own company. i just realized that i don’t need someone to make me happy, i can make myself happy alone. being alone is not being lonely. it is about being happy and enjoy what you have right now. no other than, it’s yourself." basa ko sa isa sa mga post ko sa nf ng nagbukas ako ng ig ko. We're still heading on are way home when i decided to chat kuya Blake's why they didn't join us here in the van when it can literally fit us all. His respond just make us laugh and i also feel thankful for having them at this time. We're not even blood related but on how they treat me like a princess and there life it's just make me feel important and love. "Imma protect you soon to kuya's just wait i can give back all your loves for me" i said as im looking at kuya Axe that's now sleeping on my shoulder, kuya must be tired 'cause she's the one who taked care of me i mean they all take care of me but kuya didn't even leave me alone at the room when I'm confined he literally saying that he'll protect me no matter what what happens even if i had a heart failure he'll fight for me but he also said that he'll continue fighting for me if i also fight for my own life and make myself happy everytime.